INTRO

       People always say, "Be careful what you wish for." I never listened to that. What was the point? I wished my parents would accept me for who I was. That never happened until years later I came out, but only my dad did. Never my mom.

       However, as much as my mom hated who I was, I could never hate her. In fact, I was starting to miss her, especially on the night before my dad was to remarry. I didn't know why I was missing her. My dad was marrying the woman who took me in after I was kicked out of my home at seventeen. He was marrying the mother of one of my best friends, the girl I first came out to. He was marrying someone who made me happy.

       And for some reason, that wasn't okay with me.

       I was missing how my family was before I came out. I was missing my parents being happily married. I was missing everything I had when I was a teenager.

       So deep inside, I wished things could go back to the way it was before I came out.

       I didn't realize that meant losing my husband.

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