Siya's POV:

He kept nibbling through my lips and I responded to each of his attempt...
It was long awaited...
After all...
It's never easy to let go when someone you 'Loved' kisses you....

Yes.... I loved him!!!
But he broke my heart into a billion pieces...

😢

Flashback begins...

'Aditi....he's so different... Yet he's so caring...

He doesn't speak yet his gestures are so heart warming...

Although he doesn't say anything...he is so warm...

Every night he comes back from work...
I have already hit the bed...
He comes covers the quilt till my neck.
Removes my glasses.
Takes my book and keeps aside.
Switches off the reading lamp.

Mornings I get up early...
He makes it a point to soak extra badam for me along with him.
When I asked him once ..
'He said...I do gym you do yoga... work out is one and the same na...'
Yesterday I had a neck pain...the usual spondylitis... urghhhh I hate it...
He saw me struggling...
He quietly bought some Ayurvedic oil and gave me a massage.
I was feeling a tingling sensation in my tummy but....
He never made me feel awkward...

The other day I was down with periods.
And you know my periods cramps...
He didn't let me step out of the bed.
He told Amma that I can't work for next 5 days. Initially I thought it's orthodox. But when he told me I must save energy to work on my bakery I was wondering how sweet can a man be...he's so caring.
Every night he got me hot water bag... when I couldn't bear the pain one night.
He got up and sat next to my foot and began applying pressure on certain points on my foot and it was so relaxing.
He massaged my calf muscles as it was so painful.

He is so caring Aditi... how can someone not fall for him...' I said dreamily...

'Now that's why I have decided I'll tell him my feelings... I don't know maybe it will help us get closer' I said stirring Madgane (Sweet made of Bengal gram, coconut milk and jaggery).

To which Aditi hugged me...
'Im so so happy for you Siyu'

While I heard Amma's voice....
'Ohoooooo so that's the reason someone was asking me what's my son's favorite sweet ahannnn nice... Indeed my Raghav is lucky to have you as his wife Siyu...god bless you both' Amma kept hand on my head and I blushed to my roots...

I had secretly even bought a watch for him...it's as a mark of good times coming in our life!!!

He came...
He ate...
But didn't tell anything...
And the same night before he could discover my gift I left with a little love note for him on his dressing table I discovered existence of his 'Girlfriend' as I heard him speak that night on the phone!!!

It was heart wrenching 🥺
Broken to the core...
I took the watch and the note and kept it in my suitcase and began packing my bag!!!
I wanted to leave his home then and there...
But then I preferred to wait...
I cursed myself for considering his humanity and friendship as love...
But...
He was my husband...
Above all such a good man
Who wouldn't fall for him...

I remember I told Shilpa..

It's not love!!!
But then the night I saw him taking care of me overnight when I was vomiting and crying due to my cramps and was down with fever and hot flashes...
He took care of me so much that I fell for him..deeply!!!

But then it's not necessary that everyone finds their true love right???

Some also get their hearts broken 💔
Mine broke...
Real bad!!!
Such bad that all I wanted was his happiness...
I hated him for not loving me...
I was jealous of the girl whom he loved...
I wanted to hit my head to a stone for not making any boyfriends ever and believing the logic of arranged love!
I fell for him so hard!!!
I tried convincing me every night for months till our divorce was signed off by the court that
'its infatuation!!!'

But No!!!

It wasn't!!!

My bad luck!!!

I was scared of breakups...seeing my friends having multiple heartbreaks I was determined...

It's only arranged marriage for me...
Because no boyfriend no breakup!!!

But who knew...

Marriages bring worse!
They bring a divorcee tag!!!
But worse...
It kills you every day and night...
When you love the man you are going to divorce!
But he doesn't love you back!!! 🥺

Flashback ends...

Recalling every minute painful moment from my hidden pages of life...
Which only Aditi and his mother knew...

I pushed him back!!!

He kept looking at me like a drunk romantic...

We both were breathing hard gasping and craving for air...
I kept looking at him...I expected him to apologise or say words like..

'Im sorry'

But this man was anything I ever saw...
The next minute he pushed me on to the wall and began showering kisses and hickeys on my jaws, neck and shoulders...
Kissing...sucking and biting me like he devoured me...
I was standing rooted and frozen feeling the heat this moment had garnered...

But I couldn't forget our divorce...
It was painful...
Atleast for me!!!

I even quit Karnataka and began living in Mumbai.
It was so unexpected and tough!!!

But I somehow got everything under control...I can't get into this destruction again...
It's not easy to trust!!!

Realising he was loosing his self control and had begun unbuttoning my night dress shirt ...I pushed him with a lot of force before he lost his self control!!!

When he came back to me again cupping my face ..
I was stunned ..

'Ok....I'm...I'm... sorry... I ....I know...I'm loosing my mind... But I love you Siya...I love you so so much' he said kissing my forehead...

But pushing him away I said...
'But I don't'

And there was silence in the room

He turned me around and said...
'You responded to my advances'

'Raghav .....it was in the heat of the moment... Just in the flow...I....
I don't love you' I said looking elsewhere...

He turned me around holding my shoulders...
'Thats why you are still single is it Siya???'

'Being single or committed is my choice Mr Raghav Prabhu!!!' I yelled at him...

'O really???

And rejecting every damn proposal since last 3 years and getting me my favorite strawberry crush pastry which very few bakeries make in entire Karnataka and is right now the most popular cake in Siya's is also your choice...

Or...

Donating your 1 month profits every year to an orphanage and a old age home every 10th July...on my birthday should also be a 'Choice' right???'

He said it all and I was speechless!!!

'I don't love you Mr Raghav Prabhu and I don't think I want to explain you anything' I said trying to walk away...

Next second he pulled back and kissed on my lips so passionately that I couldn't breathe...
He squeezed my shoulders and slowly moved his hands from my shoulders to my waist and softly brushed his fingers and I responded back like crazy..
Pushing him against the wooden cupboard and kissing him rigorously...

And he pulled out and smirked...
While slowly rubbing my smudged lip balm all over my face and said...

'You Love me Siya ...but you are angry...
And you know what...
You must be...
I deserve to be punished...
I broke the most beautiful woman's heart in this world...
Someone who is gorgeous inside out...
Someone who has robbed my heart...
Someone who I promise will soon bear my babies 😉' he said winking and I slapped him.

But he was still smiling.
'Shutup ...don't show me your teeth and get out of this room'

To which he chuckled saying ...
'Hate me .. Slap me... But baby... I now know you love me too...
So...
My mom taught me although you fail in a subject but you attempt it again 😂
I know I failed our marriage...
But I will attempt it again Jaan' he said...

I was fuming now!!!
'What nonsense...I am not your Jaan'

To which he leaned against me again and said...
'Believe me baby...you are much more than that...
You are my soul baby...you are my life' saying he stroked my hair strand and kissed my nose...

'Dont touch me' I yelled...

'Im not...I'm just' *pecked my nose* kissing you ..' saying he chuckled...

This Idiot!!! He's enjoying this is it!!!

'I will marry anyone mom says except you' and he looked at me and smiled...

'You Love me Siya' he said with tears in his eyes and a smile on his lips...

Pressing my lips hard I yelled...
'Did I tell you that??? I don't love you'

I shouted!!!

'Ok then... marry me' he said with a smile

'Are you mad??? If I don't love you why will I marry you???'

'Oh... revenge baby revenge...marry me...and don't love me...this time I'll cook for you...I can make a decent dalitoy (Yellow lentil soup)' he said leaning more into me...

'Oh just get out Raghav...' I screamed

'I can't baby...now that I know how you feel about me...I wont' he said leaning on the wall next to me folding his hands against his chest.

'Fine then I'll go' saying I started walking away ...

While I felt a pull on my waist and I was back in his arms...

'Relax Jaan' he said pulling me into a hug...

I was struggling to get out of his hug...but he squeezed me more and began caressing my back.

I kept hitting his chest and shoulders...I was hitting him non stop...but after sometime I stopped!!!

Raghav's POV:

She was so angry on me. She was hitting me non stop but I was smiling like a cat who got his happy cream ❤️
Slowly I felt a pang when I felt her head resting on my chest.

It was peace!!!❤️

That's when I heard loud sobs...she began crying so loudly clenching my t-shirt...

I was so worried now...
I cooed her and hugged her warm and began crying my heart out...

'Im sorry Siya...I'm sorry my Jaan...I love you baby...I'm sorry for hurting you...I didn't know ..I didn't have the slightest hint...I'm sorry darling...please... please baby' she was crying real real bad...

I kissed her hairs and made her lie down on the bed and caressed her hair.

'I hate you Raghav... I hate you...
Not once you thought if I could have developed feelings for you...
Not once right???
Vedika was all you thought of
..why should I marry you now... answer me why????
You left me broken...you shattered me...yet your love didn't die... which is now like rotten wound in my heart...
Can't be plucked out like rotten tooth nor can I live like this...' she said and I looked into her face which had so much pain..

Her tears were tearing me apart!!!
I never realised a silent divorce could impact our lives this much!!!
I never knew she loved me since then!!!

I felt guilty!!!
I hugged her tightly...
'Im sorry Siyu...I swear I ...I didn't...I was blinded by outer beauty. I thought girls who talk are bold and girls who are silent are dumb!!!
My perception was so immature...
Please Siya... forgive me...
Just one chance Siya...
Please'

She nodded a no and held her hands on her face and began crying.

'Leave Raghav... please leave me alone...im not keeping well' she said holding her stomach and I stood up...

'Cramps?' I asked...

She didn't reply and continued crying silently hiding her face in her hands...

Just then I walked upto her feet and began massaging the points to relieve her cramps...

To which she said...
'Stop Raghav...no ahhh...please...leave...it's...no... please don't'

'Shhhh... Just lie down' I said her and she silently lied down.

I massaged her foot and she relaxed a bit more.

She closed her eyes...

Tears flowed from my eyes realising how much she went through all these years...

Holding both her foot in my hands I said...
'I know I don't deserve it...I know I've hurt you beyond limits... knowingly unknowingly I let go a diamond like you...I'm
..I'm sorry my Jaan....
You are right... I don't deserve you!!!
If possible... forgive me baby...' I cried my heart out falling at her feet.
Maybe this is what I deserve for breaking an innocent heart.

I walked out of the room only to see Aditi and Naman standing outside her room.
I saw Aditi's fiery eyes killing me angrily. But the minute she saw tears in my eyes her expressions softened a little

I didn't want to explain or talk. I went to my room and closed the door.

***

'Dubai' I told Dad and he was shocked.

'But Bro...I ...I will go...you are handling so much here' Naman said...

'No Namu...I... have spoken to Mr Yaseen... Mr Parvez wants to meet me...and I also haven't travelled for a year now
..let me....... Go!!' I said...

While I earned a strong gaze from mom and Aditi however the person who's gaze I craved for silently was playing with the upma in her plate.

'When are you going Raghav?' dad asked...

'Tomorrow midnight after Addu's birthday' I said.

Now I heard Aditi's voice...
'Raghav so.... early???' and next she saw Siya who was still playing with the upma in her plate.

I hadn't expected a reaction from Aditi...but she didn't look happy...

She kept looking at me and Siya...
I smiled for a moment as I realised... although she was angry with me she still shipped me with her sister.

But then...

I probably don't deserve your sister Aditi!!!

Post breakfast I was packing my bags while I saw Aditi Naman come to my room...

'Why are you running away Raghav' Aditi asked me and I smiled...

'Im not Aditi' saying I continued packing my bags.

'You are...I can see you love Siya ..you both think if a cat silently drinks milk closing its eyes doesn't mean no one saw the cat' she said and I smiled...

'Im not hiding anything here Aditi...I love Siya' I said at once and I saw both Aditi and Naman's mouth wide open...

'Yes I do... and I proposed your sister last night' I broke the bomb and at once Aditi jumped near my bed and Naman pounced on me...

'Oh God... finally... didn't I tell you Aditi...Bro is smitten...I knew it...I knew it...' Naman jumped at once...

'No need to be excited...Siya hates me...' I said smiling sadly...

'Do you have brains Raghav???' Aditi asked

And I looked at her...

'Years ago you dump my gem like sister for that recycled plastic Vedika...my cow like sister loved you even after that... such that she has rejected any and every proposal till now. Finally I said mom that if she still loves you we must give it a chance...so mom and Amma both planned to give you both some time to see if there are sparks...but here there is a full fledged diwali boss' she said and my eyes popped out 😳😲

They plotted all this!!!
Like they literally planned this???
What the!!!

'But now you are going away leaving Siya again??? Come on Raghav...learn to own upto your mistakes....
That women out there ...
Loves you...
It's just her anger that isn't letting her confess!!!
I know my Siyu from childhood...
The girl who wouldn't let me hug her white teddy bear even after 27 years of being my sister... even after its turned a brown one today, lost its one eye and lost its fluffiness... Because she's attached to it and committed to it ..
You think will be able to love someone else even when forced????

She even denied to marry someone even while dad threatened to not talk to her you think she doesn't love you Raghav?' she said and my eyes started welling up.

She held my hand and said...
'She loves you Raghav... she's just too stubborn to accept... It's her self respect initially and now it's her ego'

I broke down real bad when I heard she also loves me...

Naman patted my back and I cried to my heart's content. After wiping my face I asked...

'So you mean I must stay?' I asked Aditi while I heard a voice from the door...

'Stay and win her back' I lifted my head to see Amma standing at the door.

'Amma???' she came walking to me and sat on the bed.

My mother was talking to me face to face after 5 big years and I hugged her tightly.

'Shhhh....stop it Raghav...I wouldn't have forgiven you ever but now that you realise what you lost I am here to tell you same like Aditi...win her back...woo her back... make her the rightful daughter in law of Prabhu family' and I nodded my head and hugged mom tightly.

Siya's POV:

Everyone was appreciating me for the choco waffle tower cake that I made for Addu's birthday.

There was a good crowd. Almost every respected businessman, doctors, VIP's had attended this party.

It was a little awkward for me as I heard a few comments

'Isnt she Raghav's ex wife'

'Aditis sister na...is she ok?'

'Poor girl

'How uncomfortable and shameful na attending a family function of her ex husband's neice'

I kept looking here and there while I heard a voice...

'Aunty I guess Addu is as much neice to Siya as to me...I don't understand how should she be ashamed here... because it was I who divorced her...
Dumped her for another woman who's true colors were visible to me later...
But you attend my every party...

How shameful na...
Of me...
And you!!!'

And I turned to see Raghav standing next to me in a navy blue suit.

Soon the lady disappeared after hearing Raghav and I began to walk away...

While I was blocked by him and he bent to whisper in my ears ..

'We are matching Siya'
His hot breath fanned on my cheeks and ears creating a havoc in my heart.

I don't know how many beats did my heart skip right now!!!

'But we don't match... materialistic things don't matter' I said walking away...

While I again felt him too close to me such that his front touched my back and he whispered again in my ears...

'Exactly...but our hearts match!!!' saying he left a husky kiss on my ear and I jumped in shock 😳

He did this in the crowd of a 300+ people who were here at the party.

I walked away while I felt him hold my wrist and I swayed away his hand angrily...

'Dont touch me!!! I have told you before...I don't have any feelings for you...so just don't repeat these lousy things again... I don't care what you do...get it??? Now go .. find someone who is ok to take your advances...Vedika Shedika anyo'

And before I could complete my line he pulled me into his chest...

'Really Siya??? Me going closer to anyone won't bother you? He asked ...

His lips were inches away from mine...
I swallowed hard...
But soon my anger overpowering my emotions I barked...

'No...Fu*k off'

Now he just walked away...

Soon music began playing loudly and people began doing close dancing.

A guy came and asked me but I denied but next second I could see Raghav dancing with a girl.

She was wearing a pink dress which was barely covering her assets!!!
Who the heck dresses up like that at a kid's birthday Party 😠

And this man...till few minutes back he was saying he loves me and stuff now he's sticking to this whatever thing like a bloody chewing gum!!!

I passed by his side trying to listen to their talks...
But to my surprise she was saying...

'Wanna come over to my place tonight baby'

B*tch!!! What is her intention!!!

Raghav was asking her...
'Ummm what for mam'

And she circled her arms pressing her assets onto him saying...
'Oh come on...don't be so naive'

Raghav smiled nervously...

While she smirked saying...
'I hope now you understand what I mean' saying she slowly kissed his cheek and Raghav's eyes widened in shock

And here mine widened in anger 😠
Her bloody nerve to do that...

Next second I took a glass of Orange juice and went to her...

'Excuse me Miss' I said.

And she turned around saying...
'Shanaira...' she said flipping her hair and said...'Yes please...'

Her hand was pressing Raghav's chest and I got so bloody angry that I threw the glass of Orange juice on...
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His face!!!
And he was shocked...

'Siya what the...This is my new suit...I'm supposed to go to Dubai post the party along with miss Shanaira' he said and my eyes grew red in anger!!! 😡

He is going to Dubai with this B*tch!!!
I literally dragged him holding his hand to his room and pushed him towards the door and caged him!!!

He was nervous like a little lamb!!!
And literally my anger was at peak!!! Such that I wanted to rip him apart like a lioness!!!