Is that I don't ask, get embarrassed after I did something I thought I liked, having anxiety, having depression, having to be dishonest all the time, when I'm trying to relax and listen to music and I start thinking about bad things, thinking my friends might hate me...

Actually, thinking about all my friends leaving em makes me....

Scared....

I feel like a horrible friend. I don't ask for their permission to do stuff. I would steal from my irl friends when I was little. And I don't see what's wrong until the last minute.

I'm just....

I'm honestly depressed, and even if you guys support me, it's gonna come back. I love you guys, it's just I feel as if I don't care about you as much as in should. I would die for you guys, really I would. I don't deserve to live, really.

But I just feel like a horrible friend to you all...

I'm not gonna be writing until I can think of myself as a good person.

Heck, I need to stop so I can stop thinking about leaving.

Until further notice, this book is on hold for art, updates, and other stuff...

Sorry guys, I just feel like a horrible friend to you all...