Hello everyone! CATtheDrawer here.

I've done several of these updates telling you guys the reason I keep disappearing for several weeks and how I will try to get back to my weekly schedule. But we all know I just end up disappearing again.

For those of you who have been here since I started Falling to Rise know that I began that book 4 years ago. I was a freshman in high school.

It was during the time I was writing LOST, and for the first 4-5 months of LOST I was planning Falling to Rise. This was the most planning I'd ever done for a book and all the planning made me excited to write it.

Never once during Falling to Rise did I ever get a writer's block.

However, during the rest of the series, writing blocks were present every now and then.

Simply put, after 4 years I've fallen into a burn out of ideas. Sure I have the story all planned out, but the writing doesn't come out the way I want.

This is why even after I update I disappear again. Does this mean I want to stop? No! I really don't, stopping means leaving you guys on a permanent cliffhanger, something I don't want to do.

I don't want to end a story I love and want to see through to the end. I just currently need a little break. I never took more than a week absence before, and even then I sometimes still had chapters ready for my break.

The other reason for my absence is my real life. Juggling a job, my senior year, and scholarships for college has been one hectic roller coaster after the other (and I do not like roller coasters).

So I keep vanishing to take care of my responsibilities.

The last reason, and probably the biggest reason for my absence is recently I had an idea.

This idea is based off an old fanfic idea I had back when I was writing Falling to Rise. But I never started it because I was too busy with Falling to Rise and LOST.

It was a story about Adam losing his home to a cursed prince (Ty) that brought monsters and death to the land. Adam was accompanied by the soul of his dead friend (Ross).

At the time that was all I had. It wasn't really developed and was just a distant image in my head.

But I recently revisited the idea under the lens of making it an original idea.

It started with a small list of characters (Theo, Kana, Braux,...)

Then I drafted a plot (3 times might I add)

This past month or so has been non stop work and development. I created a map, began working on developing and redesigning characters. I began building a world and organized the scenes.

The amount of work I've been putting into this idea feels like i'm writing Falling to Rise all over again.

Falling to Rise was magical for me, it really kickstarted my passion for writing and was the story that blew up my wattpad. I have 900 followers because that story came into existence and so many people enjoyed it and still enjoy it. Every now and then I see comments that say they are re-reading the story which blows my mind.

To think I made something people actually enjoy rereading is amazing!

And now the spur of ideas and inspiration is happening again, but this time for a story of my own creation. There are no youtubers in this story, and its a story I want to publish.

Some of my absence of wattpad is due to this desire to continue to build and develop this idea so that one day I can share it with all of you who loved my mcyt stories.

All of you are such an important part of my life, without you I wouldn't be this devoted to writing.

Now I should mention the main reason I haven't been writing GAME OVER is for three reasons. One, as I said before I've been busy planning a story. Two, as also mentioned before, I'm running dry of ideas.

But the third reason is, GAME OVER is disappointing me. What I mean, things aren't happening the way I planned them, and it feels as though things are changing in a way I don't really like. For example, Alesa and Adam were supposed to grow closer, sooner. The scene where Adam and Ross dueled and Adam fell into the void was never planned. The falling into the void was planned, but the original scene was that Jin was being transferred to DROP, and to celebrate Adam, Ross, Barney, Jin, and Alesa went far away in secret to celebrate. But Adam fell in the void.

Plus there is also the sequel of GAME OVER called LEVEL UP that I want to write, but I probably won't be able to write it. Which makes me sad and disappointed.

So writing GO has been troubling as I'm stuck at the scene where Adam is falling into the void and I don't know how it should go anymore.

That's all for this update though!

:D

I'm still really sorry about my absence, but thank you for sticking with me and understanding.