Yo , I don't know if I vent a lot or not in wattpad since I usually want to keep it more private but this... ? This isn't something like

"what Lex is feeling pathetic and stupid LMAO "

Nah, this is more of a

" what Lex just wants to vent and be stupid LMAO "

Anyways, #tireddadmoments

Sometimes I dont know what to do, like sure, I could RP but..  after awhile it just tires me out and I just wish to talk. I could draw, but sometimes I feel so unmotivated and ideas become drier and drier for what I could draw. There's always some motivation I have for drawing gifts or requests but.. my does my other work just completely be dry like a desert ?

Sometimes I wish I could actually write stuff people will be excited to read, comment, maybe engage in more conversations ? Most of my writing is garbage anyways and I suck at keeping a conversation going anyways —

It's hard to feel not lonely when you put your heart and soul into a piece and then 💔 realize nobody really cares and it could potentially cause people to become angry or sad

I just, I feel like I'm letting a lot of people, mostly my friends, down. I feel like I'm not doing enough for them and that they'll board the next train and forget about me since I'm not really that special, or amazing, or anything really.

I don't even deserve my friend's kindness and love. I feel like whenever I respond , I make them feel down, anxious, confused or just plain out wanting the conversation to end. I wish I could talk to more people, break out of my anxiety shell and just... Be the persona I created online and be the happy ball of joy and a bean.. I want to be there for my friends, but I feel like I'm not doing enough ..?

You guys deserve someone better than me. You guys deserve all the love in the world .
You can tell me in the comments about how much of a terrible friend and how stupid my artwork and other works are since I'm a sad waste on this world.

My life is a mess right now and sometimes I wish I could tell someone all about what happened and how it got that way, but I can't because if I do, everything will fall apart .

You guys deserve better.. 

I can't help but I feel like I disappoint anyone when I walk in the room. I can't hide the fact that I have major anxiety issues in general , nor can I stop denying I have a depression problem since it keeps coming back and coming back, no matter how much happy thoughts I have.

I wish I could tell my dad how I feel without him getting mad or upset at me and saying "I'm just a teen who doesn't know what is good for them" I wish my mom and step father would stop fighting in general and I wish I would stop being a crybaby when it comes to coming to turns with my feelings.

Whelp, I guess I was the first and second option in bold wasn't I ? There might be more vents coming since this kind of helped and there's more on my mind , but have a good day / night everyone

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