Two days later I found myself in the hospital waiting room having succumbed to both my husband's and Matilda's constant nagging 'Mrs Chambers' I looked up and a nurse in a blue and white uniform smiled at me encouragingly I pushed myself up pain shooting up my leg as I went to walk for the first time in a while I felt like a wreck I walked behind the nurse into one of the consulting rooms and sat in the chair she pointed out. 'so what seems to be the problem?' she said her eyes seeming to scan over me as she said it.

I explained the incident in as much detail as possible but glossed over slightly when she asked what my occupation was for obvious reasons I couldn't possibly have 'field agent' on my medical records! I then found myself with my leg suspended in a sling with a pair of very thin tweezers embedded in my thigh trying without luck to remove the bullet fragments.

I walked out the nurse following close behind with the second of my crutches the first I had in my hand supporting me and I was holding onto it for dear life when I rounded the corner my husband Mark jumped to his feet a look of concern washing over his face as he saw my predicament I smiled weakly at him someone coughed from beside him and I looked over his shoulder James was sat there watching the scene unfold but not saying anything I saw his eyes flash to my crutches and a look of disappointment crossed over his face I smiled at him reassuringly he smiled slightly his eyes still fixed on Mark 'you could cut the tension in here with a butter knife' I turned as did the other two Matilda was stood there holding a small mug of espresso and another bag of doughnuts 'great timing' I  thought to myself as she put the mug down James stood up and walked towards me 'what did they say?' he asked putting his hand gently on my shoulder.

I swallowed composing myself as I did so 'I won't be able to work for the next one to two weeks as the bullets need time to come to the surface before they can be extracted' I said I felt myself trail off that meant I would be out of action and they would have to find a replacement to help finish the mission I looked up and the same thing must have occurred to James because he was shaking his head and mouthed 'whiskey' at me I rolled my eyes at him before Mark spoke 'you'll have more time to spend with me then' he said happily and it dawned on me that I  didn't want to spend more time with him as it was we were more college roommates than husband and wife I felt bad even thinking it let alone saying it to him so I went outside not only because it was hot but I needed time to think about everything but most of my current life decisions and that is the moment where everything I had disappeared.

'you should tell him about that night' this time I didn't even turn my head I knew who it was' how can I do that to him tell him that I slept with my colleague' 'that's all I am you?' I turned slightly shocked at the question as emotion wasn't something you come to expect from someone like James 'of course not yo mean a lot to me' I said turning to face him if only you knew I thought to myself I found that my eyes where level with his chest I I darn't look up not at this moment but that soon failed as he lifted my chin up with his middle finger I looked at him trying to figure out what he was thinking but of course his face remained emotionless his eyes however seemed to be swimming with it I really couldn't say what came over me at that moment but I pulled him down to my level and kissed him he kissed me back with need as if he couldn't get enough and I loved it there was something different about him that I couldn't put my finger on but I knew that I didn't feel like this with Mark and now wondered if I ever he pulled away i'm glad he did because I needed to regain my breath and ability to communicate properly I was about to say something when I noticed that he was looking towards the hospital doors that seemed like they were suspended open in between then stood Matilda with a  coy expression on here face as she watched us and then on her left stood mark with the most pissed of expression you could imagine if looks could kill I would have been twelve feet under at that moment.

How much of that had he seen or even worse heard I  didn't even want to think about that as all three of us watched he pulled the door back trying to slam it shut but of course you couldn't but if that had been a normal one that would have been a different story he continued to stride forward I  was now starting to worry what would happen when he stopped he had always had a bad temper only a few days after our marriage we had got into a terrible argument and he had punched a hole in the kitchen wall another flare up happened not long after I had suffered the loss of our first child Melanie he had punched not only the wall but me in the stomach and back twice he seemed to everyone a nice loving man but in reality he was a mean grumpy and bad tempered while I was thinking about this I felt him hit me hard across the face knocking the air out of me you would think with what I do for a job I would be used to it by now but with him I never was I felt him being  pulled away from me and I saw James punch him instantly knocking him to the floor I felt the blood dripping down my cheek as my vision came back and i bent down pulling James up by the arm 'he's not worth it' I said gently as he was pulled up from the ground by both Matilda and how i'm guessing was the receptionist coming to see what all the noise was about ' he turned and seemed to direct his next words at me ' you always were and always will be a a vulnerable attention seeking whore and a failure' that was the final straw I walked forward and keened him in the stomach knocking the air out of him that was for my daughter' then I turned and walked back towards the range rover James beside me and the others following close behind.