Today I'm 26 weeks pregnant the time is flying by and I'm just getting more and more nervous as the days go on. I fear I won't be a good mom, I fear the demons will do something to Liam, I fear for my life and Liam's. Today I have work until 6pm, it's 5:30am now. I get dressed for work then head out, Gerald was already gone, Fallon was sleeping and so wasn't James and both dogs. I grab my Keys, lock the door and head to my car, I get in and head to work.

I walk into work, go to the locker rooms, clock in then head to the ER, I take a seat at the desk, Harry walks in, I'm busy looking over charts and fixing them.

"Morning Jill!"

"Good morning Harry," I say looking up at him and smiling.

"Want a cup of coffee? I'm heading to grab some now," Harry offers, smiling back at me.

"Sure, that would be awesome," I say.

"Okay I'll be back soon," Harry says before taking off to get the coffee.

"Okay!" I say then go back to looking over charts.

The phone rings, I pick it up,

"LA Medical Emergency Room."

I listen for a moment as the dispatcher explains the incoming traumas,

"Okay you got it! Thank you!" I say as I hang up.

"Alright! All hands on deck! Incoming traumas, there was a huge pile up on the highway, multiple MVCs, so that means a lot of patients! I was told the total was at 7 cars and climbing!" I yell out as Harry walks back in with our coffees.

He places them at the desk, I head towards the gowns and gloves, Harry is close behind me, I pull a gown on and Harry ties it without me asking, I snap gloves on and run outside with the rest of the team in the ER that wasn't busy, and we await the arrival of the ambulances.

After a moment of silence, sirens pierce the air and we all snap our heads towards the ambulances that were speeding towards the ER, we stay back as they park and open up, revealing injured people.

All chaos starts, people are assigned to patients, Harry and I grab a patient who's got a leg bone sticking out, multiple Lacerations, and some burns. We get to work, Ortho gets paged, we stabilize the patient and ortho has me go with them to be the OR nurse for this patient, Harry smiles at me as I walk away with them, I was going to miss this once I gave birth, I'll be out for a while. Gerald and I made an agreement for the first 6 months he wants me to stay home with Liam so we can create a bond, seeing how he'll be gone more than me, due to his music. The only thing I wasn't going to love, was when Gerald went back on tour again. The rest of my day flew by, I got a few missed texts from Gerald,

Hey babe, I miss you! Hope works going good!

Hey! Meet me at the studio when you get out babe, then we'll go out just us xx GG

Okay babe! I'm leaving the hospital now see you soon.

I put my phone away, grab my stuff from the locker room then head to my car. I get in start it and drive to the studio. I get out and head inside once I arrive, Gerald is waiting for me, I smile and walk over to him. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close to him, he gently grabs my face and lifts my chin up, he leans down and his lips connect with mine, the butterflies fly around my stomach like they did the first time he kissed me. I wrap my arms around his neck as Liam kicks, causing us to smile and laugh a bit. He was one active little boy, just like his daddy.

We headed out, I followed him, we parked at a nice restaurant in downtown LA, we headed inside and Gerald gave them his name, they escorted us to a table and we sat down. We had a lovely dinner before we headed home. We showered, had sex, then cuddled. I fell asleep first, I was exhausted from work. I fell into a strange dream, the first of many. Here's the song I woke up to,

"She would not show that she was afraid
But being and feeling alone was too much to face
Though everyone said that she was so strong
What they didn't know is that she could barely carry on
But she knew that she would be okay
So she didn't let it get in her way
Sometimes it all gets a little too much
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much
She would always tell herself she could do this
She would use no help it would be just fine
But when it got hard she would lose her focus
So take my hand and we'll be alright
And she knew that she would be okay
So she didn't let it get in her way
Sometimes it all gets a little too much
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much, yeah
A little too much, I said a little too much, oh
Sometimes it all gets a little too much
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much yeah
Sometimes it all gets a little too much
But you gotta realize that soon the fog will clear up
And you don't have to be afraid, because we're all the same
And we know that sometimes it all gets a little too much."