Darkness
by: Gavriella
November 15, 2021
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I.
In the darkness,
I lie awake
Screaming in silence
Confused, in pain
II.
Texted my mother
Call back, I tell her
She called, asking
Your father, how is he?
III.
I didn't text, I say
Sorry I don't bother
Cigarettes, alcohol
He always looks for another
IV.
He never stops
Till death will grip him
No effort, no trying
Is there any point in lying?
V.
In the darkness,
With my tear stained face
I stare at the ceiling
Wait, am I crying?
VI.
I feel exhausted
Of life, of friends
Of family, of circumstance
Of insecurities, and romance
VII.
My heart, burdened
Scream, I say
But from my mouth
No sound escapes
VIII.
I try to distract myself
From games, from talks
Maybe in here there is something
But who am I kidding
IX.
I got into writing,
Bought myself a machine,
Sat down, got immersed
But only for a minute
X.
Who am I kidding
I waste away thinking
Can I give up? Surrender?
Do I want to die, I wonder
XI.
Not really, no
That is not the answer
Running away is not an option
But courage I lack to face them head on,
XII.
I cried, more
Just a little, a drop
Does it help?
Unfortunately not
XII.
In the darkness,
I lie awake, thinking
I want to quit Genshin, Wild Rift
Say goodbye to my vice
XIII.
I want to stop talking about it
Stop thinking,
Stop dreaming
Leave it all behind
XIV.
But part of me fears
What of Karl, Shuri
Lawrence, and Weizen
Will we remain, friends?
XV.
Our hangout involve games,
That's where we all meet
Play all day, talk of strategy
But I am tired and beat
XVI.
Games is not what I desire,
My soul, worn and tired
Can I escape?
Break free?
XVII.
Someone please save me,
I'm right here
Bring me back to the light,
The life I used to hold dear
XVIII.
When I turned away,
And led astray
Was the day I lost
All that matters most
XIX.
My inner peace is gone,
My contentment receeded
My patience shortened
My words roughened
XX.
My love reduced
My motivation plucked
My purpose trimmed down
My desires vanished
XXI.
My flames doused
Now nothing remains
My faith challenged
But ultimately, I gave in
XXII.
I want to go back
To the way I used to be
I want courage to give up
Everything that harms me
XXIII.
I still cherish and remember,
What life was like with You
Everything was warm and brighter,
Sorrows and worries are few
XXIV.
But I don't know,
How to start, where to go
I don't know,
What to say, what to do
XXV.
Who do I talk to?
I'm afraid, help me
Of what? Help me
I don't know
XXVI.
A person crossed my mind,
My best friend, Shania
She always know what to say
And then together find a way
XXVII.
In the darkness,
I close my ears
With my tear stained face
I cried some more
XXVIII.
Once darkness in my mind,
Now there is a bit of light
A bit of hope for tomorrow
So for now, I say good night
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