Do it. Kill me

"I wonder which will kill you faster- your loyalty or your stubbornness"

| Valencia |

I stopped myself, catching the end of their conversation
"If she's anyone's child, she's mine" Roan said

"You're supposed to care about your child" she said
"I care about her more than anyone else ever bothered to" he snapped back.

I made myself known, dragging the gun along with me as I pulled Athena up, untying her from the radiator, chains thrown over my shoulder
"Bye" I said simply, pulling Athena along with me

"Valencia" he called, making me turn to look at him
"Be smart about it" he advised, I nodded, heading out of the door
"Always" I called as we left

| Adonis |

"Night" Seth said
"Goodnight" I said, lighting another cigarette as Seth left
We agreed to stay here for the night, to be alert
To try and track down Athena but it was useless

Valencia knows how to hide someone
She did well enough hiding from everyone else
"Adonis?" Seth said, hesitating
"Yeah?" I said

"I miss when things used to be normal" he said sadly
"Me too" I agreed, he smiled, a sad one but a smile nonetheless
"Least I've got you eh? Can't shake you off" he chuckled
"More the other way around" I said

He laughed
"Night brother" he said, disappearing
I sat back against the wall, looking up at the stars as I swigged from my vodka bottle.

| Seth |

"Oh I'm sorry" I said, finding a maid still making the beds
"No it's quite alright sir, I'm finished" she said politely, smoothing the bedspread
I offered her a smile as she made her way to the door
"Sir" she said

"Call me Seth" I said, she smiled tightly
"Seth... do you know when Mrs Vitali will be returning?" She asked, nerves ever present in her voice

"Soon. We'll find her" I assured
"Word is spreading that it was the woman working for Enzo" she said
"That's right" I said
She nodded
"Well I hope you find her, to be honest with ourselves, we should have known something was wrong after she left her meeting with Mrs Dozier, she was very angr-"

"Her what?" I asked
"Her meeting, with Mrs Dozier. She spoke to her in Mr Vitali's office" she said
"She did?" I asked, she nodded
"Yes, Mary greeted the woman and then Mrs Dozier intervened and took her away" she explained, confused why I was interested

I nodded
"Is something wrong with that?" She asked worriedly
"No, no nothing, thank you..."
"Sarah" she smiled
"Sarah" I confirmed, before she left

Alora took her into the office?
She said she found her
Why is she lying?

| Adonis |

The bottle rolled away from my limp arm
As I stared continuously up at the stars
Where is she? Why won't she answer?
Why take Athena? None of this was her fault
It was Enzo's
It was mine

I heard the beep before I even registered what I was doing.
"Valencia" I mumbled

| Valencia |

"I need you to come back and talk to me. To hear me out... I never meant to... fuck I never meant to hurt you alright? I didn't. I just didn't want to mess everything up. And then... and then me and you... just call me please. I'll help you, I'll help you out with whatever you need just call me. Please"
I put the phone down.

"Was that him?" Athena asked
"Do you ever shut up?" I asked
"He cares, I told you he did" she pointed out
"Leaving me a drunk voicemail doesn't mean he cares. He never did" I snapped

He can't have done to hurt me like this
I was just a fool for falling for it
"You need to listen to me Valencia. To trust me, I have no reason to lie to you" she said
"I thought a lot of people had no reason. Turns out everyone does" I said, pulling my jacket on

"Where are you going?" She asked
"Didn't you hear? He's drunk, he's vulnerable. It's the perfect time to hunt a lying piece of shit" I said, referring to Enzo
"No. No you can't!" She shouted after me
But I ignored her.

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When I snuck onto the grounds, I thought every corridor and every corner would be swarmed with guards
But they weren't
He must have them out, searching
Pathetic. And confusing how he was succeeding running this mafia

Sending all his defence away from the house
And there Adonis sat, drunkenly slumped against a wall
He must have even asleep for a while
Maybe he wouldn't be as drunk as I had originally anticipated
No matter. A fight is a fight whether he's coherent or not

"Adonis" I said, he opened his eyes, his large figure sitting up abruptly as he stared at me wide eyed
"Valencia" he said. His voice made my name sound like butter
Soft and melting

He made me sound like a lover
Like an innocent woman under his spell
"You lied to me" I said simply. I didn't want to let any emotions out
I didn't want to show him how much he effected me
But it came out nonetheless

Adamant to show him how much damage he has done to me
To my mind
"I trusted you" I couldn't help but say.

"I know, and I'm sorry I lied" he said
I shook my head
"No it's too late for that" I said, he stood up, staring at me, baby blues begging me to cave
And yet torture never felt this painful

"Just talk to me" he begged
I took a breath, before hitting him across the face
But he didn't react, he didn't fight back
He just looked at me
"I don't want to talk" I said

"And I don't want to fight" he said
"It's not about what you want" I seethed, hitting him again, he took a step back from the impact, but again remained unfazed

"Adonis" I warned, raising my arm again, only for him to grab it before it reached his face
"Talk to me" he said
I stared at him, my eyes burning like they had before with him

He made tears prominent in me.
He made them rise to the surface and spill pathetically
He made me weak. And I hated it
I hated that he makes me cry

I hate it that I feel so... sad because of him
I hate that he lied
I hate that he betrayed me
I raised my knife in my other hand, against his chest
"Do it" he said, bringing the hand trapped in his grip to his heart

"Do it. Kill me and you might just feel better about this" he said
I shook slightly, my blade pressed against his skin as he dared me
As he warned me that I wouldn't feel any better

But he lied. He played me
He made me fall for him and then shattered my heart
"You can't" he said

"You can't, because you feel the way I do, you care about me, just like I care about you Valencia. You fell for me, same way I fell fo-"
He stopped. His eyes finding mine rapidly as he searched them for the betrayal in my own eyes

As my blade sat deep in his chest, as blood began to run down his body, over my knife, over my hand
As I looked on through wet lashes
As the wind swept my cheeks and froze the water running over them

"I..."
I stepped back, not knowing what to say anymore
He felt to the floor, holding the knife as he breathed in and out quickly
"Valen..."

"We're not what you think Adonis" I said. Emotionless... a shell
Running on an autopilot of hateful words to distance myself
"I don't..."
I couldn't even bring myself to say it. As his blood dripped from my fingertips

To say I hate him
To say we're nothing
That his betrayal didn't hurt me
That I was sorry for hurting him
That I'm sorry he's in pain

Because after all we've done. I want to help him.
I want to make sure he'll be okay

But I can't. I just can't.
I'm not the girl Adonis thinks I am
I'm not compassionate. I'm not scared
I'm not in love
I don't care.

I don't. I can't

"Valencia" he struggled out
I turned away, I couldn't look at him anymore
I can't look at what I've done
"I'm sorry" I said lowly, walking away

| Adonis |

My vision began to blur
My chest increasingly hurt and my hands couldn't muster any strength to hold the knife in place
To stop the bleeding

So as she walked away from me, as I fell lower to the floor and accepted her words, her face was still the only thing in my mind as I passed out

The girl who attracted me all those weeks ago in a crowded room
The girl who pushed me and challenged me
Who brought me out of an otherwise unknown social isolation

She made me... better
And I made her... human.

| Seth |

I couldn't sleep. Not until I spoke to Alora and could understand all these lies
Why would Valencia want to speak to Adonis about her?
Why wouldn't she have hurt Alora? Or even killed her?

"Alora" I said, closing the door
"Seth" Alora yawned, putting her book down
"Did you see Valencia?" I asked
"What?" She asked
"Valencia, did you see her? Mary said you led her off to the office" I explained
"Mary" she repeated

"Is it true?" I asked
"I... you know me Seth, I wouldn't lie" she said
"But clearly you have" I said
Her face hardened slightly, like I was annoying her by adding pressure.

"I just asked her if she had found anything yet. She demanded the same from me and eventually she started going through Enzo's drawers" she shrugged.
"No, because you need a key to open the drawers. And why wouldn't you just tell the truth then? Tell us that's what happened?" I asked

"What do you want from me Seth?" she snapped
"The truth" I said

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