that's all i make you.

don't think i don't see you drop your smile, 

or how it was fake in the first place. 

how it never reaches your eyes when you see.

when you pull down my sleeves when i don't remember to do it myself.

when i can't care enough to hide the cuts and the scars. 

how every time i hug you, you stare at me like ive hurt you.

i don't want to hurt you. 

i want to hurt myself. 

it's me that's the problem. 

i can't be happy. i lost the ability a long time ago. 

i can laugh, i can smile, i can joke and play and have fun

but

it doesn't last. 

it never lasts. 

i know you've noticed. 

it's not fair for you. 

i'm broken, and you're trying to fix me.

all i do is make you sad.