*four months later*

everything had been going well, chanyeol had been smiling a lot more and involving himself in a lot more activities. he had even been talking to baekhyun about starting a college course and finally building himself a good starting base for the rest of his life.

all that seemed to stop on the fourth month anniversary of him being clean. the smiles dropped. the laughter disappeared. chanyeol suddenly fell silent, not a word came escaped his lips for three whole days after that. a frown became permanently etched on baekhyuns face as he stared worriedly at his lover, fearing the worst. fearing that it had all come back.

"chanyeol.. please talk to me.. say something, say anything! please..?" he begged and begged, but the latter simply started, blankly at him, his lips sealed shut.

an idea sprouted in baekhyuns mind as he quickly excused himself, leaving the house and over to the crafts store, where he brought a colourful iridescent notepad, in which it had written on the cover 'when it rains, look for rainbows' ((a/n don't discriminate, i have a notepad just like this)) and a pack of brightly coloured pens, stickers and sticky-notes. afterwards, he made his way back, walking into chanyeols room with a smile on his face, faltering slightly at the sight of his boyfriend sat huddled up in the corner of his room.

"hey.." he said quietly, moving over to sit in front of him, laying out the this he brought in between them both.

"i figured that instead of talking, you can write your emotions down in here, its bad to keep them all locked up inside of you. and i promise no one will read it, unless you give them permission. how does that sound?" a ghost of a smile appeared on chanyeols lips for a second before going. he nodded at baekhyun before leaning forwards and enveloping him in a hug.

"i love you.." baekhyun whispered into the taller's shoulder, hearing only silence in return.