21st of August, 2018

Today, I decided to confront you about it. I went to your dorm, but the atmosphere felt strange. Your band mates are giving me pitiful and sorry eyes. Why?

I have a really bad feelings about that, and my stomach churned just by thinking about it. When I entered your room, I once again saw your annoyed face.

"Didn't I tell you not to come to the dorm?" You asked.

"Yes, but-"

"But, what? Do you really don't care about our career? My career?" I gulped when you raised your voice.

"But, that's not the real reason, right?" My question made you froze for a second, confirming it.

"You're overthinking it."

"I think I'm not. We barely see each other, and you don't even ask about me anymore. You-"

"God! I'm a celebrity! Can you stop being clingy and annoying?"

Your scolding made me flinched. Your voice was so loud that I know your band mates heard it.

"Okay."

That's the only thing I said before storming out of your bedroom. I didn't react much, but once I was outside of your room, all the things came crashing down.

You thought I was clingy and annoying. That hurts me. My tears rolled down my cheeks and your band mates saw my broken state.

The only thing I said was,

"Don't worry. I'm okay."

But who am i kidding? I'm not okay.

I don't want to lose you.

Not yet, because I love you.