Saihara's POV:

When Maiko first told me that everything I went through was some kind of simulation, that everyone was safe and ok. But still, that is different from seeing it right in front of you. Someone who you had seen dead, dead as can be, someone who you thought you would never see again, if you even would want to, and yet they are right there in front of me. 

My mind couldn't process the information that was in front of me. What Ouma looked like,  he looked like a corpse, what he said, what did I do? , and how he was then knocked out and carried back onto a stretcher and Maiko had run after the group for a while without as much as a goodbye.

It was all so sudden. Ouma...you're alive...and you hate me...why? What did I even do-

"You're alone Ouma, and you will always be alone" 

My words flashed back as my eyes widened, I...I did say that, didn't I? He said it was my fault though...his plan was his own! He was the one who pretended to be the mastermind, who held Momota captive, it was his fault Harukawa shot him, and he was the one who conspired a plan involving his own death, I didn't do anything.

....Right?

No of course not. I couldn't have done anything. He never reached out. I couldn't have saved him. He did it to himself. 

He...he did it to himself...everything...

He...

I'm not to blame right?

Nothing answered my questions. Just the continued sounds of the monitors as I took a deep breath and noticed a mirror in the corner as I stared at my appearance. First off my hair was longer than I expected, and my skin was a bit paler.

I was also skinny, but I guess that was the result of not eating for that long, and relying on a liquid diet. But...that part of my hair that always stuck up...was flat against my head and nonexistent. 

I brushed the bangs out of my face looking at my appearance more and noticed there were cuts on my arm that weren't apparent during the game. Scars...that was from most likely self-harming. My eyes widened.

Who...who was I? How much of me was scrubbed away...?

...

...

...

Do I want to know?

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"You'll have to forgive him," Maiko said walking back into the room. She had been gone for several hours now, leaving me to my thoughts. She looked tired, I didn't respond. She looked at me with pity, "sorry I left" she apologized, "doctor duties called, hard having sixteen patients" she joked.

I didn't meet her eyes, "hey what Ouma said isn't true ok? It's not your fault" she assured.

"I think it would be easier if I knew what I was at fault for," I told her. She shrugged, "I don't know, but whatever it is he isn't in the right state of mind to even make accusations like that," she told me. I raised an eyebrow, "why? What happened to Ouma?" I asked. She looked hesitant before she sat down on the chair next to the bed again.

"This doesn't leave the room ok? Especially to Ouma" she ordered, I nodded, she took a deep breath, "Ouma remembers his life pregame," she told me. My eyes widened, "he remembers? Like what, his family or-?" I started as she shook her head.

"Usually the death of the games just results in the minimal amount of memories being risen depending on the amount of pain or terror the participant felt before death, you know that saying your life flashes before your eyes? That is what unleashed the participants who died memories just a smidge...for Ouma his case...was different" she mumbled.

"What?" I asked, "usually the machine only has to make the participant feel like only a few things had been healed, for Ouma...he felt his whole body being crushed to death, with the added effect of poison slowly killing him," she told me, "he died so painfully and the machine had to make him believe his whole body was healed, resulting in the whole release of memories because they had to force his brain through such an ordeal" she explained.

"So what you're saying is...due to the trauma of the killing game, he remembers everything?" I asked. She nodded, "because of that, his body and mind had no time to adjust and his two personalities are battling for control, and it's driving him insane," she said remorsefully.

"Can't you do something? Hasn't there been anything like this before?" I asked. Maiko didn't meet my eyes for a while, "I treated a patient a few games before, she died believing her whole body had been dismantled, stitched back together, and dismembered again" she told me.

My eyes widened in pure horror, how could anyone do that to someone? "The girl, like Ouma, had the same effect on her, she didn't..." Maiko hesitated as I saw tears in her eyes, "she never recovered, she is unable to react to anything or express any sort of emotion...she is in all sense brain dead" Maiko told me.

"The blackened of that case was also deeply distraught, he...he committed suicide a few weeks into rehabilitation upon learning what happened to the victim" she mumbled. I sat there unsure of how to respond.

"Can you help him?" I asked I mean...Ouma may be a brat...he did a lot of horrible things...but he doesn't deserve to become like THAT.

He did kill three people though...what if this actually is-

"I am doing everything in my power, believe me, Ouma's case is a very fragile one, he can't even walk anymore, so please do me a solid and be easy on him? Even after everything he has done in your game put it aside for just a while" she begged. 

I nodded, "I'll try" I promised. She sighed in relief, "thank god, thanks bud" she said. 

If...what if once I remember who I was, will my body do the same? Will I turn on myself? What kind of pain even is that?

"Hey...Maiko....why are you working here?" I asked she looked at me confused, "I just assumed all of Danganronpa to be cruel...and you have been nice so far" I explained, she fumbled with her fingers, "let me just say...I can relate to your struggles..." she put simply.

Then she smiled as she stood up, "well, I got good news for you if you want it" she said. I raised an eyebrow, "You have someone who wants to visit you, you can say no, it's fine, but I think you want to see him to" she said sweetly.

"Who?" I asked as she smiled widely, "Kaito Momota has requested a visit" she told me.