A/N: So I'm kind of bored because I have nothing to do today. So I update. I hope you enjoy it because probably I won't be able to update again since I'll busy starting tomorrow. 

Khiegilsan

"PLEASE take good care of her"

Athena rolled her eyes on me "Of course, I will" she said before patting my head gently "take good care of yourself."

"I will," I said with a tight smile, "I will probably stay in Lisanna's place or Levy's place."

She nodded as if she approved what I've said "Just make sure you are not alone especially during night"

I licked my lower lips and nodded. After she reminded me of things that I should remember, she left and boarded the plane. I sighed as I watched her plane take off - I didn't know if I had made the right decision to stay temporarily.

"Lucy," I turned to my side as someone called my name - at the same time holding it in my hand "come on"

I nodded and let him guide me towards our friends. Looking at our hands, I'm thinking if I should take my hand back or just let him hold it. Eventually, I withdrew my hand and walked beside him.

"Where do you plan to stay, Lucienne?" Jellal asked.

"I'm thinking of staying at Lisanna's place or Levy's place" I mumble under my breath.

"Don't you want to come to my house?" Jellal asked. I looked at him for a moment "It's safe there,"

My mouth opened but before I even refused, "Why should she stay in your house, Jellal?" Gray asked "A scandal might appear if she stays with you"

Loki nodded and agreed with Gray "Dude, Lucy's world is messed up. Best example of that, when the paparazzi mistook us as her love interest."

"Let them think what they what" Jellal replied "The important thing is Lucienne's safety"

I felt guilty all of a sudden, "I'm sorry" I mumbled under my breath, "I'm really okay, Jellal. I'll stay with them. I can't bother you too much"

Jellal growls as if he does not approve of what I've said. I gave him an apologetic smile. Loki looks at me "Stop apologizing, Lucy. It's not your fault that they are dumb as hell"

I opened my mouth to speak but I felt Natsu's hand on the top of my head "Stop arguing about her job, will you. After five years we are now complete. We should start preparing for our mini – reunion and celebrations of Lucy's return"

"Right" they all agreed. They look at me as if they are waiting for my reaction so I just beam at them "Welcome back, Lucy!" they said in unison.

It was decided to do the celebration at Natsu's house. The moment we entered his house, Loki and Natsu immediately started preparing the food in the kitchen while I started roaming around the living area. Nothing has changed in his house. The only thing that really bothers me is that I can't see any single picture of Sakura.

Or maybe it was in their room. I felt a sharp pain in my heart but I just ignored it. I'm used to this sudden pain in my heart. I was brought back to reality when suddenly someone tapped me on the shoulder.

"Are you okay?" Jellal asked.

I smiled at him "I'm okay. I'll tell you when I feel weird" I said. He nodded and gently patted the back of my head.

Jellal and Gray knew that I was diagnosed with Panic Attack Disorder. So from time to time, they will check me if I'm feeling okay or not. I haven't mentioned it to Loki and Natsu because I don't know how to inform them.

"By the way, I ask Levy and Lisanna to come over," Jellal said which caught me off guard "Of course, I ask permission from them, don't worry."

I bit my lower lip so hard, then I touched the hem of his shirt wearing "Thank you, Jellal," I don't know why I suddenly became emotional.

"You are my little sister by bond, Lucienne" he said softly "I'll do everything in order for you to be happy and safe," he sincerely said. I nodded to him – silently telling him that I appreciate it.

When Levy and Lisanna arrived with their partner the little celebration had already begun. The celebration was even more fun because Levy and Lisanna played games as if they had been waiting for this moment for a long time.

Of course I joined too. The night became even more fun when Loki and Lisanna started drinking alcohol. I don't even know how I survived that night.

And I also don't know how the night ended, because when I woke up the next day... I just found myself lying on the bed without clothes. I can feel the strong arms wrapped around my waist and I don't know if... Oh My God!

Did I end up having an affair with Lisanna's boyfriend or maybe this is Levy's boyfriend. Oh My God! They will surely kill me!

I blew through my mouth before I gradually looked at the guy on my back... like victims in horror movies, when the victim looked at his back and saw a very gruesome creature.

...

...

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!"

"Fuck! Shit! Who changed the sound of my alarm clock?"

He hasn't seen me yet because he was busy checking his alarm clock. Probably checking if there's a problem on it but as you can see... I'm the one who shouted.

I'm still trying to figure it out what the hell is wrong and how the fuck we ended up in bed. Am I too drunk for me to end up having sex with him?

When he turned to my side, he immediately frowned "What are you doing in my room, Lucy?"

Is he disoriented? Doesn't he see how the two of us look, "I don't know" I replied.

His frowned deeper "Why are you naked?" he asked in shock as if he didn't notice that he was also naked.

"You're naked too!" I said, biting my lower lips. When I said that, he just looked at his own body. His mouth parted as if he had just realized what was happening.

"Damn!" he mumbled under his breath.

He immediately got up from the bed, I blushed when I saw his butt cheeks. I averted my eyes, later he handed me a shirt and boxer shorts. He was also wearing sweatpants. He sat on the edge of the bed but his back was facing me – probably this is his way to give some privacy.

"Lucienne," he called me. I didn't bother answering him because I'm still trying to collect myself, "I'm really sorry for whatever I did even if I don't remember. I'm sorry"

I bit my lower lips, I'm starting to hate the word 'I'm sorry'. I don't want to hear from his mouth.

"I don't want to talk about it," I said and stood up.

Because my knees don't have any strength, I fell down even before I left the room. Natsu immediately helped me but before he could touch me I immediately avoided my body with him. I saw pain flashes on his eyes when I avoided his touch.

"I can stand on my own. You don't have to help me" I said coldly, "I just don't want to talk about it, Natsu. Please!"

"We need to talk about it! We can't just put it aside! Whether we want it or not... something still happened between us"

We want it or not? 

I don't want to listen to him. I want to run away. I don't know what to do. My wounded heart won't take it if he said that he regretted this. Because, even if I don't remember what happened to us. It makes me happy. Because even just for a while he became mine. Even though...

He didn't want to.

I didn't bother to argue with him – I gathered all the strength that was left in my body so I could stand and when I succeeded I immediately left him in his room. I was taken back for a moment when I saw our clothes scattered around the living area up to the bedroom. Prove that, we did had a wild sex last night. I knew he followed me, but I was silent as I picked up my clothes one by one.

"Lucy... please"

"Stop it, Natsu" I said "I'm not mad at you. I'm not mad because we had sex even though we don't both remember. But please, let me think first. I'm confused"

"We're both confused, Lucy" he replied "what's the difference between today's conversation and another day?"

I stared at his face, and then smiled sadly "I don't want to say a word that I may regret later, Natsu" he didn't say a word so I continued "You're still my best friend. And I don't want to lose our friendship over this."

He didn't answer immediately - a few minutes passed before he approached me and gently took my hand, "Are you planning on running from me?" he asked me softly.

I was momentarily taken aback by his question. Before I looked into his eyes "Maybe" I mumbled under my breath.

"Why?"

"I don't want you to get involved in my world, Natsu" I sincerely said "It's too messy."

"Why?"

I took a deep breath and pressed my lips "You're a friend. I don't want you to feel sorry for my world because I love you..." I saw the shock in his eyes as he looked at me "I love you as a friend."

"Lucy..."

"I don't want to lose our friendship. I don't want to regret it later. So please, let's just talk when our minds are no longer confused. When it's clear to us what's happening"

"How long?" I gave him a confused look "How long will I have to wait for you, Lucy?"

"I don't know" I bit my lower lips and avoided his gaze "Just please let me leave"

I could not move from where I was standing when he suddenly pulled me closer to him and locked me in his arms. I felt his lips come close to my forehead. He presses his forehead to mine which makes me parted. 

"Then, I'll wait for you"

___________________________ End of Chapter #21