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Jalil Tuazon

October 12, 12:03 a.m.

Ja :(

Wala rin namang kinaibahan vi

Hindi pwede
Sorry

Hindi na talaga?

Ja
Pwede ba ako humingi ng 5 mins?

E bakit 5 mins lang 😔

Kasi I want to tell you something
Sana masabi ko lahat in 5 minutes

Grabe naman
Vi kahit higit 5 minutes pa hingin mo
Okay lang sakin

I want to tell you I love you
So much :( sorry last time when I said yes
nung tinanong mo kung hindi na kita love
I wanted to sound convincing when I broke up with you
Sorry if nasaktan kita, hindi ko naman ginusto yun ja
But I know I did, and all I can say is I'm sorry
I know I can't change anything.

12:05 a.m.

Vina

I'm not yet done :(

Okay
Sige

Also, hindi lang naman ikaw. I want to get back with you too
Tapos kahit hindi ko ineexpect na magsshow up ka, nandito ka pa rin for me. Ang selfish ko man na kinukuha ko yung chances na yun para sa sarili ko na nandyan ka pero ang hirap mo rin kasi ipush palayo. And may part din sa akin na ayaw kang palayuin. I can't tell you I miss you and I love you kasi ako naman nakipaghiwalay sayo and gusto ko rin panindigan yun para sa sarili ko. But I miss you all the time and I feel bad for hurting you and taking you for granted.
Gusto rin kitang balikan pero hindi pwede

Bakit hindi pwede?

Yung reason na sinabi ko sayo last time kaya ako nakipagbreak is true. I have to focus and collect myself together. Ayaw ko rin sanang sabihin sayo to pero since nabanggit ko na rin naman kanina, sasabihin ko na rin

Ano yun vi?

Ayaw ko kasi na pati ikaw sinisisi ng parents ko.
Hindi man nila sinasabi kapag nandyan ka, pero madalas kasi nila isumbat sakin na nasayo lang daw pansin ko, na hindi ako nakakapag aral kasi parati tayong magkasama and lumalabas. Puro daw ako date and gala, yun lang daw inaatupag ko. Hindi ka raw good for me. Ayun yung sinasabi nila.

12:07 a.m.

I know it's not true and it hurts every time they say it about you kasi hindi ka naman ganon. Madalas lumalabas tayo for group study and nag-aaral naman talaga tayo. And hindi ka distraction for me. Kung mababa man grades ko, ako na yun. Hindi ka naman part nun. I feel guilty every time they say those things kasi hindi mo naman deserve yun eh. So I thought maybe if I broke it off with you, they'll leave you alone. Para wala na silang masabi sayo and kung palpak talaga ako as a student, it's all me. Wala nang ibang damay. Ang unfair kasi sayo pati kila devie kahit tinutulungan niyo naman talaga akong mag excel.

12:08 a.m.

I want you to know na I wanted to stand up for you
Lalong lalo din naman para sa sarili ko syempre
Pero wala naman akong boses dito sa bahay
Hindi nakikinig sakin si papa and mama kahit sinusubukan kong mag explain. Tapos dadagdag pa si kuya. It's just too much for me, Ja. Ngayon pa lang na pinagalitan nila ako ulit, gusto ko nang umiyak eh. Nakakapagod sa school tapos nakakapagod and nakakarindi pa dito sa bahay. Thankful lang ako kasi nandito si ate van. Somehow may moral support ako. But anyway, 5 minutes is up
Thank you ulit, Jalil. I'll try my very best next time para maiwasan kita. So we can properly move on and para fair na rin sayo. Hindi yung ganito. Sorry.