The prettiest smile hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain

-Unknown

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"I know where Hana is"

Jungkook rushed out of the house without wasting a second and the rest looked at his vanishing figure with confusion.

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"Don't you think it's too cold here?"

Hana's Pov

I looked up to see him. He covered me with his jacket and I looked away. He sat down beside me while I wiped my tears looking in the opposite direction.

"Are you so used to the cool breeze that you want to withstand it even in real?", he asked and I ignored his words.

"Hana", I could feel his hand on my arm.

"I am sorry. I know I was out of mind to ask you that even when you told me to wait. I shouldn't have made a whole mess in the party. I am so sorry", he looked at me with his eyes filled with guilt.

"Why are you so curious about me Jungkook?" This question is haunting me since long. I wonder why he is so interested in knowing me.

"I want to know you Hana, just like the way you know me. I told you my everything, my life, my stories and everything. I expect the same Hana. I want to know what is troubling you though you never express it. I want to know the story that your eyes are trying to tell me", his words were making me feel guilty. It was true that he shared most of his secrets and I didn't open up about anything related to my life.

I just didn't think about how he was feeling inside. I never thought he wanted to know me more. I was just too scared of losing people that I tried my best to not get emotionally attached to him, but it didn't go like expected.

I got used to him now and he became closer to me than I thought he would be.

"Jungkook ah, I am scared of losing people", I started with little sobs.

"I will never leave you Hana, I promise", he held my hand tight and hugged me from my side. I need that now. I want someone to console me. I want to vent out. Perhaps, I am ready to tell it all to him.

"When I was born, my parents were not financially stable. They worked so hard to raise me", I smiled and he nodded listening to me with all ears.

"It was all good till I got a disease. I was affected by brain fever. I was so small back then", I showed him how tiny I was with my hands and he let out a small smile.

"I got treated somehow. But from then, I didn't get any affection from my parents. I used to cry at first, and later got used to it. I didn't understand why they were doing that. They were so busy in their works that they ignored me", I sobbed a little and he squeezed my hand.

"But they didn't do that to my sister. They treated her well. I am elder to her just by one year, but I was never loved like that. My dad changed the most. He completely stopped talking to me", I held his shirt and pulled him for a hug and he reciprocated it with equal warmth. He was running his fingers through my hair softly and I sobbed in his embrace.

"As years passed by, I tried approaching them. I still remember that. I could understand things by then. Sometimes I doubted if they are intentionally doing that. I don't even know if I was adopted", he kept on caressing my hair.

"I even asked my mom if I was adopted but she always told me no. I got tired of being alone that I started ignoring everyone who tried to talk to me. I stopped making friends. My mom tried to approach me, but I stepped back and ran away every time she did that", I remember my mom trying to talk to me and that I completely ignored her, avoiding her every time she made a step towards me.

"I didn't allow anyone to enter my life. And then one day, I realised why I am doing that. I didn't have an answer. I did that all because I was sad at my dad and mom ignoring me. My mom at least tried to talk to me, but dad didn't even give a damn about my presence." I remember trying to get his attention by getting good marks but he didn't care at all.

"And I finally decided to do whatever he likes. He was the one who asked me to choose Computer Sciences and I did. Yet it was of no use, he was the same even after that. It has been 6 months that I had last talked to him", I hugged him tight and I could see his shirt all wet because of my tears.

"Hana", he pulled me out of the hug and I looked at him.

"I know it may be a small thing to worry but", I always feel that I over think about this matter or that I need not worry this much.

"It is not a small thing Hana, you didn't grow up with love and it is not a small thing at all. It must have affected you a lot when you were young.", he caressed my hair softly and I just stared at him.

"It must have been so difficult for you to face it all alone. And now I understand why it was difficult for you to open up. I am so sorry for not understanding you", he apologised and I cupped his face.

"Please don't apologise. It was not your fault at all. In fact, I am glad that I have shared it with you. I am glad that you are there to understand me", I spoke with tears in my eyes and hugged him again.

"Hana, please don't cry. I can't see those tears in your eyes", he spoke with a broken voice. Was he crying too?

"Kyunghee was the one who tried to know me first. She stuck onto me to tell what was bothering me. I used to envy her for the attention she used to get. I hurt her a lot. I hurt her a lot when she tried to understand me.", I hugged him more and sobbed.

"It's okay Hana, sometimes mistakes do happen", he consoled me and I nodded.

"I even hurt Taehyung. I couldn't give him the attention he wanted. I just considered him as a friend even though I was dating him. I hurt many people Jungkook. ", I cried and he shushed me.

"Don't speak like that okay? You need not like someone because they like you. At least you both realised that you are sailing in a wrong boat. And Kyunghee always loves you, she loves you so much Hana", he caressed my hair while speaking that.

"Jungkook, I might hurt you too", I don't want to lose people anymore. My biggest fear is haunting me a lot these days, ever since this boy entered my life.

"No Hana, don't speak like that", he pulled out from the hug and placed his finger on my lips. "It was me who hurt you all the time. You never hurt me", he felt abashed.

"No, Jungkook. It wasn't intentional, I know. You never hurt me intentionally Jungkook. You have been a very great friend Jungkook", after all that he had done to me, I can't let him feel guilty for something he shouldn't be. He tried to make me smile in every way possible and I am very grateful for that.

"From now on, don't hide your emotions any more Hana. I will always be there to listen to your pain. Don't just fight it alone Hana", his words were very warm.

"Thank you, thank you so much for understanding me Jungkook", I smiled in between my sobs.

"Come here", he pulled me for a hug again. God knows how many times we have hugged today. But I don't complain though.

"You are so fragile Hana, though you show yourself as a very strong person on the outside", he caressed my hair and planted a small kiss on my hair. I smiled at his warm action.

"How did you know that I was here?", I asked him. I was really curious about how he had found me.

"We searched for you everywhere but didn't find you anywhere. The last time we fought was here. I just thought you will be here, no special reason", he mouthed as we were still in the hug.

"Now, shall we go? Yuna is actually planning my funeral. Just in case you don't know", he scratched his neck and I let out a chuckle. I am sure Yuna must be furious at him.

"Yeah", I got up "Han River is so beautiful at night", I sighed and took out a breath.

I looked up to see Jungkook staring me. I raised my brows and he stepped closer. What happened now?

Before I could even speak anything, I could feel his lips on my forehead. It took me a moment to come out of shock.

"You are not alone Hana", he caressed my hair and held my hand. Is he being protective now? I know he is something different behind the stubborn kid personality.

We reached Yuna's home and she hugged me so tight that I struggled to breathe for a second. I saw Taehyung holding Kyunghee who was in tears.

"I am sorry Kyunghee ah for leaving like that. I must have worried you a lot", I hugged her.

"Eonnie, you are safe, that's more than enough", she sobbed a little.

"You should have hit this idiot rather than leaving from here. You know how much worried we were", It was Jin now playing the role of a protective brother.

"You are being so mean to your brother Jin", I defended Jungkook who was now grinning ear to ear.

"Did you guys make up already?", Jimin asked and I nodded.

"Strange", I heard Taehyung mumbling and I know the reason. "but, did you cry?", he asked and I nodded. "A little bit", I replied.

"Where did you find her?", Yoongi asked

"Han river", Jungkook answered him and I can see their faces becoming curious now.

"How did you know?", Soo Ah asked eyeing Jungkook suspiciously.

"I just guessed it. That's all", he blurted.

"Then what took you guys this much time to come here?", Hoseok also joined. I don't want them to know that I cried out everything to Jungkook.

"It's almost 5 AM guys and you guys are asking such questions. Are you not sleepy? My eyes became very heavy now. I need to sleep now", I tried to divert them and laid myself on the couch.

"Yeah! Me too. Yuna, could you show me a room where I could crash in?", Jungkook understood the play.

"The floor always welcomes you wholeheartedly", Yuna pointed the cold floor.

"That's so mean", he frowned and she giggled.

"I was just kidding. You guys can stay here, but I don't have enough space for you all. If you can adjust on the couches and the bean bags, then I guess we can all fit in. There are two bedrooms upstairs"

"We three can fit in one", Yoongi pulled his brothers to his side blowing up the dreams of Jin sleeping with Ara.

"You three sleep in the other bedroom", Taehyung told the sisters and Yuna and they nodded.

"I have a spare bed in the study room, but I never used it though. Nevertheless, it is clean", Yuna pointed towards a room.

"Soo Ah and Ara can scoot in there", Jimin stated.

"We can adjust ourselves on the couches and bean bags", Hoseok declared placing his hand on Namjoon's shoulder who readily agreed to his words.

"Yeah, we are used to that", Taehyung flung his arms around Jimin's neck.

"Goodnight everyone", It was Yoongi who was the first to disappear from the living room.

"Goodnight princess", Jin kissed on Ara's forehead while she blushed and went to her room not before giving him a small peck on his cheeks. These love birds huh!

"Joon, if you feel uncomfortable, tell us. We will shift to the couch", Soo Ah suggested.

"It's okay Soo Ah. Sleep well, you look tired", he ruffled her hair and she let out a smile. Something is surely going on between them.

"Sleep well Hana", Jungkook patted my head while I simply nodded and waved him a bye. I feel so light now.

End of Hana's Pov

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Everyone woke up around 12 AM and were dying out of hunger. So they decided to just order a takeout lunch. Yuna had to go the convenience store to buy toothbrushes for the people as she didn't have enough spare ones.

After lunch, everyone departed to their homes to freshen up.

"Here's my gift", Soo Ah forwarded a small box.

"I thought I lost it", Yuna exclaimed while opening the box. It's an old brooch Yuna forgot in Soo Ah's house

"I kept it as your memory you know"

"Thanks a lot boo", Yuna hugged her friend tightly. She thanked everyone for the amazing birthday celebration before they had left.

"Soo Ah", Namjoon called and she turned to him.

"I will walk you home", he told Taehyung that he would join him later.

"It's okay, you brother will be alone"

"He is not a kid Soo Ah", he chuckled."He would rather be happy if he is alone", he continued.

"Are you guys on bad terms?", she was confused at his words.

"I don't know. I just feel like a void in our relation. Something which we both can't explain", he explained with a gloomy face.

"Did you try talking to each other about this?", she asked while he shook his head.

"We never talked about this. We just talked casually and never discussed about important matters", he explained and she nodded.

"Why don't you try to explain him then?", she suggested while he let out a smile.

"He's the only family for me now. It took so long for us to digest the fact that we lost our parents and I don't want to lose him too", he spoke as his eyes glistened.

"I am sorry", she held his hand tightly. She didn't mean to bring back the memories again. She knew his parents are no more. He told it himself to her one day when they have gone for shopping.

"You are not at fault Soo Ah, don't be sorry", he ruffled her hair. Ever since they came back to talking terms, he ruffled her hair more often, as a sign of expressing his affection to her and she loved that small action so much.

"It will get better in time", she tried to make him feel better.

"Hopefully", he interlocked his fingers with her and she blushed.

"I am sorry for making you wait. I mean I am not ready yet but I don't want you to get affected", he apologised while she let out a grin.

"It's okay Joon. I can wait for you forever. I will tell you if I get tired of waiting okay? Though I don't think it will happen", she chuckled while speaking those words and he felt bad for leaving her on edge like that.

"I will try my best", he promised her.

"I know you will", she tapped on his nose while he blushed.

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The next day

Seoul National University

Jungkook's Pov

I look at her coming towards me with smile. I just looked at her awed by her beauty. Her eyes gleamed in happiness as she approached me. I got lost in those honey brown orbs. They are telling me a different story today. Something different from the usual one.

"Jungkook", I heard someone calling me.

As I looked down to see the owner of the voice, I saw Hana waving her hand at me.

"Where are you lost idiot?", she asked me slapping my arm lightly.

"Nothing", I stuttered. How can I confess her that I got lost in her eyes?

"Jungkook, I am hungry", she held her stomach and frowned. As usual, this girl will never have her breakfast.

"Come, let's go to the canteen", I held her hand walking towards the canteen hearing her little squeals as we reached.

"Egg Sandwich", I ordered her favourite one. I wonder if she considers anything else edible in this canteen. She grabbed the sandwich from my hand and started eating, not forgetting to tell me how delicious it is.

She told how my plan of scaring the hell out of Yuna was so perfect and went so well. She even told that she is jealous of me that I have a brother like Jin who could cook delicious food. Unlike the usual days, where I chatter like monkey, today it was her who is doing the speaking part.

She let out soft giggles in middle, just like a small kid. And she kept placing her hand on me while telling about how she wished to be a boy and all the stupid stuff. It was the first time for me to see this side of her.

She looks so beautiful when she laughs, I thought to myself. What is this feeling around her? Why am I feeling so ecstatic at her small movements? She looked so happy today. Is this the personality I missed behind the cold and strong Hana?

She looked at me and I realised I was staring at her for too long. I leaned in closer and I could feel her frozen in her spot. She tapped her fingers lightly on the table and I smiled at her actions to divert the nervousness. I leaned in close and picked the small piece of egg on the corner of her lips and sat back in my spot.

She took a breath and so did I. I could feel my heart beating faster than usual and I know this feeling. I know I am feeling different around her. And now I don't want to fight it.

I started having feelings for you Hana.

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Author's note:

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