Part 29 - Fear of Rejection

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The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart

- Helen Keller

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"I think I like Hana"

The brothers looked at him shocked.

"Yah, little shit. Are you really serious?", Yoongi smacked Jungkook's head.

"Hyung, why would I lie to you guys? I always had those feelings when I am around her. I just can't explain how I felt. I don't have any words to explain it", he admitted and sighed. Jin put an arm around his younger's brother and smiled.

"I understand how you feel. You wouldn't know what is happening around you but you like that. You feel happy because of it", he spoke and Jungkook agreed.

"Exactly hyung. That's how I was feeling all these days. And today, when I had the urge to beat those shit out of guys, I realised I like her more than anything", Jungkook confessed making his brothers smile.

"She has her own special way of turning around my terrible day. She knows how to make my day and always tried to make me smile despite having her own problems", the younger one continued with a smile fixed on his face.

"Does her attitude not bother you anymore?", Jin asked and he shook his head in negation.

"She has a reason to behave like that. And she changed a lot these days. And I don't mind it even if she is like that", Jungkook answered.

"What made you get attracted to her?", It was Yoongi. It was like a questionnaire in an interview.

"Her eyes", he blurted. "Her eyes tell me something different. They give me an idea of how she is feeling and sometimes they make me confused. I could just write a book on her deep honey brown orbs", he described.

"Jungkook ah, you are so in love", Jin exclaimed and the younger nodded in realisation.

"If this is what called love, then I love her. I am so happy that I finally realised what I feel towards her", he screamed and jumped out of his seat.

"Hyung, I am in love", he lifted Jin out of position and turned him round. Yoongi smiled at his younger brother's actions

"Jungkook ah, I am so happy for you", Jin hugged and danced along with him. Yoongi also joined them after muttering a few curse words at how childish they are.

"Little shit, I still wonder how you became so big. ", Yoongi teased Jungkook.

"Yes, our height difference tells it more clearly", Jungkook retorted back and Yoongi ran back of him.

"You, little shit", he was ordering to stop running but Jungkook was faster.

"Stop it pigs, you are messing the house. I am not going to help you clean this after", Jin yelled and they both stopped. Jungkook stuck out his tongue and Yoongi glared at him.

Jin made special dinner in order to celebrate his brother's happiness. Even Yoongi helped him in cooking and the younger one was just waiting at the table enjoying the aroma of the dishes. They are having a very late dinner as Jungkook didn't come on time.

"This shit never cooks but eats like a pig", Yoongi placed the rice on table and sat down.

"Don't call me shit, hyung", Jungkook gave a displeasing look to the one sitting infront of him.

"Should I call you poop instead?", Yoongi retorted and Jungkook was about to throw a glass of water on him had not Jin intervening and saving Yoongi right on time.

"Will you two shut your crazy mouths and eat?", he snapped at them and they glared at each other.

"Hyung, how can we eat when our mouths are shut?", Jungkook asked pretending to be innocent and Yoongi chuckled at his words.

"Aren't you guys just shooting glares each other till now and now you two became one?", Jin shook his head in disbelief as his younger brothers burst into laughter.

"When are you going to confess it to her?", Yonngi asked eyeing Jungkook and his face fell down thinking about that.

"What's wrong Jungkook ah?", Jin asked, worried at Jungkook's change of expression.

"I won't confess to her hyung", he spoke not looking at them.

"What do you mean? How will she know that you like her then?", Yoongi was puzzled at Jungkook's words.

"Hana is not that kind of person who will immediately agree if I confess. She is reserved and keeps the feelings for herself. And I just don't like to get rejected. I can't hear her say no", Jungkook expressed his fear of rejection.

"How will you know if she likes you back or not?", Jin asked concerned about his brother.

"I just don't know about that hyung. But I just can't bear the rejection. It really pains me a lot. And above all, I don't want to lose her. I don't want to lose her friendship", he admitted and the brothers nodded understanding his condition.

"Will you be okay?", Yoongi asked and Jungkook nodded in positive.

"I know it will pain to hide my feelings from her and to not see the same feeling from her. But I just don't want to lose her. I am happy if she is there for me, even if it is just like a friend", he spoke.

After the dinner, Jungkook just went into his room assuring his brothers that he was okay.

"I didn't know this little shit grew up this much" , Yoongi mouthed.

"He is too matured to be called a kid now", Jin spoke and they dispersed to their bedrooms.

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"Eonnie, are you alright?", Kyunghee hugged her sister as soon as she arrived home.

"I am fine Kyunghee ah. Don't cry okay?", Hana pat her sister's head and smiled.

"Why did you come this late?", she asked eyeing her suspiciously.

"The traffic", Hana stuttered as she answered.

"I know you were with Jungkook Eonnie. Now stop lying and tell me what happened", Kyunghee demanded and Hana felt nervous. She need to configure out what her feelings were towards Jungkook and if she tells about the kiss to Kyunghee, she will not stop teasing.

"Nothing, we just had a talk and he yelled at me for being careless", she told half of the truth.

"Did he seriously yell at you? I am going to tell this to Yuna", Kyunghee got angry hearing that Jungkook yelled at Hana when she herself is the victim.

"No Kyunghee ah, he was just concerned, you know? Lately we grew close and he was so scared", I defended Jungkook knowing how well Yuna tackles the problems.

"Eonnie, Did you two become that close? I mean you are defending him even if he yelled at you", Kyunghee was suspicious about Hana and Jungkook.

"We are friends Kyunghee ah and you know Jungkook very well. He just spits out words without any reason. He was really concerned. That's all", Hana explained and Kyunghee nodded still being doubtful about them

"Well! How is Jimin now? He got injured right?", Hana diverted the topic.

"Yeah, he is fine now. And I forgot this thing, Jin ordered a takeout for both of us", she brought the parcel and placed it infront of her sister.

"He is really an Oppa after all", Hana exclaimed opening the fried chicken.

"When did he become Oppa?", Kyunghee asked out of curiosity. She just don't know what all happened in a single day.

"Just today"

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The next day

Namjoon's house

"Your house is really big", Soo ah exclaimed as she entered the house.

"My uncle bought it for us. He is managing the company in the absence of my parents", he informed her and she nodded still admiring the interiors.

"You seem so interested in my house than me", he winked at her and she slapped his arm lightly with a tint of blush on her face.

"Do you even know how to flirt?", she snapped at him and he chuckled.

"I just did and I could see the girl in front of me blushing", he teased her and her cheeks became red.

"Joon, you changed a lot. You became really a bad boy", she hit him lightly covering her face.

"I heard Soo Ah likes bad boys", he raised his brows and Soo Ah blushed even more profusely.

"Yah! Joon, what are you watching these days? Where are you learning all these?", she snapped at him at his flirty behaviour.

"This is living room guys", Taehyung got down the stairs and Soo Ah greeted him. He gave a teasing stare to the couple in front of him.

"Just stop it Taehyung. She came here to study and you will have to help her if she has any doubts", Namjoon ordered his brother and Taehyung bowed.

"As you order, master", he spoke with a tone of sarcasm and Soo Ah laughed at them.

"This idiot, just don't overact ", Namjoon hit him lightly on head and Taehyung let out a giggle.

"Shall we go to my room?", Namjoon directed Soo Ah to her room and she walked behind him ignoring all the teasing looks by Taehyung.

His room was big and quite simple and most of the space is used for study table and book shelves. He is a complete bookworm, Soo Ah thought looking at the room. She felt a bit different as she was in the room of the person she likes.

She knew he is a man of decency and there is nothing to worry about, but she was quite nervous.

"We will start studying now", he brought another chair and placed it near the desk. The desk was wide enough for both of them to study. He opened his books and kept his specs on. He started flipping through the pages and even started jotting down the points.

And there she was, still don't know what to study. She doesn't even know how to start. She opened up a random book and tried to read it. It was dealing about networks and all, but all she could concentrate is the features of the man beside her.

The way he looked at the book with great concentration and the way he flicks the pain and sometimes twitch his mouth. These are the only things she is studying instead of her topics.

"If you keep staring me, you will not pass and I will not take you on a date", he mouthed not looking at her and she immediately looked into her books. She was shocked at how he noticed her checking him out even without looking. And after a few minutes, she continued her staring business again.

"It's not going to work out like this. I am calling Taehyung", he got up from his chair even before she could say something. Taehyung came into the room and Namjoon packed his books.

"Study well, okay?", he patted her head and she frowned as he left the room.

"Your brother is really so studious. How are you even bearing him?", she sighed looking at the ground.

"Just like how you are bearing", he replied back and she looked at him astonished. They never told anyone else about themselves till now. She wondered if Namjoon spilled the secret to his brother.

"I didn't get you", she pretended to be perplexed.

"Though he is like that, he is my brother and I love him. So I ought to bear him. And so do you? Don't you love him?", he raised his brows and it made her choke.

"How did you know?", she asked still surprised at his acknowledgment.

"Isn't it obvious? And to be honest, your Joon was drunk a few days back and revealed that you confessed to him. He even cried that he felt bad for rejecting you", he revealed and she felt awkward now. She just stammered at her words.

"Hey! It's okay. You don't need to be awkward about this. Everything will not go as we expect them to be. I am sure hyung wouldn't do anything that would hurt you", he assured her and she smiled at his words. She never had a conversation like this with Taehyung.

"I know. And thanks for those words. But, shall we keep this a secret between us. We are still not sure about anything yet", she requested him and he showed his boxy grin.

"Of course, this will be our little secret then", he sat down beside her.

"Now, shall we get to the books or else hyung would kill me for wasting your precious time", he teased her and she let out a chuckle.

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"Are you sure?", Kyunghee asked Yuna for the umpteenth time till now.

"It's better early than too late", Yuna encouraged her friend.

"What if he rejects? I just can't bear it", she was so scared.

"We will see about that later. Just go and confess today.", Yuna was quite confident that Jimin would accept Kyunghee.

Kyunghee called Jimin to meet at a restaurant as Yuna told her to. She actually thought of confessing it after the exams but Yuna urged her to do it as soon as possible. She was first scared about her exams nevertheless she wanted them to enjoy the holidays right after the exams.

She went inside the restaurant and Jimin waved at her as soon as she entered. He gave out a sincere smile and greeted her.

"What's so special Kyunghee ah?", he looked at her all dressed up. It's unlikely for Kyunghee to get dressed up.

"Why? Isn't it nice?", she asked him and he immediately shook his head.

"No, not like that. Kyunghee ah, you always look pretty. I was just curious", he explained her and she chuckled at his innocence.

"Jimin, what shall we order?", she asked looking at the menu.

"Kyunghee ah, you seem nervous. What's the issue? Is it Taehyung?", Jimin asked worried at her nervous and pale face.

"No, it's nothing Jimin. It's nothing about Taehyung. We are doing good these days", she smiled and he sighed in relief. Jimin was happy as the relationship between Taehyung and Kyunghee is getting better from bitter.

They order the food and talked about random things like the fight that happened the day before and about their good olden days in the school. All the nervousness got washed away as they kept talking. It was normal for them to talk like that without a stop, and not to forget the giggles and laughs in between.

As the food came, they munched on their dishes. For once, Kyunghee forgot about confession and then her phone vibrated. It was a message from Yuna. And then she realised, that she completely forgot about why she was there.

"Is this the reason you called me so suddenly? For food?", he chuckled as he completed his dessert.

"No, I have something important to tell you", she started fiddling her fingers.

"Is everything alright Kyunghee ah?", he placed his hand on hers, worried about the way she is behaving. She was never usually tensed up around him.

"Jimin, I don't know why I am feeling this for you. I like you Jimin", she uttered those words gathering all the courage in her.

"What?", he pulled back his hand surprised at her confession.

"I have developed feelings for you Jimin ah. I am having a crush on you since many months and I just couldn't stop myself from feeling like that. I like you so much Jimin ah", she confessed closing her eyes.

"I like you too Kyunghee ah, but like a friend. I am sorry, but I can't feel the same way you feel for me. I just treat you like my best friend. You are like a sister to me and I could never feel like that for you", he politely rejected her and her eyes started glistening.

"It's okay Jimin ah. I understand you", she stuttered and her hands shivered. She was so disappointed at the rejection. She always feared about it and facing it is even more worse.

"We will still be friends Kyunghee ah. I hope this doesn't affect our friendship", he smiled and felt sad for hurting his best friend. She nodded and quickly got up from her seat to pay the bill.

"Kyunghee ah, I will drop you home. I just can't leave you like this", he held her wrist and stopped her. He felt truly concerned about her as he knew how sensitive his friend is.

"It's okay Jimin, I can manage myself", she just pulled out of his grip and started walking taking big steps not giving any heed to his words. He kept calling her to stop but she didn't even turn to look at him.

As he saw her going, he saw another figure hugging her and dropping her in cab. He felt relieved when he saw her, it was Yuna. He knew she will take care of her. But what surprised him is Yuna approaching him furiously.

"How dare you do that?", she yelled at me and I was shocked at her tone. She looked really mad.

"What did I do?"

"Don't lie. You rejected Kyunghee. You know how sad she was. Do you even consider about someone else' feelings?", she snapped at him making him flinch. He was hurt at her words. He never intended to hurt anyone. He just didn't want to build up false hopes.

"And do you?",he asked her and she looked at him in confusion.

"What about you? Do you even consider other's feelings? I just can't feel for Kyunghee like the way she does for me. Why don't you understand that?", he snapped back at her. Yuna looked shocked as it was the first time for her to see him like that.

"What's wrong in Kyunghee? She is pretty, kind and above all, she knows you better than anyone", Yuna questioned and Jimin held his head with his hands.

"I never said Kyunghee lacked in something. She is a perfect girl, but I could never like her as a woman. I could only feel her as a friend.", he explained and she looked at him no emotion.

"But, she is hurt", she mouthed.

"Yes, she will be hurt, but just for now. She might forget me tomorrow. But just to not let her get hurt, if I accept her feelings and give her hopes, it would hurt her even more, that I don't feel anything for her", he yelled making Yuna feel guilty.

She never thought for once on Jimin's side. It is true that if he accepts her just to make her happy, it would be very troublesome for them in the future. She just thought about Kyunghee's feelings and not about their future.

"And why will you understand this? Have you ever loved someone? You always side on your friends not listening to other side of the story. Have you ever faced anything like this", he yelled at her making her hurt. Jimin was so mad at her for making wrong assumptions and trying to force things on him.

She felt so hurt at his words that tears started rolling down her eyes. Those words affected her a lot. She faced it. She faced something like that, something even worse than that.

"I faced it too", she yelled back making him shocked.

"I faced something even worse", she spoke in her sobs.

"My loved one cheated on me and I cheated on my loved one"

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Author's note:

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