It hurts to love. It's like giving yourself to be flayed and knowing that at any moment the other person may just walk off with your skin

-Susan Sontag

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Hana's Pov

"I am here to take you back", the card readout and my heart raced as I looked at it. I know his stubbornness and once he decides to do one thing, he will stick onto it. And now I am even more scared because of him. I don't want him to disturb anything now. I am ready to bear all his hatred but I can't spoil all the efforts now.

Sighing to myself, I pulled the three bunnies to myself and hugged them. Please Jungkook, don't mess up my already messed up life. Please move on and be happy.

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I woke up as the sun rays fell upon my face. I looked up to see my mom along with a few bags.

"You were sleeping, so I packed your bags", she told me and I smiled.

"I still need to pack. There are some things I need to carry till there", I told her and she smiled.

"Kyunghee packed all those for you. Nothing is left in the cupboard. You can check if you want", she ruffled my hair and I let out a smile.

"We will be leaving to the airport in two hours. Fresh up and get ready. Call me if you need anything okay?", she informed and I nodded. I am finally going to Seoul now and after so long. Eomma left the room and I checked my cupboard. As she spoke, nothing was there. The photo frames, my watch and all the memories were already packed. I wonder if Kyunghee is my elder sister at times.

We nearly have one and half year difference though. I did my morning routine and sat down to dry my hair with the drier. I am going to be the personal assistant of Jeon Jungkook now. Ridiculous isn't it?

Why would the great businessman like him employ a girl who doesn't even know the basics of business? And directly under him. Why should it be like this? Could I manage myself in front of him? I thought his partnership with dad would lead him to visit the house many a times and feared about it. But now, I am his PA. I have to work with him all the day and I don't think he would make it easy.

But I have to fight myself and my feelings. I don't want to lose myself to him, it would only tangle up my life. I will have to marry Baekhyun and any mistake would only lead to misery. Appa is very much eager for my marriage since he is getting related to his best friend. I am pretty sure he would be disappointed to hell if he gets to know of us.

"I have to be careful", I sighed to myself and walked out of my room.

End of Hana's Pov

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"So, are you excited now?", Jungkook asked Kyunghee as they walked inside the airport.

"Don't tell me this is your plan", Kyunghee spoke and he winked at her.

"You should always expect the unexpected from me Kyunghee ah", he smiled and she let out a chuckle.

"Why don't you just take eonnie away with you? Nobody can stop you", she stated and he pressed his lips into a thin line.

"Do you think I didn't have that idea? Your sister would never come to me by herself. I got to know that she is engaged now.", he stated and she nodded her head.

"Why don't you kidnap her then? She will eventually forgive you even though she might become an angry lioness for the first few days", she chimed and he let out a chuckle.

"And leave you all alone by yourself? Kyunghee, you should also go back to Taehyung. You guys don't have to sacrifice your love because of us", he told her and she let out a faint smile.

"Speaking about him. How is he?", she asked him as her eyes started glistening.

"I was wondering why you didn't ask that till now. To be honest, he is not at all fine Kyunghee ah. Jin hyung works with him and he knows how badly he is missing you. Please don't hurt yourself and him Kyunghee ah", he told her and a tear drop streamed down her face.

"I know Jungkook. I know I did wrong by leaving him but I can't leave eonnie alone.", she explained and he nodded.

"I know that Kyunghee ah. And that's why I am telling, there is still time. You can meet Taehyung now, talk to him and make up. And now your eonnie has you, me and eomoni. It isn't right to sacrifice your happiness because your sister is not happy.", he told her and she nodded

"I will make you meet Taehyung when we reach there okay?", he told her and she shook her head vigorously. He was wondering why she didn't want to do that.

"I don't think I can face him Jungkook. After all these days, I just can't go to him and ask him to come back to me. I still need time to face him Jungkook", she spoke and he nodded understandingly

"Take your time then. Tell me when you feel like meeting him and we will go then. Okay?", he asked her and she nodded.

"Now don't cry", he wiped her tears and she let out a smile.

"Why don't you both talk in front of my husband?", Mrs Do came and intervened them.

"I though he went to check on the luggage", Jungkook spoke and turned around to see Mr Do already there.

"Thank me for saving you", Mrs Do stated and Jungkook let out a chuckle.

"I am always thankful to you eomoni", he blinked his eyes and let out a wide smile.

"We were just having a casual conversation though", Kyunghee defended Jungkook.

"I know and it involves wiping your tears right? It would arise doubts in your dad's head about being close to each other just in two days", Mrs Do smacked her daughter's head lightly.

Hana has been observing them from a distance and smiled at them. She wanted to join their talks too but she knew she can't. Sighing to herself, she walked to buy herself a drink.

"Litchi Crush", she ordered.

"One banana milkshake please", she saw the man beside him and ignored him.

"And add it in her bill", he spoke and the lady did that. Hana just sighed and paid for both of them.

"Have a nice day sir and ma'am", the cashier spoke and they both nodded. He walked beside her and she just stayed silent.

"Why did you pay for me when I am nothing to you now", he asked her and she clutched onto her drink. She knew if he would start talking, she would be out of words.

"I paid for my boss and my dad's business partner", she stated and he let out a chuckle.

"Then will you do anything for your boss and dad's business partner huh?", he smirked at her but she just ignored him. He held her wrist and pulled her to him. Her ignorance is something which irritates him a lot

"What are you doing Jungkook? Appa can see us", she panicked looking at her father who is seated facing to the other side.

"Why darling? You are with your boss and your dad's business partner. What would happen if he see us like this?", he raised her brows pulling her close.

"Jungkook, please", she was trying to wiggle out of his hold.

"You can't leave as long as I am holding it, now and always", he whispered in her ears, being dangerously close to her face. His hot breath fanning on her neck is making her knees go weak. He has the same effect on her even after so many days.

"Are you still weak for me Hana?", he asked her getting back to his position while she took a deep breath.

"Nothing changed Hana. Your stubbornness, your emotions, your eyes, and my effect on you. None of them changed", he stated looking into her eyes

"Please let go", she pleaded but he was adamant.

"I never thought you would plead me to go instead of asking me to stay Hana. This is the thing which changed I guess", he left her and let out a faint smile. It was paining for him to pull the girl he loves to him when she is unwilling to come to him.

"This is just a trailer Hana. I will show you the reality when you work under me", he smirked at her and she looked at him astounded.

"What do you think huh? That it will be easy to work under me. I will make you regret for leaving me like that Hana. I will show you how much pain you gave me. It isn't going to be easy Hana. And remember my words.", he apprised her and she took a gulp down her throat.

She never imagined Jungkook like that, not even in her dreams. He had rage and hurt in his eyes. Nevertheless, she is ready to face it. She felt that she deserves it for what she had done to him. Giving her one last glance, he walked from her.

She wiped the tears which she had controlled from pouring down. She hates herself for being like that. She hates herself for being a pain in his life. For the first time ever, she wished to not have met him, she wished to not have fallen in love with him.

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"I can't believe I am back in Seoul", Mrs Do exclaimed as they walked out of the airport.

"You have to believe eomoni. I think you have no choice", Jungkook winked at her and she shot a glare at him

"Had my husband not been here, I would have pulled out your ears already", Mrs Do shot at Jungkook who was giggling. He was loving the equally sassy mom of Hana. He is getting a feeling of having an actual mother like being with him. He misses his mother and the motherly care a lot.

"Did you get your bags ready Jungkook?", Mr Do asked and he nodded. The rest members looked at him in surprise.

"Oh! Did I forget to tell? I insisted Jungkook to live with us since his father is in Tokyo. Wouldn't it be troublesome for him to manage everything all by himself?", Mr Do spoke and Jungkook showed a thumbs up to him. Mr Do walked first reaching out to the cabs

"Didn't he do a better background check on him? He has a brother too and he can live with him", Hana muttered and Kyunghee chuckled hearing her.

"He's doing it for you eonnie", she mouthed and Hana let out a sigh.

"I don't want him to", she mouthed and walked first. Kyunghee looked at her sister and then at Jungkook.

"Why are you staring me? I will complain to Taehyung", he teased her and she shook her head in disbelief.

"Shall we go", Mrs Do lead them to the cabs.

They reached the mansion which Mr and Mrs Do had lived before. It was renovated a year ago and looked all good with excellent interiors. The elderly couple took their room in the ground floor and their daughters took their original rooms. Jungkook was given the guest room which is no less to the other rooms.

"Living under the same roof as him could only cause my heart a trouble", she sighed and unpacked the bags. She held her heart and took a deeper breath. She knew he wouldn't leave a chance to bother her.

She decided to have a hot shower to feel relaxed as she knows that her journey in Seoul would be the toughest. Hot water dripping down her skin made her body feel loosened. Dressing herself in the bathrobe, she walked out of the bathroom.

And when she turned around, she knew who is there.

"Don't you think it is wrong to barge into an girl's room?", she asked looking at him for which he gave out an evil smirk. Her breathe hitched when he did that and her heart beat thumped faster with every step he advanced.

"Who said I barged into any girl's room? I came into my girl's room. My girl", he stressed the my and slid his fingers through her wet strands. She gasped as he rubbed his thumb at her temple and closed her eyes. He smirked at the affect he is having on her.

Realising what she is doing, she stepped back. He let out a chuckle seeing her.

"What are you doing Jungkook? Please go out of my room", she yelled at him but he just stayed in the same position.

"Why are you acting like I have never seen you like this before? In fact I have seen your everything and I didn't forget a bit", he walked to her closing the feet gap she has maintained before.

"Don't try to push me Hana. I know you can't", he spoke looking into her eyes and cupped her face.

"You know how much I miss this damn face, those eyes and your shea butter bodywash? I just want to cage you and show you that you are mine.", he rubbed his thumb on her cheek in circular motion.

"Jungkook", she could only mumble his name and pushing him is not an idea in her mind.

"But I know doing that would be just my foolishness. I want you to come back by yourself and I want you to admit that you still love me. I know you more than anyone Hana. Always remember I can read through your eyes. They never lie to me", He placed his thumb on her lips and she closed her eyes.

He loves that, he loves her going weak for him. He is so confident about his love that he could never believe that she moved on. Holding her waist with one arm, he pulled her close. She widened her eyes at his sudden action. Nevertheless, she didn't wiggle as she knows she could never win against Jeon Jungkook.

They both looked into each others' eyes intensely cutting through each other deeper than a sword. Millions of unspoken thoughts and emotions were spoken without a word. They knew what they were feeling and that could be nothing less than missing each other ardently.

They knew they could find peace in each others' arms yet they stayed just like that. They knew how hard it was it to live without each other yet they had the void in their hearts to pour out their love. They knew everything would be right if they get back to normal, but they decided to stay like that. Hana, because of her problem and Jungkook because of hurt.

Unknowingly, tears streamed down Hana's face and it brought them back to reality. The ten second eye lock expressed millions of words that their voices couldn't speak. Hana pulled out of his hold and Jungkook looked away to hide his tears. He walked out of the room in silence and wiped his tears. Hana crashed on the ground and hugged her knees.

"I am so sorry Jungkook"

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Author's note:

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