you don't like me
and that's okay
i knew that
and expected that
but what hurts
is that suddenly
you forgot that i exist
or maybe you're waiting for me to talk to you?
that's what i've been doing, too

sorry if this makes me sound bitter
but i can't help it if i'm just
a pale piece of dark chocolate
if you get what i'm saying
5 foot 4 of pure bitterness
but i'm the palest kid on my block

you have no idea
how completely pathetic
i've been feeling this past week
just because i messed up and now you don't speak to me
our conversations meant so much to me
how easy it was to talk to you
but now it's like an act of congress just to look at you
and maybe it's stupid
maybe i've blown everything out of proportion

you said nothing would change
but i thought it was a lie
but i hoped that i would be proven wrong
that didn't work out too well
but maybe it's my own doing
i should stop hoping
and praying
and wanting
and needing
especially needing
i wish i could stop needing friends
that way i could stop being broken by them