he's afraid
they'll see
the marks
on his body
where he wrote
the word freak
and had to hide it

he's still ashamed of himself
though he tries not to be
he doesn't know what to do anymore
just hoping
mum doesn't find
the word
he wrote
and the ones
he plans on writing

he's a freak
and he knows it
that's why
he did it
he wrote on himself
defiled his arm
and he'll forever
be reminded
you're a freak
hasn't eaten
a real meal in a week
trying to lose weight
like he needs to
he knows he doesn't need to
but he wants to
so he tries

he's a freak
he wasn't born a boy
he still can't be a boy

he's a freak
his mum said so
said all of his people are
not knowing he's one of them
she hopes and prays he isn't one of them

he's a freak
hates everything
in this godforsaken world
this broken world
this harsh reality
and the reality is
he doesn't want to live anymore

he's a freak
he loves her
so he stays
for her
he's a freak
he knows
she'll never
feel the same
but he stays
and hopes