A/N:  hello there how are you?
Fine? Well not anymore, there will be self harm, blood and (Maybe if you have hearth) feels.

Sorry!

Based on pic above, you know what's gonna happen.

If you don't like a fake boy x boy don't read!

Also go comment along!

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I can't believe I'm doing this.....

But its for bill.

I stood next to the strings and controlled him.

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I opened my yellow ,slitted,eyes to see a trembling Mabel.

I smirked since it just makes things easier.

"M-Mabel would you like some water?" I said copying dad's voice.
(AND YES I DID THAT!)

She nodded.

I went to the kitchen to get some water...

....and the knife.

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I was so scared! Well at least dipper's screams were actually funny,couldn't tell if it was a girl or a boy.

Gruncle ford brought Bill's human form to dippers bed to rest.

I was waiting for Dipper to give me water.

Right on cue Dipper came,I could tell it was him based on his foot steps .

But I knew it wasn't him.

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Hmmm...I wonder why he blacked out.

I was interrupted with my thoughts when I heard mabel's screams.

I rushed down stairs to see what happened.

And there he was in the right body.

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I'm not just  any dream demon , I am a death demon.

But even im not physically hurting her yet....I already feel guilty.

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Shooting star's screams  filled the air.

I was carving  my dad's summoning circle on my chest.

Crimson Blood was now dripping from my chest,pooling on the hard wood floor.

I could hear shooting star's screams, begging me to stop cutting her brother.

But what she didn't know was he let me possess him.

I was waiting for her to cry her eyes out but she stayed strong, she's just standing there mad at me telling me to leave.

Time for drastic measures.

I got the knife and closed my eyes.

I started to cut an X symbol over my right  eye like the one father has, I laughed like a madman.

I didn't hear her screams but I heard dad's  screams telling me that it wasn't part of the deal,and that he hates me...

I trembled at that moment , I fell to my knees and cried, stupid emotions why am I part human!?

When shooting star noticed she took pity on me, which just makes me more sad.
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Don't you know what it feels like...to...be hated by your own dad ,who never knew he was your father, and the person who knew about this never told him at all, and the one who knew was ,just acting his love for his, fake yet could give  real love, son?

I just cried on the spot, gosh why was I born to this cruel world!?

I could see through my bloody eye shooting star looking like a confused puppy when I fell to my knees and cried.

I just want to die.

Whenever I feel like to die ,I die.

I took the knife just started cutting on my left arm.

Deep then deeper , until I felt light headed.

But dad just said,"go cut of my body, limb from limb, I don't care any more"

So I went to my other arm started cutting until the red ,sticky, blood was now my long sleeve.

I was crying ,I cried this hard when my father lost his memories too.

Well good for him.

I'm just helping will get his brother back so he won't kill ,Mill.

Even though were not from the same dimension , she's the only one who treated me like real family.

The only one.

When shooting star was now crying I could see will collecting shooting star and my blood.

Then I realized.

I was the puppet all along.

I heard fordsy going down the stairs and saw the scene.

I went past him and went to the bathroom, locked the door and slid down it crying my eyes out.

'He hates me'

'He wants to forget me'

'He regrets making me'

'He regrets having me'

And I regret living in the past, the present, and the days after.

I was just taken for granted.

I left his body, for good , never gonna possess that stupid, pathetic,  -censor-  -censor- , and a  -censor-  a-and  -censor-  excuse for a living   -censor-  fleshstick!

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When in the mindscape I could hear every thought I didn't mind Bipper's because his would just be messed up murders!

But when he ran to the bathroom,his thought were the loudest.

I tried to ignore it but it was too loud.

So I listened.

It was full of regrets, regrets of living.

Regrets of waking up in the morning.

Regrets of not commuting suicide when he finally had the chance.

He left my body, it was fully healed except it left scars.

I went in nothing was wrong with it.

I left the bathroom to see how Mabel was doing I hope she wasn't traumatized.

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"M-Mabel?" I heard a voice it was Dipper,the real one!

He fell to his knees.

He was crying.

Me and gruncle ford don't know why.

Just then gruncle stan came in and said,"some demon is inside bill's head!"

We all rushed upstairs to see William cuddled in dipper's  blanket, and based on past experience we should go to the demon's mindscape.

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Great uncle ford is now collecting things to prepare the incantation

Me and Mabel were just talking then there was silence between us.

She broke the silence and said,
"What  do you think,Bipper was crying about?"

I tensed up,she looked at me suspicious like.

"He's regretting stuff...."

"What kind of stuff?"

"Um okay this is just a little theory but um .....probably about...living?"I said trying to sound like I'm lying.

"Thanks for telling me the truth"

"Wait?what!?"

"I know we could read minds in the mindscape dip dops"

I gave a relieve sigh.

Then we heard a 'thump' sound,we went to our room to see  gruncle ford unconscious.

The lights then went off.

Another thump was heard.

The light were on again, gruncle stan unconscious on the floor too.

Mabel, looked like she was gonna faint,which she did.

Before fainting I saw the brunette demon again,fully recovered looking well and  he whispered to me,

" take good care of my friend for me"

Then I also blacked out.

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A/N:   so? What you guys think?

See you next week!

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Billdip is my OTP .....