Author's Note: I LOVE this song! It also goes really well with the chapter! The video had so many feels! Feel free to listen as you read.

Clary

"Clary, really it's okay. You....can leave me if you want to. I'll understand." How could someone have done this to Jace? How! "You shouldn't be tied to Willow either, I...I'll just tell her that we......stopped being friends." Willow is a doll! Why does he think I'd leave them? A small voice yells, because Chloe did. She left Jace and Willow. "I'm sure you'll want to stop being friends with me, so I won't even have to lie," Jace whispers into my shoulder. How could Chloe leave him like that! He....he's so....broken! I know I should be mad at him, but...he needs me. I decide that there's only one way for me to distract him. Gently, I take his face in my hands. Then, I lean in and connect our lips. Jace stiffens. Did I do something wrong?

I pull apart. "Jace, i....is someone wrong? Di.....did I....do something wro-" I begin.

"No, no it was me. I....I was just expecting you to be mad and leave me," Jace responds. Give me a little credit! My annoyed voice bellows Stop being so harsh! He's been hurt and he has trust issues, just like you do! My other voice replies.

"I don't want to leave you, in fact, as of now, I'd like to be very close to you," I try to sound attractive.

"Clary, Angel! I.....I just messed up your first kiss! I'm sorry. I...I didn't....I...sorry," Jace exclaims.  Crap! How did I not think about that? Isn't that what girls are supposed to think about? I...I was just so caught up in the moment, i.....it never even occurred to me.

"Jace, really it's okay. There's no one else I would've rather given my first kiss to," I smile and my cheeks blush.

"I...I shouldn't have kissed you like that. I....I should've made sure it was okay with you first," Jace responds.

"Jace, I knew exactly what you were doing as you inched closer to my face. If I didn't want to kiss you, I would've pulled out," I explain.

"So.....you wanted to kiss me too," Jace confirms. "Now, even though you know Willow is my daughter, I'm messed up somehow, and Chloe let me because of my messed up self, you still wanted to and took the lead on kissing me the second time."

"Yes, now am I going to have to lead in kiss number three too or have you figured it out?" I joke. Jace leans in and carefully brushes his lips past mine. The kiss is slow and light and amazing. Eventually, we break apart for air. Our foreheads rest against each other, and we sit there silently taking each other in.

As if on que when Jace leans in again, we hear a cry. Jace looks at me nervously. "I....I've got..t....to go and.....ge......get....Wi.....Willow," Jace stutters. I hate this! He's scared of my response!

"Okay, I'll be here when you get back," I confirm. He smiles at me as he walks out the door. When did I start thinking about Jace in this way? There was a lot of pain he caused, but at some point, I must've started to have feelings for him. Huh.......I think it was when he let his nice seep through.

(Author's Note: This is a flashback.)

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"I've got her," a male voice says. I can feel them get closer and I hide my face. The male bends down and grabs my hands. I chance a glance at him and I see its Jace. Why is he helping me?

"W...why are you helping me?" I ask, and it hurts to move my lip.

"Shhh, it's okay. Don't talk, Kaelie hit your face pretty good. I think she split your lips.," Jace whispers, and gently puts his finger to my lips.

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When I saw Jace in distress, something inside me clicked. That's when it started. I decided to take a beating for him. By the time he helped me stand, I was smitten. Jace walks in without Willow. Huh? "Where's Willow?" I ask.

"I rocked her back to sleep," Jace responds. Was he gone that long?

"Jace, you could've brought her in here you know," I reply.

"No I couldn't have," Jace says mysteriously. "She can't see what I'm about to do." Suddently, he's  sitting next to me on the bed. His lips are gently pushing on mine. My hands find his hair. His teeth explore my lips. I love this! Jace is so good at this? Wait, how many....girls has he done this with? What if I'm not good at this. He
...he's obviously had more experience than me. He had to have had sex to have Willow and that.....gave him a lot of experience! I pull away from him.

Jace

"Jace, ho......how many girls.....have you kissed like this?" Clary  nervously asks. She looks at her hands in her lap. Her eyes won't meet mine. Her teeth attack her lip.

"Clary, what's wrong?" I ask concerned. What does she think about me?

"How many Jace? Please I can take it," Clary quietly questions. She can take it! Ugh! I've got to fix this!

"Clary really it's not what you're thinking. Chloe, she was my first everything," I hold back tears as I think about her. "S...she was-" I start crying. Clary looks at me, but I look away embarrassed. She takes my face and lays my head on her shoulder. "She....was....my...first....girlfriend. She.....was my first love. She was my first.....kiss. My......first....and only....time was....with her."

"Jace, I...I'm sorry. I...I'm didn't mean to make you feel like this," Clary whispers in my ear. You need to pull it together! Stop being such a pansy!

"Don't be sorry. I'm sorry," I reply. Then I grab her cheek. It's warm and I can't help but smile knowing I did that. I lean in and connect our lips. We explore eachother. My hands find her hair and hers find my neck.

Clary pulls away from me. "Jace, we really should get some sleep," Clary quietly whispers to me.

"Yeah we should," I reply. I grab Clary in my arms and hold her tight. "Good night Clary."

"Night Jace," Clary sleepily whispers. Clary is fast asleep as I gaze at her. Then, the blackness comes.

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I do not own any of the Mortal Instruments books, materials, etc. All credit belongs to Cassandra Clare.

Author's Note:
I hope you all like it! Please leave comments, votes, and feedback. I'm going to update, when I'm done and it'll be random.

Originally posted: 3/4/18