"Please be nice."

I rolled my eyes. "How many times are you going to say that."

"I just want her to feel welcome," Beck defended himself.

Andrew put his arm around Beck. "We're not going to scare your cousin away, are we guys?"

Tori nodded in agreement.

"If she's hot, I'm sure as hell going to be very nice," Rex nagged. Beck screwed up his face. "I don't think dolls are her type."

"My brother has lots of dolls," Cat said cheerfully. "But some of them are creepy."

Except for a few concerned looks, Cat's statement was ignored.
We sat down at our usual table.

"When is your cousin coming?" asked Tori as she sat down.

Ugh why can't she even keep it down.
I slammed my food down on the table and gave Tori a hateful look.

"Any minute now." he replied a little nervously. "Please behave, I don't want her to think badly of you. She's like a sister to me."

"Yeah yeah we get it," Robbie grumbled.

I poked listlessly at my food. Today was a shitty day.

Beck turned around every three seconds to see if his cousin was there yet. I don't understand why he's so worried. She'll find her way here, won't she.

"Oh, there she is," Beck, who had better beside me, jumped up. Uninterested, I continued to poke at my food without turning around.

"Halllooo Beckk."
I paused briefly at the sound of the feminine, pleasant voice. She sounded attractive. And familiar. Incredibly attractive and familiar.

I pushed myself not to turn around but to continue staring at my food.

"Hello Y/N.," Beck greeted her.
Y/N. That's a nice name.

I could still hear them hugging each other.

A brief silence fell.
"Well guys, this is Y/N, my cousin."
Everyone turned to her as I continued to spear and drop my food.

I tried to block out everyone else's talk or I would probably completely freak out.
I know everyone thinks of me as taking my anger out on everyone. But I'm still pulling myself together. Really, I'm pulling myself together. But there's so much building up inside me that I think I'm choking on it.

It's better to give anger space and people to attack. If I would let my anger out completely, everyone would cry, like little babies. Everyone.

I felt Beck sit down next to me again. I still kept my gaze lowered.

"Hey.", i heard Y/Ns voice say.

I kept my head still lowered, but clutched my fork so tightly until my hand was completely red.

"Are you okay?"

Finally, I raised my head, ready to hiss at this girl to let her know she'd better leave me alone.

That's what I wanted to do. But as soon as our eyes met, the whole world stopped. I saw everything in her eyes. Like I'd known her before, for a long time. As if we had already spent a lifetime together. I saw orange sunsets, beige, clear beaches. At the same time, I smelled the scent of roses and sleep. Her eyes widened a bit, confused. So did mine, probably.

I had never believed such a thing. Like seeing someone, and being able to see their whole future in their eyes. I never believed I could see anything at all in anyone's eyes. Likewise, I always thought that love was something you only imagined. And I had never believed the myth of "love at first sight".

But now I felt, felt everything. It sounded really crazy, but I knew her. I don't know how, I've never met her in my life. But I knew her and I trusted her.

Holy shit I really fell in love at first sight.

We still looked each other straight in the eye. The world around me slowly became louder and faster again. I didn't know if minutes or seconds had passed.

"Hey.", I answered shortly bound. My heart was beating faster than it ever had in my life. I was excited. Excited.

"Hey." she replied as if mesmerized.

"My name is Jade.", I started again and held out my hand to her. Why was I doing this? I don't know.

"Y/N. ", she repeated and gently smacked my hand. It was soft. I didn't want to let go, and neither did she. We looked into each other's eyes and just held each other's hand.

Until Beck cleared his throat.

Y/N let go of my hand, but gave me a longing look.
I gave her a small smile.

Y/N turned her upper body back toward the table and looked at the others.

"So... Robbie, Andrew, Tori, Jade... and Cat, right?"

Everyone nodded in agreement, while robbie propped his head in his hands and looked at Y/N dreamily.

"Forget it freak.", i growled. I could not hold it against him. Y/N was beautiful. Beautiful is a funny, flowery word that I despise.

I was angry at myself. I was acting incredibly weak, like a dog pissing somewhere to mark its territory. I hate dogs.

Without saying a word, I stood up.

"Where are you going?" asked Beck, turning slightly to face me.

"To the bathroom."

"Wait, Can you maybe show me where that is?" asked Y/N hastily, standing up as well.

"I don't think-"

I paused when I saw Beck's pleading look. Sure, I had to be nice.

I sighed. "Come on."

I walked ahead, always careful to keep enough distance from her.
I wanted to get to her, my body craved her. I wanted to touch her, to hug her, to hold her and never let go. And I hated these thoughts. They didn't fit me.

Once we were inside the school building, Y/N tried to close the distance by increasing her steps.

"Wait a minute." she muttered, holding me by the arm. I stiffened and stopped.

"What?" I tried to swallow my annoyed tone.

"Are we not going to talk about what kind of fucked up shit just happened?"

I wiped a hand around my mouth to hide my grin.

"If we're going to talk, we're not going to talk here," I replied after a few seconds of silence.

"Where then?"

I hesitated for a moment before slowly sliding her hand off my arm. She looked at me, confused.

Carefully, as if afraid she would bite me, I took her hand and intertwined it with mine.

She tried to hide her smile.

"Come with me," I grumbled, pulling her along with me.

Where to, I wondered.

You got it, the janitors closet.

It was my only safe place at school, where no one ever was.

"Okey that's... unusual." she mumbled once I quickly pulled her into the small room.

I turned to her and looked her in the eye. A brief silence fell over us.

I cleared my throat.
"So, talk."

She rolled her eyes and tilted her head challengingly.
"You're a tough one, huh?"

"What?"

"The way you act. Don't pretend you didn't feel that out there. Whatever that was I-" she faltered.

"What is it that I feel?" My voice failed a bit.

"Have you ever been in love?" she asked cautiously.

"I don't know. Maybe with Beck."

"Beck?" she asked incredulously.

"We're not together. We used to be. But I don't know if that was love, or if I just liked that he knew how to handle me."

I had no idea why I was telling her something like that, or why I could talk to her so effortlessly. I'd never told anyone that before.

"Ah." She faltered again for a moment. "I think I'm in love." She looked at me cautiously, became visibly unsure, and started talking faster. "And I know that sounds completely weird because we barely know each other, but then why does it feel like I know you? I don't understand any of this, I know it sounds weird, but-"

"I get it," I interrupted her as she started to repeat herself. Which, admittedly, was pretty cute.

"What about you? What do you feel?"

"I'm not good with words.", I replied shortly tied. I looked down at our still disdainful hands.

Afterwards, I lifted my gaze again and looked into her eyes before carefully stepping closer to her. She bumped into the wall and looked at me as I took another step closer. And again, until we were pretty close.

"Is this okey for you?", I asked in a nervous whisper.

"Pretty okey.", she whispered back.

My free hand gently stroked her cheek before pulling her face towards me.

Gently, I placed my lips on hers.
She returned the kiss with the same gentleness, her hand had also found its way to my face, and I felt her brush a strand behind my ear.

I broke away from her and gently rested my forehead against hers.

"So what do we do now?" she breathed softly.

"Hmm. I think we'll start by going on a date. If that's what you'd like."

"Love to." she replied before lifting my face with one finger and kissing me again.

Update because it's literally insane that so many of you are still here. Like fr I'm thankful.

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