Cadet Naina Singh Ahluwalia's life is not same anymore....
With recent events and insights..... She is feeling opposite of what she was feeling few days back.....

She use to hate him... She use to resent him... She wanted to end his life......
But now it's getting difficult to have any negative feeling for him.
It's tough to hate him.
And she definitely wants to kill him no more.....in the contrary she is worried for his safety.

She wants him to keep breathing
And to progress
And be happy

And that's why she wants him to win the appraisal....
But he hasn't wrote his name yet on board.

And therefore she reach out to Ali to help her.....
And they get caught
And he looked more dangerous then major Nair...
Poor Ali got all the bashing
Captain shikhawat gave him left and right and didn't even looked at her....

And now there is only one way left.
She need to take the matter in her hand.
She will go and talk to him.... that's what pooja had suggested on first place...
As according to her "If he does something it's for naina.... If he doesn't ,the reason is still naina".....
Pooja had stated the fact so simply
A fact so complicated and fragile.

"I am sorry"
She murmured standing at his door as he was hitting the target with dart.
He pretended to ignore her while the fact was his heart race abnormally everytime she is around.

"I am sorry sir, I .... Really am"
She repeats again and this time he knew he has to say something

"Chalo kum se kum tumne mujhe sir kehna to shuru kiya."
Well he can be sarcastic too.

He said as he removed the dart from the board.

"Sir I know ke pichle kuch dino mein hamare bich differences rahe hain, aur main kafi battamizi se bhi pesh hai aapse."

"Ap academy kyon chhodana chahte Hain?
Academy se to mujhe nikal Jana chahie
Main hi aap ko kitne time se redbox ke liye bother kar rahi hun.
Captain Abhimanyu aur aapke bich mein jo differences hain I know unke liye main he responsible hun"

"Aap kyon appraisal main part nahin le rahe
Main chahti hun aap appraisal jeeten....
Aur ...
Ap to jante hain na ke maine ye academy kyun join ki thi....
Naveen bhaiyya ka khoya hua Gaurav lautane ke liye ...
Aur tab se main yahi kar rahi hun...."

"Just shut up......
Shut up"

She never saw the object which went flying towards the mirror.... Breaking it in pieces.

But she was definately taken back by his sudden rage.....
He is usually the calm and composed one.

She saw the broken mirror and then saw him again who was fuming in anger.

"Naveen Naveen Naveen
Band karo apne is Naveen ke rag ko....
Tum Naveen ki bat kar rahi ho ... Aree
Tum to Naveen ki behen kehlane ke bhi layak nahi ho"

He tried to be as mean as possible.....
He wants her to know that how hurt he is.

And it worked

As she was soon in pool of tears.

"Tum janti kitna ho Naveen ko
Tumhare liye wo sirf tumhara begunah bhai hai par mujh jaiso ke liye wo ek parampara hai"

He is standing close enough.

"Janti ho kaun si parampara
Apne usool apne adarsho apne desh ke liye jaan dedene ki parampara....

Kabhi samjha hai in baton ko
Koshish bhi ki hai"
He yelled again

And she is listening quietly.

"You are an emotional fool....
Ek ziddi behen ban ke reh gayi ho... Jo apne bhai ko nirdosh sabit karne ke liye kisi bhi had tak ja sakti hain."

He was so full of repressed anger and disappointment......
He had tried so hard to not loose his cool
But now the anger was unleashed and he can't help it but take it out all of it.

While she was comprehending all his words....

"Naveen was a great soldier
Wo apni akhri saans tak is desh ke liye jiya
Without thinking ke ye desh badle mein use kya dega.
He always choosed his country above everything else.....
Whereas you .....
Jab tumhe ye decision lena tha...
You choose your stupid revenge ...... Ek bar bhi nahi socha ke tumhare is ek harkat ki saza pure dekh ko mil sakti hai.
Tum kamzor ho naina......
Tum apne ap se zyada aur kuch nahi soch sakti......
Tum beshak ek bohot achchi behen ho par ek achchi sipahi nahi."

"Main apna ek dost kho chuka hun.....
Aur agar main yaha raha to shayad dusra bhi kho dun.....
Isiliye main kma se jana chahta hun
And it has nothing to do with you cadet singh.... You get that.

Har cheez tumhare bare mein nahi hoti hai.....
But you are so pre occupied with yourself ke tumhe dusro ki problems dusro ke perspective samajh hi nahi ate...."

She never realised that her face is wet with tears.
Every word he is saying is so true
And this sudden insight is so overwhelming......

She had no idea how wrong she was.

"You know what naina.....
You disappointed me..... And Naveen."

"Tum shayad kabhi wo sipahi nahi ban paogi jo main chahta tha .. jo Naveen chahta.
Kyunki tum mein himmat hi nahi hai
Apne maksad se pehle apne ap se pehle is desh ko rakhne ki....."

_________

She is awake from two nights.....
Sleep far away from those baren eyes.
His words ...... Sinking deep in her soul .

Making her realise the gravity of her actions,her decisions her beliefs.

From past few days she is feeling just one emotion so strongly
And that is guilt......

He is right
She is so selfish and self obsessed.....
You can't just do something wrong and get away with it ...
Don't you need a clear conscience to become a devoted soldier.

You can't just edit the definition of what is right and just with your own convenience.

She had jumped so fast to report Ali about shooting Rohit....
Then how come rules should be different for her.

Just like alekh has said

"Like how she got away after shooting captain
And how his mistakes are not forgiven"

The truth is that captain rajveer was always baised for her.....
All though he was not supposed to favour anyone in particular

she always manage to escape trouble under his shadow.
And yet
She didn't think twice before shooting him.

She almost compromised a national security mission..... For her own desperate urge to take revenge.
Which soldier does that

God knows what would have happened if huda hadn't showed up.

She is sitting on her bed introspecting all her life decisions and how to make amends.

What would have her bhaiyya would have done.....
What would rajveer sir would have done
Wait a minute
Doesn't she already have answer of that question.
He choose to confess
To admit .... No matter how relevant the reasons were as to why he did something
No matter what the consequences he had to face.

He still choose to come clear

Because that's the right thing to do.
There are always consequences of your actions.

And now she knows that what should be done.
She will prove it to him that she is as worthy as her brother....
That she is capable to become that soldier which he expects her to be.

Few shots
Written already
Gonna publish according to the response
Thanks for sticking with me