Time passes by like a blur. I continue walking, walking, and walking. Faces were a blur to me. Because I just continue walking, not paying attention. I was way too focused in one thing. So focused that I didn't notice those who were dear to me, I didn't notice their open arms offering me comfort. All I cared about is reaching you.

My surroundings is blurred. I couldn't see their beauty, I couldn't understand it. It annoys me. It distracted me. So I learned to ignore it. All that matters to me is achieving my goal.

But...no matter how hard I try. I can't blur out the voices. I can ignore it. But that won't make it disappear. They're still there. They continued to haunt me behind my back. Like little devils poking tiny needles into my back.

Silence. It comforts me. It allows me to think. It allows me to collect my thoughts.  It allowed me to focus on you.

But when I finally got you... you slipped away from my grasp. You passed through my fingers like air and water. Cold. That's what I felt. And then suddenly, I fell. I fell down. I looked back at you, all filled with light. So filled of light that I was blinded by it. The more I looked st you, the more blurry everything else is except you. Then I realized, I was fooled this whole time. Fooled by your almost perfect appearance. Blinded in envy.

I wanted to be you. Someone perfect. Someone that I desired to be. I was chasing after something unachievable.  I was so blinded that everything around me felt so unimportant. Blurred.

I fell. I continued to fall. Darkness enveloped me. Now that I know that you were unreachable and unattainable, I felt useless.

A soft push from my behind disturbed me from my thoughts. It was a small ball of light. Pushing me forcefully up. I finally looked behind me and I saw millions of  little balls of light. They all pushed me up. Their light was not blinding unlike yours. They were comforting, warm, and most of all they made the darkness disappear.

And for the first time in my life. I smiled genuinely. I could never be perfect like you. That is impossible. Because. I can only be perfect like me.