So instead of this being a regular Drabble type thing which it still is but it's just a series around Mira and I along with life in Plegia-Spam time
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"Milady? It's time for the crowning ceremony." Mira said as I panted from training instead of wearing full clothing I was now obligated to wearing just a skirt and wrappings it was almost iconic in a way..wrappings to cover the wounds inside and out.. "I'm not going." I said tightening the wrapping on my wrists and hands. Mira just sighed "You've been cutting again haven't you..?" "Yeah nothing to it...AGH!!" Mira harshly grabbed my wrist not caring about the blood that dripped onto his fingers through the wrappings. "You didn't bother cleaning the wounds either..?" He dragged me to the washroom tearing off the wrappings from my wrist and washing the cut marks with cold water, then cleansing them not caring if I winced and tried to pull away from him. "What the hell is wrong with you?! Leave me alone Mira!!!!!" "Do you think I want to carry in a lifeless body of my liege through the courtyard? My worst nightmare is of you dying someway, somehow..." "I told you Mira that my death doesn't matter!!!!!!!! No one in this world cares for me so why should I?! .....Why should I care for something that hurts you....?" I started crying "And where do you think I'd be right now if I didn't care?" Mira took out a handkerchief  and had wiped away the tears "I don't know..." I said quietly "No one does...I chose to become your retainer because I knew you would be a strong queen and that I would be here. No matter what the world does to you I'm here..." I sighed quietly and spoke "I'm tired Mira..." "Then I shall draw a bath and prepare-" "No..not physically. Emotionally drained....I couldn't cry right now if I could but do you know how it feels to be hurt so bad you couldn't cry over it..?" "Yes, I know it all too well..ill postpone the ceremony and we shall crown you tomorrow." "Fine..if I'm already being called a monster before I sit on the throne then a monster I shall be.."