Chapter Ten.

JUSTIN:

            The night of the party I couldn't focus on having fun. I was seated in the corner of our living room on the disgusting leather couch contemplating every damn thing about us. Should I go back? Should I walk over to her and just make out with her? Just jump right into it?

            The thought has been driving me crazy. But that's the worst part about life. You never know what can happen or the what if. If I were to go back with Reina it could end perfectly. We could be happier than ever. Or, it could end horribly. I'd get back with her and make assumptions and then we'd be right back to where we started. I just can't take that damn chance but look at her. Fuck.

            She looked so good. I mean really good. That little black dress wrapped so tightly around her body I almost stopped breathing. She wore it for me. I know she wore it for me because even though we haven't spoken, she'd ever so often glance over to where I was sitting. Then she'd mess with her hair or look at me all seductive to try and get me horny. It was working.

             Trying to keep my mind off of her, I took a sip of beer but immediately set the cup back down. If I got drunk, It'd be like the last time. I would yell at her and we'd fight and I didn't want that. What I wanted was to text her again but I still didn't get the balls up to do that. After our conversation a week ago after hockey, I never once sent a text out. Why? Because I'm an idiot.

            I watched a guy walk up to Reina and at first, my instinct was to immediately go over there and tell him to fuck off. She had a red cup in one hand and as he said something to her, she laughed and shrugged her shoulders. What the hell did he ask her? What was he saying? Oh my god this is the shit I'm talking about. I can't stand to see her with someone else.

            When his hand went around her lower back, she moved away. Even though she moved away I still couldn't watch any longer. I was on my feet and I went out into the backyard to get away from the music and to get away from that asshole that was all over her.

            In our backyard we had this huge tree that everyone loved to climb. A couple years ago, Scott tried to climb up to the highest branch and he fell, breaking his arm. It wasn't funny at the time but now we laugh about it. As I sat down onto the grass so I could lean up against it, I remembered when Reina and I laughed about that too.

            I want her in my life. I decided that the night of the hockey game. I want her to be in my life but the problem is that I don't know how I want her to be in my life. How do I keep her in my life and not touch her? And not flirt with her? Eventually I want to get to that point again but she's going to have to understand that I need some time. I can't just jump right into things again.

            The patio door opened and Reina exited with an empty beer bottle in her hand, glancing at me quickly but staring down at her feet as soon as it happened. She was out here to throw her empty bottle away in the trash bin. Not to see me.

            "Hey." I said softly, causing her to jump. "Come sit?"

            She thought I was joking. Her face had a look of disbelief on it but I patted my hand on the ground to let her know that I was serious.

            "I'm not going to be mean." I reassured. "I promise."

            Taking off her heels, she held them in her fingertips and walked on the grass to where I was, sitting down beside me so her back was against the tree as well. Now that her leg was almost touching mine I didn't know what to say. Even though I didn't know what to say I still felt better, though. I always felt better when she was next to me.

            "Reina I'm sorry." I said quietly. "For all of this shit I've been putting you through. I know it doesn't mean much but I'm sorry."

            Turning her head so she was looking at me, I looked at her and when our eyes locked I got short of breath like I always did. That sexual tension that was still there. I could feel it like no tomorrow.

            "It means more to me than you think. I'm just confused Justin. Really confused."

            "Reina I don't even understand what's going on myself and that's what you don't get. I'm trying to figure everything out but it's taking time. I just needed to sort everything out and now I think it kind of is. I don't know yet but I think so."

            "What did you need to sort out?"

            "Us..." I trailed off, letting out a loud sigh. "You and me. Where I want us to be... what we're going to be."

            "Going to be..." She said, a little smile coming onto her face. "Yeah?"

            "Yeah." I smiled back, nudging her with my shoulder. "I want to be friends though for right now. Okay? I hope that's cool with you."

            "That's cool with me. Whatever you need Justin, really. I just want to be there for you."

            Moving her fingertips down to the hemline of her dress, she started to twirl it as I rested my head against the tree and looked at her, which caused her to blush. I loved to look at her.

            "I was starting to think you hated me." She giggled softly, finally placing her hands into her lap. "It scared the shit out of me."

            There was this piece of strand in her hair that kept blowing in the wind and it was blocking her eye. For a second I debated on whether or not to fix it but I did, tucking the lock behind her ear.

            "I could never hate you." I whispered, brushing my thumb against her cheek. "You know that Reina."

            "Fuck man!" A random drunk guy laughed, opening up the door to the patio. "Hold on a second!"

            Reina cleared her throat and moved away from my touch. I always get so caught up in the moment with her but it's not my fault. I loved her so damn much and she needed to know that I didn't hate her. I wasn't annoyed with her either. She needed to know that so when a guy tried to hit on her, I was still in the back of her mind.

            "Let's get back to the party." I said, helping her up from the ground.

            "Just to clarify something... this means I can't flirt with you right? Like I can't say anything to you at all?"

            "I don't know. Why?"

            "Just wondering."

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            "Justin!" Scott laughed, steadying me over to the staircase. "Easy man. Shit you're wasted."

            I started to laugh too, and instead of going up the stairs I just sat down on the bottom step, lying my back across the wooden area where there was more space. I'd just sleep here for tonight. My head killed, I couldn't even feel my body, and I was so happy it wasn't even funny. I haven't been this happy in God knows how long.

            "I'm j-just uh... gonna... sleep. I'm gonna sleep here."

            "Everyone else left." Colby chuckled when he saw me. "It's like three in the morning. Go upstairs."

            "Just let me sleep here!" I slurred, closing my eyes. "Please."

            Mark was carrying a garbage bag and picking up bottles and cups that were all over the place, kicking me to the side so he could grab a cup that was on the last step. I was so wasted. My mind wasn't even thinking straight.

            "If you can't go upstairs then at least sleep on the couch. Don't throw up in the living room though. I swear."

            "Scott he can't. Reina's in the-"

            I perked my head up at the mention of her name and sent a cheesy grin to Casey, who just rolled her eyes but couldn't help but laugh. My smile was contagious and she knew it.

            "Well that s-sounds like fun." I slurred, standing to my feet as Scott's hands helped me up. "To the living room I go!"

            "Oh my god." She groaned. "Drunk people."

            "I got it." I chuckled, shaking him off of me. "I don't want you going in there with me."

            Grabbing onto the wall for balance, Scott just muttered something I couldn't understand as I entered into the living room. Reina was sound asleep on the long couch, her body curled up into a little ball with her arms wrapped around herself. She looked so cute. So innocent...

            "Hey." I laughed, sinking to my knees next to the couch. "R-Reina. Hey."

            Her body stirred until she finally squinted her eyes open to look at me, immediately sitting up. She wasn't drunk. But holy shit I was.

            "Hey." She smiled. "Little too much to drink?"

            "Maybe..."

            I could tell she was trying not to touch me or help me, which bothered me. In this moment I wanted her to touch me or at least do something but I told her that we were friends and that's what I wanted to be. Nothing more.

            "Go back to bed." I smirked, lying down onto the floor next to the couch. "Sorry for... waking you up."

            I heard her laugh before she just rolled her eyes and laid back down onto the couch, neither of us saying another word for the rest of the night.

A/N: AHAHAHAHHA YOU GUYS THOUGHT I'D BE BASIC AF AND HAVE THEM KISS BECAUSE HE'S DRUNK. THINK AGAIN EVERYONE.

This is not the average story lmaooo none of my books are. But yeah just wanted to tease y'all a little bit with that scene :p. 

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