Chapter Two. 

REINA:

            I’m so tired. The alarm clock has been going off for a straight ten minutes now but not an ounce of my body felt like moving. What I felt like doing was stay in bed forever and just skip the first day of classes. All they ever do anyways is just go over the syllabus. I was actually starting to be content with skipping until the door opened and Casey stepped in with a towel around her body.

            “Oh my god!” She shrieked, hitting me softly on the ass. “Reina get up! You’re going to be late!”

            “Mmm.” I groaned. “I’m just going to miss today.”

            “This is probably the easiest day to go. Save an absence for a shitty day Reina, seriously.”

            When the light turned on I gave her an evil death stare and sat up groggily, my bed hair all over the place as I tried to adjust my eyes to the light. I am so not in the mood for this today.

            “Stupid school.” I muttered. “What time did you end up getting home last night?”

            “Like one I think. Scott made me watch this stupid movie that wasn’t even funny. It was a waste of time but it made him happy so whatever.”

            Finally deciding on a pair of jeans and a pink sweater, I began to undress and didn’t even care if Casey saw. By now we’ve seen every body part of each other’s.

            “Well I think it was nice of you.” I smirked. “It’s such a cute way to treat your fiancé.”

            “Yeah yeah yeah. Not when I have to get up at seven in the morning.”

            She was looking at herself over in the mirror when I put on my high-heeled boots. It amazed me how quickly I was able to get ready and just as I put my toothbrush in my mouth she cleared her throat and set her brush down onto the counter.

            “So I don’t know if you know this but Justin’s back.”

            “Hm?” I asked with a mouthful of toothpaste. “So soon?”

            “Yeah. He’s back for school and he uh; he gave me a bag of stuff to give to you. I’m not really sure if you want to go through it but I put it under your bed.”

            I tore my gaze away from the mirror and looked back at my bed for a second.

            “Maybe later.” I said quickly. “I’ve gotta get to class.”

            “Reina I know you don’t want to talk about it because you haven’t since it happened but you can’t keep doing this. Keeping your feelings bottled up doesn’t do anything.”

            I was running around like a maniac until I finally found my backpack, slinging it over my shoulder before I gave her a cheesy grin.

            “Hurry!” I laughed. “You’ve got a class to make too!”

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            This semester was a lot different than the last one. My classes were so confusing to find and it turns out the one I was running late for was on the complete other side of campus. It doesn’t surprise me because that’s my luck.

            Quickening the speed of my walk, I began to go through the grass so I could take a short cut and tried to focus on anything other than what Casey had told me but I couldn’t. I can’t believe he’s back here in Toronto. I wonder how he liked rehab or if it even did him any good. I honestly hope it did despite the rude things he said to me before I left that night.

            The more time I spent away from him the more I thought about him it seemed like. It’s been almost a year since I’ve spoken to him or the guys and yeah, it killed me, but it needed to happen. I think a part of me will always love Justin but as of now it’s not exactly up to me whether or not we’re friends again. He’s in control of himself now so only he can make those decisions.

            “Excuse me.” I asked a random girl who walked by me. “Where is room 154?”

            She pointed to the red brick building directly in front of me with an annoyed glance.

            “Right.” I muttered. “Thanks.”

            Running my fingertips against the brick, I stopped once I reached the correct room and quietly opened the door. Unfortunately for me I had missed roll so I was officially tardy. Damn my habit of oversleeping.

            “Tardy slip.” The professor said with a disapproving look. “Name please?”

            “Um, Reina.” I responded shyly, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. “Reina Waters.”

            A couple heads turned to look at me as I tried to find a seat but I ignored them. It was always awkward entering into a class that already started because it’s like you’re some foreign alien that just started walking the earth for the first time.

            Stopping at the last row, I started to sit down until I made eye contact with the boy that’s been on my mind for the past year almost. The one that wouldn’t ever leave my memory it seemed like.

            He looked so different. His hair was so much longer and his eyes were a lighter brown. He looked happy if that made any sense and it was like I was frozen as a statue right now, his eyes never leaving mine. A pencil was casually strumming across his bottom lip and when I was about to leave the room the professor cleared her throat, staring directly at me.

            “Ms. Waters.” She repeated. “Take your seat please.”

            “Right. Uh, sorry. Yeah.”

            Turning in the opposite direction, I went to the other side of the room and sat as far away from him as possible. He didn’t seem too irritated with me but then again, that could just be my imagination. Too many memories were running through my mind right now. Like in Psychology when he would twirl my hair around a pencil or kick me in the ass to get me to laugh. Those days were gone and now it’s just going to be like this. The awkward silence because everything between us was ruined.

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JUSTIN: 

            Reina looked different. Her hair got so much longer and as I continued to stare at her, I think she could tell because occasionally she’d look behind herself at me and I’d look back down to my paper. What are the odds that we get placed in the same class again? It should bother me and I should be upset but the most amazing thing about this is that I’m not. I’m actually okay with her being in my class because Reina is just a girl that had an effect on me. She wasn’t as big as I made her out to be. At least I don’t think.

            Counseling just helped me realize that I don’t need someone else to be happy. I can be happy by myself and if I want to be even happier, then I can add someone else into the mix. Relationships aren’t really calling my name at the moment because after what happened with her, I’m not ready to jump into one again. I just want to have fun like I used to and not get so attached to someone.

            Don’t get me wrong, seeing her makes me miss her. I do miss our relationship and the good times but when I think about all of the bad times I just stop thinking about the memories. I don’t ever want to go back to that night. When she ended things with me I have never in my life been so broken so I guess I’ve partly hidden those feelings of hurt somewhere inside myself. I don’t know where the hell they are but they’re gone because I’m not upset. I’m just sitting in class and taking notes.

            When class was over, I didn’t stop and talk to her. The counselor was in my mind and I just had to remind myself that I needed to stay away from her. Having Reina back in my life just might make me relapse again and I’ve come way too far for that to happen.

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REINA:            

            When I got back to the dorm I was in tears. Casey thankfully hadn’t gotten back from class yet so as soon as the door shut I was pulling open the bag he had given her, only to cry harder when I saw what was inside.

            Pictures from us last year in Vegas. The picture I took of him in the tub and the picture he took of me. Even though I promised to never show it to anyone I still printed them off and he wanted to keep them so I let him. My sweaters that I forgot I left there landed into my lap and there were sweaters of his that I had missed so much. I used to wear these all the time and they smelled exactly like him. These sweaters seemed to be the only things that haven’t changed.

            “God, I miss you.” I whispered into the empty room.

            He didn’t seem to care that I was in the same class. In fact, he didn’t even give me a second thought. Did he forget that we dated? Did he forget that I was the only one he’s ever fallen in love with and did he forget that I even existed? Nothing hurt more than the silence I experienced today.

            Was he upset with me? He didn’t seem like it. I mean, I stopped talking to him after that night but it’s because I wanted the best for him. But maybe in rehab he found out I wasn’t the best for him. Maybe in rehab he discovered that having me in his life was toxic, just like I predicted from the beginning. All I ever am is toxic.

            The door opened and Casey paused by the door. All I could do was quickly wipe the remainder of my tears away and begin to stuff everything back into the garbage bag. I looked like a fool crying over something that’s over and done with but I can’t help it. I will always love him and I’m lying to myself if I say that I don’t still care.

            “You okay?” She asked.

            “Yeah. It was just harder than I thought it was going to be. I um, went to my English class and Justin’s in it.”

            “You’re joking.”

            “Nope. He’s in my English class and he didn’t even say anything to me. I mean, he looked at me a couple of times, but that was it. He didn’t even talk to me after class ended. God, it was so weird Case.”

            “Well he looks better doesn’t he? When I saw him last night he seemed a lot healthier.”

            “Yeah. He seems to be doing really well and I’m happy for him. I just miss him is all…”

            “You just have to give him time Reina. I’m sure by the end of the semester you guys will at least be friends again.”

            “But I don’t want to be just friends Casey. I want us to go back to how we were.”

            “And right now that isn’t exactly possible. He’s still recovering even though he’s out of rehab. He needs to do this himself and maybe you can just be there as a friend for him, you know? Be there as a support system for him for now.”

            “I don’t even know if he wants that.” I said. “He didn’t want anything to do with me in class today.”

            My eyes followed her as she picked up her purse and slung it around her shoulder before she headed into the bathroom to touch up her make-up.

            “Where are you going?” I asked.

            “Where do you think?”

            A smile came on her face and that’s when I knew she was going to the frat house. I used to look like that when I went to go see Justin and just the thought of him being over there right now killed me. Just the fact that I wasn’t there and he was is bothering me to no end and I want to take Casey’s advice. Maybe just being friends with him will be a good thing. Just to be there for him and to be a support system couldn’t hurt. In my eyes, being friends with him is better than being nothing at all.

            “Wait.” I said quickly, rising from the bed. “I’m going too.”

            She paused what she was doing and looked at me in the mirror.

            “You’re going?” She asked. “Reina are you sure that’s a-“

            “I’m going.” I repeated. “Just let me get ready first.” 

a/n:

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