I cant understand

cant find a reason to exist

when in this world

all these people suffer

i dont lift a finger

I just cry for myself

because I know she will never truly love me

because I know that people hate me for myself

I know that I suck

dont eben have to say

those words

they spin around my brain 

every second of the day

I wish i didnt live

too scared to try

for a third time