Chah kar bhi mein tumse door kyun nahin reh pati?

Shayad mera dil tumhe pukarta hai...

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As he drove towards the place which she narrated him his anger rose his nostrils flared.

How dare she do this to him?

How dare she worry him?

Didn't she know how much he would panic when he won't find her anywhere in the office?

He was going mad with the killing thoughts of something happening to her and there she has gone to some fucking park for the sake of some fucking alone time.

He almost had a heart attack thinking she might have left him and she..

He punched his fist against the steering wheel speeding the car.

He do remember how he was going to run out of his office to search her when he thought to dial her number again just in case she had switched on her phone and to his luck she had.

She answered on the third ring bringing his heartbeat to normal as he heard her breathing on the other side of the phone.

Before she could say something he had blasted.

"What the hell Khushi? Where are you? And why the fuck was your phone off? Couldn't you atleast inform me before stepping out of the office?"

"I will be back soon.I just need some time ALONE." She had replied ignoring all his queries.

"Alone?"

Without me?

His blood boiled.

"Listen to me very carefully Khushi Singh Raizada. Just tell me wherever you are and don't you dare argue with me on this.You do know i can track you down in freaking minutes.Trust me you will regret if i reached you by myself."

"I am outside the park..close..to L..Laxmi..N..nagar"

She had cut the call immediately because she knew he would be angry and she was absolutely right.

He was more than JUST angry!

When he reached there it was midnight and the street outside the park was deserted.

He saw her sitting on a wooden bench.Her cell phone was clutched tightly in both her hands.Her eyes were staring ahead with sadness and wistfulness.

He took his fill of her, assured his heart and mind that she was there before him.

That She hasn't left as he had dreaded.

That she was still within his reach, too far but there in front him!

When the relief subsided anger took over.

He strode towards her and barked at her pulling her up to face him.

"What the hell Khushi? Couldn't you just inform me before leaving the office?"

"I told you I needed some time alone." She answered dazed looking over his shoulder.

Not at him

"But you were alone in the cabin as well dammit!" He said pissed.

"There was anything but loneliness" The words burst out of her.

"What do you mean by that dammit?"

"Hamara dum ghut raha tha wahan..Hum saans nahi le pa rhe the..(I was suffocating there.I couldn't breath.)" She yelled biting back a sob breathing unevenly and he panicked seeing her actually struggling to breath.

"Hum abhi bhi nahi le paa rahe hain(I can't breath even out here.)" She choked.

"I don't know what to do to get out of these feelings that are choking me" The words came out as a wince from her mouth.

"Khushi.." He cupped her cheeks making her look up.

Her broken demeanor and pain in her eyes were his undoing.He felt his own eyes prick.

"Hum thak gaye hain...Humse aur sehen nahi hota..Aik, aik kar k apne humse hamara sab kuch cheen liya..hamara pyaar... Hamare Arnavji...Hamari Amma, Hamari jiji, Hamara mayika..aur ab hamara sasural bhi...Hum bilkul toot chuke hain Arnavji...Ab hum mai aur kuch sehne ki himmat nahi hai (I am tired.I can't bear this anymore.One by one you have snatched everything from me.Either its My love or my Arnavji.Whether it was my Amma or my jiji.You didn't let me be with my maternal relations either and now my in laws, you took them away too.I am already in tatters.I won't be able to tolerate anything anymore.)" She sobbed covering her mouth with her palms.

He blinked furiously to prevent the tears from spilling out.

Her pain was so tangible that it pierced his heart.

It's all because of him.

Why can't he just love her freely?

Why can't he give her happiness instead of pain?

Why can't he be the reason of her smile instead of tears?

Why?

Why?

Because she is the daughter of Garima Gupta!

The answer came in the form of a name of that woman and that made him loath HER some more for being the reason of the state he was in right now with his Khushi!

Putting the blame on other is too easy isn't it?

A voice mocked him from inside.

He slid his both hands around her shoulders and pressed her head to his chest close to his heart and let her cry as much she she wants to because that's the only thing which he could give her at that moment.

Just that nothing else!

He rubbed her back to ease off the choke in her chest.

When he felt her sobs has subsided and her breathing became normal he pulled back.Cupping her cheeks, he wiped off the tear stains with the pad of his thumbs making her eyes widen.

She stared at him shocked as if she just registered his presence.

Then what she did next made him clench his fists so hard that his knuckles turned white.

She pushed him away.

Just like that the spell of the moment was broken.

Moments like some other when they let their guards down.

Moments when there were no dark shades of past lurking behind.

Moments when they were just Arnav and Khushi not the two souls who were poles apart yet connected to some strange emotions.

Moments when nothing mattered except their love.

Moments when they could be like any other couple who are hopelessly in love with each other who could share their sorrows and joys without hesitation.

But Alas!

Neither were they just any other normal couple nor were they just Arnav and Khushi.

"Stay away from me.Ye sab apki wajah se hua hai(All this is happening because of you!)"She hissed angrily.

His temper rose.

With clenched jaws he took a step towards her with anger emanating from him.

How dare she push him?!

Only he has the right to decide whether they should stay close or apart.

Period!

"Meri wajah se nahi.Tumhari Amma ki wajah se.Uss ghatiya aurat..(Not me.It's all because of your mother.That shameless woman..)" he couldn't complete as his head fell to one side due to the impact of her hand on his cheek.

"Humari amma k bare mai aik aur shabd nahi..(Not a word more against my mother)"She gritted out sternly.

She..slapped him?

Him?

For that woman?!

Every nerve in his body throbbed with anger so much that he harshly pulled her to him through her nape so hard that she cried out in pain.

She squirmed in his arms but he was too strong for her.

"Bolun ga.Uss aurat k khilaf jo bhi bolna chahon ga bolun ga aur tum mujhe rok nahi sakti!(I WILL.I will speak against that woman whatever I want to and you can't stop me because I won't let you!)"

She tried to turn her face but he didn't let her do that either.

Instead he pressed her nape a bit more causing her face to tilt more closer to him till their lips were almost touching.

She hissed in pain at his painful grip.

"Humein apse koi bat nahi karni hai.(I don't want to talk to you.)" she breathed out the words on his face.She knew arguing with him will only mean more hurtful words exchange.

"But muje karni hai...(But i want to..)" He said sternly pressing her too close to him until her feet left the ground and rested on his.

"Humein apki koi bat nahi sunani. Chodiye humein!(I don't want to listen anything.Let me go!)"

"I wasn't asking Khushi.You can't deny me.You don't have a choice."

She chuckled mirthlessly.

"Choice huh? When have you given me one?" She couldn't hold back the sarcasm in her tone.

He closed his eyes to control his anger because her words were just fueling it.

"Shut up Khushi Singh Raizada and listen to me" He pressed her waist.

"Sss" She cried out.

"From tomorrow onward whenever you will go outside you'll go with ME. You won't ever step out without informing me. And one more thing, don't you ever switch off your phone.Did you hear me well and good?"

"NO!!" She growled, her face has turned red due tot he restraint she had to put up due to his rough hold.

"I WON'T LISTEN TO ANYTHING YOU SAY. Put me down!" She punched his shoulders handing vertically in his arms.

"You won't?"

She glared at him with her red eyes full of tears before she let her head fall on his shoulders and sobbed.

"It is hurting Arnavji. Put me down!" She mumbled against his neck.

"Agree to whatever I said and I will." She heard him whisper in her ears without loosing his dead grip on her.

She gritted her teeth.

"YOU ARE NOT MY ARNAVJI ANYMORE. I won't do anything as you said. Not anymore." She pulled back to spat the words on his face.

"Fine then!" He smirked loosening his grip around her before putting her down.

She breathed hard before wiping her face with the back of her hands when his next words stumped her.

"Tomorrow first thing in the morning I'll send a notice to Guptas to vacate the Gupta house within two hours."

Her eyes widened.

"Or better I'll get a court notice and send police there so that they would throw them along with their luggage out of MY property.What say?" He raised his eyebrow.

"You can't do that." Her already swollen eyes filled up again tugging at his heartstrings but he can't let his mask slip away .. not yet.

He needed to assure himself she would never leave him or worry him like she did today.

For that if he had to blackmail her again and again then so be it.

He would do it even if it ripped him along with her.

Clenching his hands he replied with a composed tone devoid of the turmoil he was going inside.

"Are you challenging me Mrs.Raizada? Don't you remember Khushi? Mai kabhi challenge nahi haarta.(I have never ever lost any challenge)" He swallowed seeing a tear rolling down her cheek.

Ironic wasn't it?

Just few minutes ago he was the one wiping her tears and now only he was the reason behind them.

Again!

Her shoulders slumped.

She can't be stubborn when the matter was of her family and he knew that.

Gulping down the saliva she swallowed her self-respect.

"F-Fine. I will do as you said. Just don't trouble my family." Her voice quivered.

She wiped her face with the back of her palm as silent tears rolled down her cheeks.

He en-clasped her hand in his now relieved as she agreed not to do anything like this again.

"Good.Now come." He tugged at her hand pulling her to his car.

"We are going to our new home today where there will be just you and me Mrs.Raizada" He said and stopped when he looked at her face contorted in pain.

He knew his grip must be too painful for her and her back must be paining.

Taking a deep breath, he took her elbow and turned her to face him.

"What now?" She gritted.

"Hug me!" He demanded.

"Huh? What?"

"Just do as I said!"

She clenched her jaws in frustration.

"Khushi!" He ground his teeth.

"HUG.ME!" He repeated more firmly.

"No.I won't." She glared at him.

"You want to piss me off all over again huh Khushi Singh Raizada?" He raised his eyebrow challenging her to defy him and he will make her pay for it.Not just her but her family too.

She got the hint clearly by his stance.

Blinking back the tears she wrapped her arms around his waist before resting her head on his chest feeling her insides churning.The moment was so heartrendingly painful that it pierced her as she heard his thudding heartbeats reminding her that this man do have a heart.

Still have it?

Snaking his arms around her , Arnav did for what he has asked her to hug him.

He rubbed her back where he knew his hold earlier was too tight that must have left a few marks there.

He do remember the night when they had made love for the first time.

After their passionate session, her skin has turned red wherever he has pressed her in the throes of passion and later when he has saw her body, he has stared at her guiltily to which she has only blushed hiding her face in his chest.Apologizing to her he has massaged her skin to reduce the swelling to which her whole body has turned red but due to blush that time.Now remembering all that just pierce his heart.

Khushi gasped when she felt his hand moving in through the slit of her shirt.

"What are you doing?" She wriggled.

"Not a word from your mouth. Stand still." He whispered against her ear harshly.

"Don't touch me." She struggled against him when she felt his hand massaging her back making her wince over the tender parts where she knew his hold has left the marks.

"You are in no position to question me Mrs.Raizada.I said shut up so just zip your mouth!"He backed her softly against the car's door.

"You don't have the rights." She shuddered feeling his fingers rubbing soothing circles over her lower back.

"Oh I have all of them and much more on you Mrs.Raizada." His cool stance didn't waver. Infact he didn't even move an inch whilst his face remained buried in her hairs as he closed his eyes reveling in the moment.

"Stop it. We are on a road." She whisper yelled against his chest.

"Oh that means I am allowed to touch you when we will be home?"

She clenched her jaws.

"Don't try to be smart with me." She hissed.

"I don't have to try. I know I am smart and...cool and...hot" His eyes fell on the smooth skin of her neck and he had the sudden urge to bite it.

She chose not to reply as he would stay arrogant no matter what.

"Have some shame. We are in public." She tried to push him.

"Come on Mrs.Raizada. Its 3am right now. Can you see even a living soul at this road?" He said in a dazed tone eyeing her neck hungrily.It has been two long, long months since he touched her...loved her intimately. He gulped longingly.

His heart thudded violently in his rib cage which even Khushi felt with her cheek pressed against his chest.

"Fuck the control!" She heard him say before she felt his teeth sinking in the slope of her neck creating goosebumps all over her skin from head to toe.

"Sss" She clutched his shirt and then moaned when he licked the spot.

His hand inside her shirt at her lower back was trailing down more until she felt it about to slip in her salwar electrocuting her and it jolted her back from the trance.

She pushed him away with as much force she could muster and stared at him furiously.

He clenched his hands.

"Don't you dare. Don't you dare think that I will allow you to play with me.Like that!" She sobbed out the words.

"You want to keep hurting me, keep torturing me. Fine. I am tolerating all that because of my family. Otherwise I wouldn't have seen your face ever after that night when you belittled me and our love in front of everyone just for your so called revenge. But let me clear one thing Mr.Arnav Singh Raizada!"

She stepped closer to him.

"Whatever happened that night between us. The love, the passion.." She swallowed, he did too with misty eyes remembering the most beautiful night of their togetherness.

"...that will NEVER ever happen again. I won't let you snatch the little bit self-respect I have left within me. I gave myself to you that night because I loved you.Now I don't. I hate you. I told you so.So STAY AWAY FROM ME!" She spat the words on his face before stepping back and sat in the passenger seat without sparing him another glance.

He kept gazing at her shivering form inside the car standing at her side of the door before he went around the car and sat on the driving seat igniting the engine started driving without another word despite of the lava erupting within him.

When she wasn't talking to him, he wanted her to talk with him even if it meant fighting with him.

Now, when she had fought with him.Finally!

He wants to be close to her, too close even if it proves him selfish.

In his 28 years of life, he has always been selfless when it comes to the women he has adored and cherished.That includes his mother and his Di.

But when it comes to woman sitting besides him, his wife he has always been too mean and selfish even though he can't imagine his life without her, he refused to be considerate towards her.

He refused to give anything to her yet he wanted everything from her.

Including her dedication!

"Akash?!"Payal gasped.

"What do you mean?" She asked apprehensively.

"You heard me Payal.I am going to dig in the past of Arvind Malik and Garima Gupta.I want to know the whole thing.Everything.Maybe we find something which turn out beneficial for us.There are too many loopholes if I look at it from my point of view." Akash said thoughtfully.

"But what if we didn't find anything.Then?"

"We can hope atleast.We all know the past of Bhai and Di's by their or Dadi's point of views but what if there is some other version of that story?What if we found something that could pull Bhai and all of us out of this dense, complicated mess?" The desperation in his tone was clearly visible.

Payal placed a hand on his shoulder.

"Akash?" She said in a soothing tone seeing his eyes welling up.

Akash looked at her with tears in his eyes.Removing his spectacles he spoke pinching the bridge of his nose in agitation.

"He broke all the ties with me and...you.He assigned me another office today.He didn't even come back from office to bid goodbye to anyone let alone me." He breathed.

"Aman told me that he just went straight to the other mansion.I just didn't know this day will come when Bhai will be this distant to us.He never spoke much but he was always close by as my elder brother.Today I have lost him and I don't know what to do anymore without him." With that he broke down in his wife's arms who cried along with him.

"He took Khushi ji with him Payal. When they were here, we all were here to save her if he went overboard with her.Now who will save her from him?"

Anjali and Nani who came to talk to them stood at the door as they heard everything Akash said.

Anjali escorted Nani out before the couple could hear Nani's or her own sobs.

Things are taking ugly turns and none of them knew how to untangle themselves out of the catastrophe that has landed on them.

"Welcome to our new home Mrs.Raizada" He said pushing open the door and turned his head to her who didn't bother paying attention to any of the setting of the huge mansion.

Instead she just ignored him and his expectant face and was about to head in when she felt herself being lifted off the ground.

"Raizadas tradition!" He muttered walking inside the doors with her in his arms.

"Put me down!" She yelled and her voice boomed around in the otherwise silent living room.

She wasn't out of the incident that transpired between them in the middle of the road.

How dare he touch her at every opportunity when he made her feel so low of herself about that one night she surrendered to him the whole of her and he threw it back on her face?

How dare he still have the audacity to think of even getting intimate with her after all that?!

"Fine!" He said and dropped her on the couch rather rudely.

Sitting besides her he released a breath as if to cool his temper before he turned to her who was sitting with her arms crossed against her chest, head facing the other side.

"What are you staring at? Its 4am now and I am hungry."

"Serves you right!" She commented swallowing past a lump as her heart protested.

She wanted to shout that she hasn't eaten either but she stopped herself as she haven't forgotten how much he has made her eat in the breakfast just this morning.

"Listen Mrs.Raizada. I haven't had anything after lunch just because of you.Now you will go there in the kitchen and make all of my favorite dishes and serve them to me." He ordered not so kindly.

"I am not your servant. Go and find one to cook for you!" She stood up only to be pulled back to him and that landed her on his lap.

Her eyes widened. She tried to get off only to have his arms come around her to hinder her.

"Do I have to remind you all the time that I am your husband Mrs.Raizada and you have some responsibility towards me? One of that is to look after me and keep me well fed!"

"Look who is talking. The man who didn't fulfill any of his responsibilities even as a so called husband.Huh!" She knew how to unnerve him.

"And let me remind you. Wasn't it you who didn't want me to do anything for you?"

"I did. Now I changed my mind. From right this moment, you will be taking care of my every need!"

He eyed her lips as he said need.

"Don't even think about it!" She growled.

"Who can stop me? You?" He scoffed.

"Get this straight in your head Mr.Raizada. That one night is never coming back in your life. I will make sure of it."

"Are you challenging me?"

"Take it the way you like."

"Okay.Fine." He buried his head in her neck despite her protests.

"I will not eat anything until you won't make the food with your own hands. Don't cry later on if I fainted due to low sugar.Fainted or...died."He whispered the last three words in her ears chilling her insides.

The breaths hitched in her throat.

How can she forget he has diabetes?

He shouldn't stay empty stomach for too long or he would faint or d..

She closed her eyes shaking her head.

With everything happening around lately, it shouldn't be a surprise that it skipped her mind.

Why was she feeling guilty about it?

When she tried to get up this time, he let her as he has seen the look on her face.

He won this argument too.

"Show me the way to the kitchen!" She said looking in his eyes.

"Sure!"

After two hours, she served him food which could be called a breakfast as the clock showed 6am.

She ate with him silently when he ordered her like always.She was too tired to argue further so she relented and finished it quickly while he was eating like a snail.

She yawned sitting besides him as per his order that she have to sit with him to give him company until he finishes.

He was eating his favorite dishes one by one while she felt her eyelids drooping until she couldn't keep them open anymore.The tiredness finally took its toll on her as her head fell on the table with a soft thud and she slept making him smirk as he washed down his medicines.

He has deliberately asked her to cook for him because if they had gone to bed right after coming here then she wouldn't have been able to sleep owing to the fight they had recently when he blackmailed her again, tried to get intimate with her and not only that, he refused to soften up.

Again, she should have been well slept and well rested for his own selfish reasons!

"Here comes our bedroom." He whispered to himself entering in the spacious master bedroom with the sleeping Khushi in his arms.

Lowering her on the bed he gazed at her sleeping form before tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

"The more you will fight, the more difficult it will become for you Mrs.Raizada."

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Precap:

"You should be happy Mrs.Raizada. After all you've got what your so-called mother can't get even when she tried so hard."

"You didn't mean that.Did you?"

Please deny it.

Please.

Her heart screamed.

"Of course I did.Who knows maybe your mother knew all this who i was huh.She may have planned all our meetings so that she could achieve her goal through you which she couldn't years ago.Oh yeah! She must've did all that.I was a fool to fall into her trap.That's just not happening again Mrs.Raizada.I am not going to fall into her lies and web of deceit ever again!"He finished in a breath and clenched his hands to stop himself from reaching out to her as she looked devastated.

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