Ezra's POV

Ever since we came home from Malacore, (sorry if it's not spelled right) Kanan hasn't been himself. But I mean who can blame him. He lost his vision, his sight, way to see. Also, Ahsoka, they had just started becoming friends and now she's gone. We've been searching for her, but there was no such luck.

I am sad, yes, but I'm doing my best to push through it. I don't want anyone to see that I'm broken. The flight home wasn't the best. I cried and hugged Kanan. I don't think he minded though. I didn't hear him cry, but I think I felt a single tear fall on my shoulder. Can Kanan even cry anymore?

I hate seeing him like this. Everyone does, he's so reserved, never really comes out of his room. I want to help him, but how? We all do.

I slowly crawl out of my bed, and tip toe out of the room, careful not to wake Zeb. I walk down to Kanan's room, feeling that he is there. I'm not sure what to say to him, I want to talk but I don't know what to say.

So I just go for it. "Kanan?" I ask as I walk in. He's just sitting in his bed, staring at the wall. "I just wanted to talk to you." I stand awkwardly in the middle of the room. He slowly turns his head to the sound of my voice. I cringe when I see the bandage around his eyes.

I walk over and sit next to him on the bed. "Ezra." He says, his voice raspy.

"Yeah?"

"I've missed you."

I was in pure shock. Missed me? All of a sudden it hit me. I haven't talked to him much since it happened. He's been left in the dark about how I was and doing. I'm such a bad person.

"I've missed you too." Was all I could say to that. But I did lean on his arm to show I'm here and I care.

"How are we going to do this?" He asks, no one really, I think.

"I've don't know, but it will be together. I'm so sorry. I never talked to you, been with you, or even acnolaged your presence! I'm such a bad person! I let you sit in the dark and I shouldn't have! I'm your padawan, I'm supposed to be there for you, and I wasnt!"

Kanan let me finish my rant before looking in my direction.

"Ezra. Listen. You didn't know what to do. I don't blame you or hold you against any of this. Yes a lot has happened, but it's just part of what we do, we risk everything, to be able to do this. I know I don't want anything to happen to you or anyone else but things do happen. And it did to me this time. But I'm okay. I will get through it and so will you. You're not a bad person. Okay? You're talking to me now and I love that you did. We'll be okay."

I was crying. Big, fat tears came down my face, fell on my hands that are in my lap, and Kanan noticed. He couldn't see them, but knew they were there.

"Shh. It's okay." He said and held his arms out for me. I dove straight into him.

"Kanan?"

"Yes?"

"I love you."

"I love you too."

"Thank you."

He was okay now.

Hi everyone! My God it has been to long! I think you all deserve to know why I wasn't here and it's because I am depressed. I'm not okay. I'm also in the process of packing up and moving houses. Which isn't helping because I don't really want to move at all and it's affecting everything in my life. My parents aren't getting along and my mom jokes about getting a divorce with my dad. It's really hard to hear.

So now you have it. That's why I've been away for so long. And I'm really sorry, but I hope you like this, I know it's short , but it's something.

This is kenziewankenobi signing out and may the force be with you.