I'm just so fucking sick and tired of people. It believing in me! I make mistakes I know this and I'm really insecure already and there's no fucking need to bring me down even more then I already bring myself down. It's not fair! My mother always tells me I can be whatever the fuck I want to be but when I show an interest she shoots down and comes up with some stupid fucking reason! I want to at least try being a figure skater but no apparently it's too late because most start young! I can't learn or even try if you won't let me and I would like to talk about this in a more civilized manner but I can't! I have no one to talk to... some of my friends I can't because they make it seem like I'm joking but I'm really upset because nobody ever believes in me! It just isn't fair that there are people who have others who care and support them and actually help them achieve their goals while I'm stuck with parents who either don't show up to my concerts or never help me whenever I need it! I mean they get so pissed because I never ask for help or don't talk about my problems but when I do I'm now the selfish one! I always have issues going on yet I'm still there for everyone of my friends even if I feel as if I deserve help and support more but I'm still there! I've talked many of my friends out of suicide yet when I feel like I'm going to do something stupid to myself nobody is fucking there! I'm tired of pretending to be happy and I'm tired of being there for people who aren't there for me! I'm at that point where I don't care if I'm being selfish or not! I just want someone to care about me like I care about them... why can't I at least have that in life?