I get really bipolar with this topic. Some days I'm so confident that I will flat out say "Thanks for your compliment but I already knew that." But lately I haven't had any self confidence. The only thing I'm actually confident in is well being smart, but even then I second guess on that. As of lately I don't want to write or sing or draw or even read because I have made myself believe that I'm not good enough. Honestly I'm not. It makes it worse when you know people are afraid of you and that people are constantly making comments to you. It's gotten to the point that I've stopped responding to the comments but then I go home in a bad mood. I'm not one to talk about my feelings so I often write, but like I said I don't feel as if my writing is good enough... this is my fatal flaw. It's my lack of self confidence and jealousy. I'm jealous over the fact that people are comfortable with showing their emotions while I rather not. I don't know how to support people when they need help because I'm used to getting over things by myself because my parents are never there. Occasionally I talk to my brother but not always. My parents never taught me anything... I taught myself how to tie my shoes, pull my hair up, braiding, sewing, reading.*shrugs* but I'm also jealous because people never tell me anything. They tell me when everyone already knows because they don't trust me. Obviously you don't trust me if you want let me hold your damn phone and help you find the video. But that jealousy connects to my lack of self confidence because I believe that I'm not good enough to know. I know I lie. I lie a lot quite honestly, but they aren't lies that could ruin friendships they are lies to protect myself. I rather not talk about what's going on with me. It's really sad to think about you know? I mean I bet half my friends don't even know I feel like this. I don't need pity, so please don't try to give me it.