How long it has been?

1 year?

I don't know.

It still felt like yesterday.

where I saw you put in the lollipop on the jar whenever you stepped into the office.

where we were playing at the amusement park, laughing at each other as we got soak after playing the ballon that fill with water.

where you were telling me the boy and the firefly story just to make me feel better,

where I saw you in the yellow hoodie of mine, I still remember that day.

You were jumping and running like a little kid.

The smile you showed me when you were about to leave my house, I still remember how sweet it was.

How shameless I am to realize it now.

When you were here with me, I was hurting you over and over.

But you still manage to smile and laugh, just to show me that you are good.

I hate myself for that.

you give me so much effort to keep me with you.

you took care of me although I kept hurting you.

you were doing everything for me even though I didn't show any single effort to make you mine.

I hate myself for not doing that to you.

why are you so kind, Sarang?

why did you still treat me so special although you got hurt so many times?

why did you still loving someone like me?

I don't deserve you.

I never deserve you.

I never deserve someone like you.

I was wondering, Sarang...

If I make you feel my touch...

you will be with me right now.

you will be so happy.

I can imagine how happy you are if it is happening.

you will jump and scream like a kid
happily.

you will give me more lollipops,

you will tell me more stories of fairytales,

you will cling to me, giggling and laughing all the time.

you will never wear a fake smile and laugh again.

you will never hold your tears again.

you will never run away from me again.

you will never pretend to be okay again.

you will be so happy.

so happy.

How I wish I could turn back the time,

to hold your soft hand,

kiss your lips,

brush your hair,

hug your comfortable embrace again.

I miss it so much.

I miss you so much.

You never know that I touch you at the end,

you never know, you never feel it.

you never know that I was confessing to you at the end.

at the end of your life,

you still didn't get to feel what love is.

your last breath, you were gone without getting a chance to feel my love for you.

You were gone in sadness.

You were gone.

You were gone forever.

I will never forget you, Sarang.

My love for you is endless.

I will keep waiting for you to come back,

although I know...

it will never happen.

Sarang, your grave is so beautiful.

There are a lot of flowers,

There are a lot of letters too,

that's all from me.

every weekend, I will come to you.

talk to you about my daily life,

Sarang,

do you hear me?

I hope you hear me,

I know I will never get any reply again,

but I hope you will hear me.

I clean your grave today, Sarang.

I add more flowers.

I also put your favorite toy.

the soft duck that you wanted when we went to the amusement park.

It's so cute,

just like you.

Have you seen it?

You will like it so much.

How's your life up there?

Is it good to be god favorite right now?

I could imagine you playing in the garden with kids right now,

you were wearing a white blouse, your face was so beautiful.

Everyone will be so in love with you.

I'm jealous.

I wish I could see you again.

Heeseung finally stood up after talking to Sarang for a long time. He cleaned the dirt from his clothes and looked at the picture of his love for a long time. He smiled with tears on his cheeks and bowed respectfully before taking a step to leave the place.

"Sarang, I will go first."

"I will come again next weekend."

"Wait for me."

"I love you, lollipop girl."

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