This is a work of fiction. Unless otherwise indicated, all the names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents in this book are either the product of the author's imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

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author's reminder 2.10.2021:

hello everyone. before you proceed, I just want to say that I was writing this book a few months ago which was when I started to be on this app. I wrote it exactly for fun, didn't care about the plot arrangement and mistakes at all. I was still a beginner at that time. So you might spot a lot of mistakes such as spelling errors, grammar, messy plots, and numb writing style. I deeply apologize if it makes you feel so uncomfortable when you are reading the book.
Don't mind correcting me if I'm wrong. I'm still learning to improve my English skills.

Thank you so much for your attention.

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   "Did you get a letter again?" Niki asked me while wiping his sweat off using a kitchen towel that he stole from Jay before going to our company. We were dancing in the practise room for a few hours, practicing for our new comeback nonstop, but everything ended after someone was calling me and gave me a letter without knowing who the sender was.

She used a weird name, making me more confused. Honestly, it's not the first time she sent me a letter. I have received a lot of letters since I was in my 11th grade, so it means she started this kind of things when I was a trainee.

I was trying to figure out about her for many times, but I still didn't know who she was-

"It's from the same person. I'm not going to read this." I threw the letter away and patted Niki on his shoulder, continue our practice before 12 at midnight.

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Soo Ah POV

  "What are you doing?"Lee Hana, my best friend, greeted me by messing my hair, making me scream surprisingly as I thought it was a random guy in the cafe who was trying to do something to me. Gladly, the customers were not surprised to see what was happening to me at the counter right now. I looked at Hana angrily and hit her on the shoulder softly, causing she to chuckle at my action before sitting beside me, watching me doing my own business.

"Yang Jung won?" She asked me, and I nod,

"Do you know him?"I asked Hana happily, curious to hear her answer, but she just shook her head and continued reading the letter that I wrote for Jung won."He is my first love. I had a crush on him since we were in the 11th grade. We were also classmates back then and now, and now he became an idol." I said to her while writing a letter for him.

"Then why did you write a letter for him when you can confess your feeling to him anytime you want since both of you were classmates?

Hana asked me, and I smiled at her question.

"He was a popular student in the school because he was good at everything. sports? dance? sing? He can nail it very well. That's why most of the girls in my school were crazy over him, including me.

He got a love confession every day, and I never heard him accept one of them. He always gave them the same answer like,

I already have someone that I like.

I know it sounds funny. I actually wanted to confess my feeling to him too, but I am really shy and scared at the same time after some of his fans said that he was quite cold toward girls...

I am an ordinary girl. I am not as bubbly as others, and I'm not good at studying or anything else. So, most students don't know that I exist. Even though we were classmates, I guess he doesn't know me at all."

" Sometimes, I went to school early just because I wanted to put chocolate and a letter on his desk. I guess I really love him."

I replied to her –

" What's the reason you are writing this letter to him then?"Hana asked me again, and I let out a sigh, taking a deep breath and looked at her.

" To confess my feeling to him. It's been 3 years, but I was still sending him a letter instead of telling him my true feeling. I am scared if I get rejected by him."I told her sadly, pouting my lips at her.

" This is not love. This is an obsession. Shortly, an obsession fan."'Hana replied to me seriously, making me gasp at her words.

" Obsessi-?"

" We would like to order Iced Americano and Latte."I was about to say something, but Hana quickly wore her cap and went to the counter to take the orders from customers.

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                        " Yang Jung won,

I don't know if you will read this or not, but I really hope you are doing well now. Please take care of your health and eat healthy food. Sleep enough and take a rest if you feel tired.

If you are in pain, take time to heal it and please be strong.

I wish the best for your new comeback."

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JUNG WON POV

" Then, what's wrong with this letter ? Receiving a letter is normal for Idol. You should be happy to have caring fans."Hee Seung said to me after he read the letter that I got last night.

" Yes, it's kinda sweet."Jake continued and Sung hoon nodded his head, agreeing with Jake.

I let out a heavy sigh and closed my eyes from getting mad at them.

I guess my brothers didn't understand me at all...

" Yes. It's sweet, but this is creepy for me. She has sent me a lot of letters since I was in the 11th grade."I replied to them, lying on the floor because I felt regret for telling them about my concern. They never listen to me at all." It may be a ghost."Sunoo said, causing Jay to look at him surprised.

" I can protect you from creepy sasaeng, but when it comes to ghosts, I will abandon you instead."Jay avoided my gaze and quickly went to the kitchen to cook dinner for us, following by Niki from behind.

" All of you going to ignore your leader now?"I asked them, hoping they would understand me, but they just teased me by sticking out their tongues and went to the kitchen to make Jay mad.

" All of you are going to get a punishment."

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SOOA POV

" Im Soo Ah, why are you so rushing?"Hana asked me while looking at me surprised.

" I need to go to the showcase."I replied to her, cleaning the table quickly before going to the counter again to take an order as a customer came into our cafe. My shift was going to end in 10 minutes, but the worker for the next shift still didn't show herself yet. Many people started to come at 5 in the evening, causing the cafe to be fully crowded with customers. I can't leave this to Hana alone.

" You can leave this to me."Hana said to me, making me look at her in shocked.

" But there are many cust-"

" I am the owner here, Soo Ah."She smiled at me." Get a chance to apologize after what you did to Jungwon today. I wish you the best."

" I will. Thank you, Lee Hana!"I hugged her tightly and quickly went to the changing room, changing my uniform to my casual outfit before heading out from the cafe and calling a taxi.

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I went to the showcase nervously because my mind kept thinking what I would do. How should I apologize to him when there were a lot of people here?

After the showcase started, I did not focus on the performance at all, while the others were screaming like crazy. I didn't think I should be happy and simp over them now after what I did to Jungwon for these 3 years.

So, I decided to write a letter for him again in the middle of their performance, ignoring everyone who was looking at me confused.

It's not a love letter as usual, I wrote an apology letter this time because I feel as if I wanted to stop doing this before he finds out the truth about me.

I don't want to be called a sasaeng of him.

The showcase finally ended in a good way as they thanked their fans for coming and bid goodbye happily. Everyone was slowly leaving the audience hall. Meanwhile, I was still sitting in the chair. Feeling blank, thinking how I send this letter to him.

   " Can you help me with these boxes?"A girl asked me while handing me a big box. I looked at her confused, tried to figure out what was happening and finally realized she was one of the crew at the backstage –

Yes, it's my chance.

I took the box from her and followed her from behind, going to the backstage.

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" Thank you for helping me."She bowed to me as a sign of thanking me and I smiled at her before walking through the hallways slowly while searching for ENHYPEN's waiting room.

I'm not going to stalk them or attack them right now. I just wanted to go to the waiting room, searching if they left their bags or jackets there. So, it will be easier for me to put the letter in it.

And at the same time, my eyes widened when I found the waiting room. I tried hard to hold myself from letting out any voice and looked around the hallways again to make sure that there was no manager or someone else watching me and quickly went to the waiting room, locked the door.

" There is Jungwon's jacket."I mumbled in happiness when my eyes landed on a jacket on the chair that had Jungwon's name tag on it. I took the jacket carefully and quickly put the letter in the pocket before someone caught my action.

" I'm done."I said to myself, feeling proud while patting my shoulder.

Finally, I got to do this! I am free no-

" Who are you? What are you doing with my jacket?"

I froze.

Kim Sunoo...