Dear Diary,

I'm sorry I didn't write last night... I ended up sleeping then immediately visiting Jasmine with Anthony...

I didn't go into the room where she was... I don't need to be there... I've ruined her relationship with him, so why should I go in and rub it in her face??

She never even knew...

Anthony and her had fought before she went to Chicago, then she never returned his calls or texts.

She still loves him.

Ugh, my instinct is to run and disappear, but I know I MUST face this head on.

So Anthony spent the night in the hospital with Jasmine and I stayed in a hotel nearby. I texted Anthony my room number and stuff. I told him that we need to talk.

I'm going to shower and prepare myself for this.

I can't be with him any longer. This has to go back to the way it was.

I need to become a normal person. Not something of a stalker, not someone who is betraying someone else. Not someone with no friends.

I need to be a normal person. Who thinks it's fun to move around for work. Who goes to collage like a normal person.

One who doesn't betray other girls. Who doesn't let her wants take control.

I need to break this off and go to a normal life.

I need to stop this.

Crap, Anthony is here. I guess I'm not getting a shower.

Maybe it's better I take one afterwards anyways.

From,
Tobilyn.