Dec 28

Seoul

Jeong-Hyeok,

How are you? And don't you say you're fine. I know you are not. Are you eating properly or have you given up on food? I know getting over me is hard, but try.

Or maybe don't try. I just had a vision of Dan's arms around you and I flicked this glass of Soju across the rug. My expensive Persian carpet was ruined in a moment and I didn't even care. See, this is what you have done to me!

And before you ask, yeah, I'm drinking. And I'm surprised that after all the exquisite wine I've had in life, it's Soju I'm in awe of. Though this is nothing compared to the one I had with you. Did everything taste sweeter because of you Jeong-Hyeok?

Since you'd be worried about how I'm doing, let me update you on my return- my employees were happy to see me back. I offered premium discounts on all Se-ri's choice products for the first time. My face was flashed in the news all day today. I have all my finest silks, my expensive couture, my lavish home, fancy shampoos and body washes and scents all right within my reach. Yet when I went to bathe today, I just sat down at the edge of the tub thinking about the hot cauldron at your home. I kept staring at the scented candle besides the tub but could not light it. All I could think of was you walking towards me in that dark marketplace, the lit candle raised in your hand. And you know how my heart fluttered at that sight.

I am back home, back to my company, back to my country, yet I feel as if I don't belong. Home doesn't feel home without you. Is it odd that given a chance, I would have stayed back with you? Ohh I wish I had. I wish I could have, but then I couldn't put you at risk again. Cho Cheol-gang is already after you. I can't let you or your family be endangered anymore. You've already done so much for me, and the love I shared with you, though it was brief, should be enough to last this lifetime.

Only that would it be enough? I'm yearning for more. I'm yearning for you Jeong-Hyeok and I could think of nothing else to reach you but to write you a letter, hoping that maybe one day I would be able to post it to you.

In love with you,

Se-ri