By Charlie - scarletchar

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I always knew.

When I was a little girl, being straight and cis was default for people, the norm, what people assumed you were. Everybody thought I was straight. And for a bit , I did too. I ignored my crushes on girls, focused on boys and pretended it didn't matter.

Then grade 6 came.

I met a large group of LGBTQ+ youth that year, and they opened me up , helped me. One day I looked at them and blurted out "I'm bisexual". One of them, a Demi boy who later on became my date mate and then my enemy gave me the worlds biggest hug.

For the rest of the year I felt scared.

"What would mum say?"

My family is very accepting, and all my mothers friends are gay , but I still felt .... Scared.

It got to a point where suicide was on my mind. I cut, I didn't eat,I abused myself for being myself .

I had come out at school, all my friends knew, and the only people left were my parents.

One night I broke. I started sobbing and in between sobs I cried out "I'm bisexual mum I'm sorry". That night me mad my mum stayed up all night talking about it. She really helped me get to where I am today.

Today I'm wearing a shirt that says "bisexual and proud" and I have a transgender boyfriend, and I'm having the best time of my life at a pride parade. To anybody who feels confused or scared reading this... Life gets better. Please be there to see it.