By Alex

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Hello my name is Alex Hall but my birth name is Savannah Hall. I am Pansexual and Gender fluid. Im 15 and im in 10th grade, I have a loving girlfriend named elizabeth. enough about that though, let me got to the topic. As I said I am Pan and Gender fluid. It took me a while to figure out who I was and who I felt. Lets begin with how I first knew I was pan.

I first knew I was "different" when I was seven years old, yes I know that is a very young age to know you are pan but I knew in my heart as well as my mind. When I was seven I had a best friend named Tori, me and Tori used to play boy friend and girlfriend alot. I always picked to be the boyfriend and she would be the girlfriend. I kissed her a lot when we played that game, to her it was just make believe but to me it was more serious than make believe. I was so confused about what I was feeling when I kissed her. When I started to grow older into my teens I started to like girls more, but pan isn't just about loving girls, its about loving everyone. honestly at first I thought I was just bi but to me there are more genders than female and male. Here's the part where the gender fluid comes in.

I started questioning my identity in 9th grade. I dressed like a guy a lot and I still wore make up and dresses. I had shaved short hair and I would try to hide my breasts a lot last year. I didn't understand what the feeling was that I was feeling. Everyday after school I would search up stuff about how I was feeling and what I was doing. I came across gender fluid and that is the gender I most identify with now. Its hard being pan and gender fluid because not a lot of people understand and they hate against it. I get bullied for being who I am all the time. Sometimes im scared to be who I am and as a person in the LGBTQ community and everyone else in the LGBTQ community shouldn't be scared or they shouldn't hide who they are in fear of being hated.