By vintagedjh - Ellie

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GUESS WHOS BACK, BACK AGAIN!

but oohhh I changed my username from @/Pastelcherryyy to @vintagedjh

ugh story time w/ Ellie again

So basically I have this very close friend, let's call her 'blue', and we have always been really close, like best friends close, but it was one night in September of 2015 where we were at her house for a birthday sleepover.

It was me, blue and a few other close friends, I asked blue that night if we could cuddle because I felt sad over something, she did it and I honestly thought that my heart was going to burst out my chest. Then we separated because we didn't want any of blues friends to notice us.

So then as time went on blue would stay at my house quite often, we'd just fall asleep cuddling and it wouldn't be awkward the next day. Well quite recently, around July, we were having a two day sleepover and on the first night we had this whole jokey argument about who was going to be big spoon and who was going to be little spoon, we eventually came to the agreement that she would be little spoon. So that night we were quite intimate (not sexually Jesus no) but she ran her fingers gently across my arm and then kissed my arm and I kissed her neck, then we stopped but kept pushing our bodies closer and closer together, she kept tracing her fingers along my arm and I kept lightly dragging my lips across the back of her neck. I felt so amazing that night, I was so so happy it had happened. but then I fucked it all up. I explained to blue that is cuddling with her was like a stress relief. but she has a boyfriend and told me we should stop because she felt guilty. (which I totally understand btw) and I've stopped, I've been good and haven't tried to make a move with her. but blue told me that I made her question her sexuality (I'm so so sorry). idk what to do, I'm so confused, I really am :/

someone help please, okay byee <3