By Anonymous

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2016 has been chaotic.

From crushes to coming out, it was a year of finding myself. Or...at least starting to.

At the end of last year, I started out at questioning if I was really gay. It was the only sexual orientation I knew about, so it was the only thing I could compare to. I figured that I was, so I came out to my mom way before I was ready, but she excepted me still. After this I found out about being bisexual, and I tried it out for a while, but it still didn't feel like a good fit. I started doing my research watching every video and reading everything could to find a label that fit me. Sadly, I really never found anything that felt really good for me, but I think the closest thing to me currently is pansexual. Then the switch to exploring the world of gender happened. This was when I started high school and looked at all the people around me. I guess I had never felt like I fit in any specific group, and never felt like gender had really mattered to me. I tend to present more masculine in normal life, but there are some times when I'll wear something more feminine. I don't wear makeup and my hair is fairly short, but not short enough to pass as a male. I guess I always have kind of felt as if I partially identified as a male, which is where my current label, Demiboy came from.

For 2017 I want to be more open about my sexuality and gender. I want people to start calling me by my preferred pronouns instead of hiding them in shame. I think when next school year rolls around I'll join the GSA/LGBTQ+ club at my school. Basically, my New Years resolution is to be more open, both on a LGBT+ level and with other things as well.