I officially hate my mind right now
It presented to me my favorite animal and said "naw"

For context, there were kitties, with two of them I clearly remember being a cream tabby and a gray tabby kitten. They are so fluffy and cute and then my mind's like "oh yeah, they're being put down, btw" and the only reasoning when I ask in the dream is that "They're annoying/loud" (forget how it was said specifically). Most of them were poisoned through their food (I think), but then the kitten was sprayed with a spray bottle and it was crying. And the person spraying the kitten just says something like "yeah, but it'll stop soon" when I point out the crying. And I'm just over here thinking how cruel and heartless these people are, taking away cats' lives that still have so many years ahead of them, especially the kitten
Needless to say, I woke up with tears in my eyes

No, I'm not mentally okay! How can I possibly be okay when my mind tortures me with stuff like that!?