I absolutely despise someone who is disrespectful and degrades others but I respect them because ya know, who on this Earth knows what that person might be going through except for that person themselves...I forgive them for degrading me and shaming me only cause I know that it's wrong to judge a person just by their "mask" and how they treat you at first. But this is not always the case for me...(if you have someone who abused you those behaviors are learned and they themselves are afraid to change and some are not even willing to change...but you can always help them change...) I want to be different from both my mother and my father...I made this 'vow' when I was in health class when my health teacher had said that a child usually ends up being like one of their parents and not both...it was at that moment I realized that I'm like both of my parents in a way...because I have my mother's kindness and generosity and have a hard time coping with change and other problems and I'm also like my dad (or Baba as I call him) because...I know how to get important information out of people (just like some sort of social-manipulator I think that's that right term...) But I love only one of those things but I wanna change for me...for the better but I'm so damn afraid to do that because I always feel like I'm messing with the fabric of my existence and time itself...I just don't wanna forget the real me and loose my way in the dark...

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Hello there my fellow readers! I hope you liked this chapter...and as always...till next time my fellow readers!!!!!!!!~8)