A tiring long day... I am just pissed off with all the make ups and everything I am wearing now... I am usually not a girly thing even hates to wear earrings or a Bangles.. but what's this ticklish feeling inside.. probably because I am not so pissed off.. and I am enjoying this irritating long function...

Why not?.... it's my wedding.. and I have every damn rights to be happy... But smiling too much is not something we can do it openly.. these relatives damn would probably make a fuss over it.. and in our village, they would even assume it to be love marriage because of me blushing... So I have to be normal all time .... Afterall it's arranged marriage and I have no regret to it... Because it's something normal here ... I didn't even meet the groom ... I just had a look at at him on our engagement day when he asked me wether I am interested in this marriage or not and I simply nodded in positive...and I don't even remember his face now...

An old lady whom I never seen came to me and sat across me .. she may be the groom's side .. and some more people brought a book and asked me to sign it... It's not that I don't know about this.. but I have never attended any weddings of our cast besides my sister's wedding and there too I enjoyed a lot with my friends and I didn't had time to observe the wedding...

Sliding away the thoughts.. I just signed it .. and of course I felt a warm sweat in my forehead. And my hands are shaking ... I am really scared now... Scared to enter into new relationship... Scared to leave my parents.. scared to move to entirely new city that too Bombay...

And the unknown lady made me wear a long chain... There by declared me getting married...that's it... Fresh tears made it's way in my eyes... My blushing all gone ... Now I am married to an unknown man... And I gonna spend the rest of my life with him... I really don't know why I am crying... I just smiled to cover up my scared face... And looked all who were so happy that I am married...

I know about muslim weddings... But declaring you married even without having a look at that person whom u got married... Is something which I couldn't explain in words...

Now after some minutes of crowd tortures... I m feeling good... I am not at all nervous now... Main thing I should focus is not to mess my eye liner .. so I just wiped the excess make ups.... While doing so , the surrounding seemed bit strange... I looked up to see bunch of guys before me... I really couldn't find HIM...Gathering the courage I raised my eyelid again to see the person nearing me... Damn who is the guy... I should have lost the mind when I denied to see the groom photo out of shyness.. and now I don't actually know who the guy I got married to... And to me those bunch of guys nearing me look alike... Same like Korean drama actors... I couldn't distinguish anyone .... I lowered my eyes as soon as I felt one of those pair of eyes catching my expressions...

And yeah he would be the groom . I thought to myself... The grand event came to an end after much gift giving sessions and photographs.. hhhuhhhh... Didn't I tell you about the photoshoot done privately ... Not to go overboard.... but one thing is sure.. posing with a stranger and that too with that smile plastered over our face .... Is something more embarrassing moment...

The long day at last came to an end... And I just came back to my home... Taking my time to make me simple and comfortable make ups , I just got changed myself into a normal chiffon green coloured plain saree which is Soo elegant also comfortable ... I stepped outside again to gather everyone attention over me...

It's not only a small tea time.. but a heavy gossiped long evening ... Scolding myself to be born as a girl I bowed my head not making anyone see my expressions... But the same pair eyes caught it. And I noticed a small smile over his lips... That did a perfect thing to send chill shiver to my spines...

Our actual conversation begins when we were allowed to spend the quality time with each other.... It's almost 11 at night.... The little decorations in our room is something I liked it too much .

The first word he ever spoke with me is "here is the way to washroom and whenever u want to go just call me"
Seriously he did said those.. but thinking it again ... He is such a gentleman who cares about a girl needs .. and also it's his home he should guide the way .

A long silence ... Neither of us really starts speaking... He started surfing his mobile to distract himself...and without any option left I went to my side and pulled my bedsheet and covered it till my face.. sleep just overtook me as I was really tired.... That's when I heard his whisper...

"Would you mind if we talk for two minutes?"he asked... I could feel his breath . That's how I realised him right behind me

This sudden act just made my sleep to get lost within a fraction of seconds... I just turned to him and nods in positive... And a formal talks begins ...and his two minutes changed into hours and hours.. by sharing everything our childhood.. Like how he made his school college and now work... All he do is giving time for me to start my talks.... Such a nice gentleman I thought inwardly... But being a talkative and carefree girl I couldn't just hold breathe for long... I mean... I don't know how to be silent even in exam Hall.. how can anyone expect me to be like that...

"It's nice that you are talking so formally.. but I would like it if you talk casually" I said looking directly to his eyes... Damn.. he is smiling seeing my boldness... May be he thought of me like a innocent calm village girl... And this first dialogue of me surely changed his view ....

Our long night chatting ended over 6 in morning ... I really enjoyed this my first night.... He is damn cool... And also a perfect man... He did mentioned that he would treat me like a friend and little by little we can understand each other..

The next day morning didn't go well.... I mean... I should again act like a shy baby... And should answer that typical question with a small blush "what happened yesterday?" ... Seriously do they really have to ask this directly to me...

One week flew away within a blink of eyes... The functions lasts over a week...first marriage then reception...then the third day where groom family brings gifts and many more things and takes me with them... Then fourthday my parents comes to my in laws home and take me with them.. and then fifth day.. first lunch party at my grandma's home ..

These functions... I enjoyed.. but the only irritated thing is to wear sarees in each and every damn functions.. and here in our village that kanchipuram Pattu saree is the only thing we could wear for marriage functions..

My in laws native home was near to my village ... But they live in Mumbai. Ok it's time to leave for my in laws home... After long functions... This one week we almost shared everything with each other... And I really liked enjoying my time with my husband... I should really thank my parents for choosing this man as my life partner...

The train sound brought me back from my thoughts... Instant tears filled in my eyes... When I left my dad's hands... I started sobbing inwardly when I saw the train starts moving... I should now leave my parents here in this village .. and should go with my husband to Mumbai.. a entirely new city . An entirely new family... Leaving behind my parents...

I pressed my lips hardly to control my sobs..which couldn't help so ... My hands get warm suddenly when I felt his hands wrapping around my fingers... That's it... I let my tears out... It didn't stop... And he didn't even speak a word... Because that will worsen the case for sure... This gesture of him... I really fell for him... I fell for my husband... Yes of course I started loving my husband.... He slightly side hugged me and I suddenly catches his hands ... Our two days train travel with my in laws and my mom who accompanied me was the best moments... the very first day in train... He got me in the upper berth... We two settled in that conservative seat and enjoyed our first ever movie... It's Tamil movie (RAJA RANI) .. and I was like flying in air... I enjoyed it the most... Having our parents down, we enjoyed our little date .....

I always thought how can anyone love suddenly ... And now I knew how... It's something like magic... Arrange marriage is our culture and the cuteness in this relation no one could get unless they do it...thrilling excitement much more feelings one can get in this beautiful arranged marriage...

Once we reach Mumbai... I could see the other side of him... Protectiveness.... Once my mom left for her home, he took me to show the entire city only to make me busy in those beautiful views so that I couldn't get my thoughts of parents

It's nearly one month of my marriage.... Thanks to technology ... I woke up every morning to have a video chat with my parents and sister. It's like I am with them only...

Little little things in our home around hurting me like hell ... It's not that my mother in law is strict or something else , it's just I missed my mother too much.. that's when I cried more locking my bedroom door . As usualy husband came back and I thought he won't notice.. but his Expression changed once he looked at my face..

"What happened??did my mom said anything to you" it's all that he asked .. and now there is nothing I can do rather to cry more over his arms . And he is hell scared.... Pulling myself together I said slowly "I am missing my mom and dad". He just consoled me and the night comes to an end...I was so moved by him when he asked that question.... Because.. my mother in law is such a sweet lady .. I always dreamt of having one like her as my mother in law... I should honestly say that she is a sweet lady but yeah little of her gestures is not at all preferable. The most important thing is that she is the mother of my husband who is a perfect man in all aspects. And because of this sole reason I could just slide away all the negative vibes ....

Next day morning I could hear noises from outside.. and I peeked there to witness the happenings... I was really shocked when I came to know that my husband booked flight tickets for me and him to my home town.... Happy and emotional tears cracked to my cheeks.... He came back to our room to give that news....

That's when I told him " JAANU... MY LIFE IS AMAZING BECAUSE YOU ARE WITH ME. YOU MAKE ME HAPPY EVEN I AM SAD . I LOVE YOU JAANU , TRULY DEEPLY MADLY. YOU ARE THE BEAUTIFUL THING HAPPENED TO ME EVER. " I just hugged him saying these things.. and I really meant all those things to him... That's when I kept a nick name for him and till now I am calling HIM JAANU...

I don't know how love marriages can be... But I am more sure that arranged marriage can be a success only if you could make little adjustments only for your partner. I have adjusted many things which I never done with my parents. And that's the thing which made my husband fall for me Soo deeeeply that he couldn't yet get over it...

I did realised... Happiness is waking up in your husband's arms without any stress lines on forehead

Happiness is giving a kiss when he is hell angry to argue back

Happiness is enjoying weekends by roaming around with hands together

Happiness is asking sorry when you are wrong

Happiness is sleeping while cuddling with him inspite of all fights and odds

THE END

It's all about me REHANA only... I am happily married for three years by now and having a cute princess in my arms who is around 1 year... I started writing about my feelings which I got once I married ...I couldn't think about any other story other than mine under this topic. In between some lines are my imagination..and you all know sometimes reality needs some drama to make it so cute.

Thank you TheIndianCommunity for this contest .. I know .. many of you would have expected some more from me.. I am Soo sorry for this short simple plain os .. I couldn't think much as I got involved so much in penning down my inner thoughts