Nothing can go as one plan nor anything stops if one denies to accept something or someone's life stops with the ignorance of one. 

Anamika has realized it lately. In the past 5 months, she had realized that she couldn't sit, begging her husband to accept her child. She has stopped bugging him for it, especially after his indifferent attitude towards her. 

With time she has got some complications with her health and that causes problems for her child as well but Vineet never cared for it, he never even bothered to ask about it. But last month, when he got to know that his sister was facing some complications with her pregnancy, he was more anxious than Sachin. He not only visited the Modi house which he had once announced to never visit but dialed up all the high profile gynecologists for her. 

Anamika felt nothing but sharp stabs in her heart, the scars were so deep now that they hardly converse. She has even stopped asking him for anything, she doesn't expect anything from him. While he too leaves no chance to hurt her in return. In the past 5 months he had tried every possible way to avoid her. He had suddenly taken up several works in his hands and remains busy most of the time, in fact these days he's always on business trips. Only after last month because of Avantika he dropped his plan of a Netherlands trip. 

Anamika never says anything now because she doesn't find herself standing at the position from where she can question him. Somehow she has convinced herself that she's actually a misfortune lady. 

It's another day, Anamika has visited her gynecologist for her 7th month check - up and Vineet had accompanied her for the first time too because his mother had some urgent work which she couldn't hold and so asked him to accompany his wife for a day. He doesn't want to but agrees as he doesn't have any reason to deny it.  

The check up was done and Anamika was sitting with a plain expression knowing what was coming from the doctor. 

''Anamika, tum chahti kya ho?? Kitni baar ek hi baat samjhau main tumhe?? Agar koi problem hai tumhe toh at least tell me, shayad main koi help kar pau tumhari. Iss tarah khudko aur iss bache ko torture kyun kar rahi ho tum!?" The doctor demanded an answer from her. 

Anamika refuses to speak up because she doesn't have an answer. 

''Kya baat hai doctor, aap itna gussa kyun ho rahi hai!?" Vineet questions in a calm note, trying to understand the reason of doctor's scolds to his wife who doesn't seem to be in the mood to reply. 

The doctor gazes at him in disbelief, is he for real? Doesn't he know what's going on with his wife? The lady takes a deep breath and glances at Anamika. 

''Kya aapko Anamika ne kuch nahi bataya hai?" She first asked the question which he hesitantly denied. 

Yeah, she didn't share anything because he was never there nor was he interested to know anything related to it. 

The doctor sighs again, trying to calm herself.  

''Mr. Vineet, your wife is going through serious complications and the complications are not because of any health issues but of her unnecessary tensions. I have told her several times to not take any tension but your wife seems to love her imaginary tension-land. Unhone apne aap ko ye problem de diya hai.'' The lady spoke in concern while anger was clearly audible in her tone. 

She averted her eyes to Anamika who was still sitting with the same expression and posture,''Anamika kyun kar rahi ho tum ye? Itni loving and supporting family hai tumhari then why this tension? Aab bhi time hai, stop overthinking and please follow the routine. Khudko aur bache ko problem mei maat dalo!!" The lady instructed her strictly. 

Anamika silently nods her head while the doctor instructs Vineet as well to take extra care of his wife to which he ensures her. After a few moments they take their leave, Vineet gets the prescribed medicines from the clinic's medical store and later they head to their home. 

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Sitting in the car, Anamika caressed her belly convincing herself to forget every bad moment of her life but was that so easy in practicality?  

In the past 5 months, she fought several battles alone. Things were hard for her, how can she follow her routine when it was totally violated by her husband? She can't sleep without his close proximity while he had refused to cuddle her. All he does is sometimes place his arm around her but there is a gap between them which can't be filled. He won't take the initiative to fill the gap while she can't do it because it would mean she's weak and a mother can never be weak enough to can't stand for her child. 

How can she not take tension when such things are going around? The doctor has a wrong perspective about her husband which she can't help neither can she change him which means she can't run away from the tension she's going through. Nor can she change him which means she has to bear him and his acts. 

She came out of her trance when he cleared his throat to grab her attention.  Anamika cast a look at him, he seemed to want to ask her something, she didn't speak anything but turned herself a little towards him as she was inclined to the window. 

''Kyun khud ko itni takleef de rahi ho Ana, kya iska kuch matlab bhi hai? Khudko takleef deke kya hoga?" He tries to confer, although he doesn't hold any feeling for the child but the ultimate truth of his life, that is, he loves her and can't change it no matter what. He can't see her suffering that too because of the child. 

Anamika stares at him for a moment, trying to understand what makes him say such a thing when he himself is the reason for her discomfort and sorrow. 

''Suddenly ye sawal kyun?'' She questions him, for she finds the question irrelevant that too from his side who doesn't care about it. 

''Sawal na karu toh kya karu main? Tum achanak se sab kuch itna complicate kar rahi ho. Pehle ye pregnancy ki zidd aur aab apni health ke saath negligence, kyun? Tumhe kuch ho gaya toh?'' He vocalizes in concern, his eyes balancing its concentration between the road and her expression. 

Anamika let out a sarcastic laugh, it was on herself, on her destiny. How can someone be so unlucky and lucky at the same time? 

Her husband is concerned about her health even though there are differences between them but he's not ready to accept the child even though he's ready to die for her. 

Anamika was suddenly in a dilemma, what kind of luck or unluck is it? How is she expected to outlook one for the other? How can she not see his eternal love for her? But then, how can she ignore his ruthlessness towards her unborn child? 

Anamika let out a deep sigh, life had been always  hard for her, throwing hurdles to test her, she tried to outshined them but this time she's stuck because the oy one who had always supported her was her opponent now. 

She turned away to look out of the window. 

''Kya fark padta hai aab kissi ko agar mujhe kuch ho bhi jaaye toh. Meri maa ko toh khushi hi hogi iss baat ki. Siwaye mere bache ke kissi ka kya hi bigad jaayega mere hone ya naa hone se, ya kya pata issi bhi kuch waqt badh fark na pade meri moujudgi se. Waise bhi aab main samajh chuki hoon, main kuch karu kuch paa nahi sakti, na khushi na pyar. Meri kismat mei hi nahi hai ye sab toh aab aasha bhi nahi rahi kissi chij ki. Bas ek baar ye aa jaaye iss duniya mei, isse itna kabil bana dun ki wo khud ko sambhal le toh fir kuch ho jaane ka bhi gam na ho. I just wish, at least isse mei galat na lagu, at least ye mujhe judge na kare!!" Tears rolled down her eyes as she closed them with the end of her statement while Vineet found it nonsensical and too dramatic. 

''Have you gone mad? Ye kaisi baate kar rahi ho tum?? Tumhari maa ka I can't say, unse toh kuch acha except kiya bhi nahi jaa sakta but how can you think main tumse pyar nahi karta? Tum janti ho main tumse kitna pyar karta hoon, bas iss bache ke liye jo abhi tak hua bhi nahi hai tum mere pyar ko judge nahi kar sakti.'' He almost shouts while hitting his hand on the steering wheel. 

Anamika gave him a tough glare,''apne pyar ko tumne khud iss modd pe khada kar diya hai Vineet. Tumne mujhe aur hamare bache ko accept karne se inkaar kar iss sab problem ko create kiya hai. Meri maa se sach mei kuch expect nahi kar sakti main isiliye unke hone na hone se kuch fark bhi nahi padta par tumne toh umeed jaga ke toda hai, mujhe kanch ke emarat pe bitha diya aur dusre hi pal khud pathar phek usse chakhna chur kar diya. Yahi karna tha toh mujhe mere hal pe hi chor diya hota, at least ye tasali thi ki shayad kabhi nikal pau par tumne wo umeed bhi tod di meri!!" She yelled as tears continued to roll over her cheek. 

Vineet was tongue tied at her outburst, he glanced at her a few times but didn't say anything. 

They silently reach their home, Anamika clears her face and they head inside but upon entering they are left surprised at the scenario before them. 

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To be continued. ..