Could this man be... Howl?

Is stood up and turn around to face his back while Calcifer turn to look at me for I accidentally knock the chair, which also surprises the man that made him turn around either.

Everything went in a slowmotion, and as the man turn around it was indeed him. It has Howl. It was my Lover, my Daylight.

It was brighter now. That was the reason why I can't force myself to leave the country, the reason why everything felt familiar, the reason why it was 'Enins Shp'. It was suppose to be 'Jenkins Shop' his middle name.

Now I know, I know and I see everything clear now.

I slowly approach him, my eyes flowing with tears. Howl still has this charming smile I always like, no, I always love.

Howl's small smile turn big after I start approaching him, he open his arms expecting me to run and crash in his warm embrace which I did. How much I miss this.

I cried in his arms, he cried also as he rest his chin on my head. We both know how much we miss each other. Calcifer was also happy to see me again, while Markl was a bit confuse to what's happening.

''Sweetheart.'' the first thing Howl said, calling me by my favorite name he gave me.

''My Love.'' I replied.

Oh, how much I like this name I always call him. I stop myself from kissing him here, in front of Calcifer and Markl. But Markl, I think needs explanation.

I went back to my seat as Howl place the food on the table. Markl grab his piece while I stayed looking at the food, I don't think I have the appetite to eat for now.

''What's wrong, Baby?'' Howl asked as he held my hand.

I look at him and shake my head ''Nothing, i'm not hungry. I already ate.'' I said apologizing.

''Don't be sorry, Sweetheart. It's fine, at least Calcifer has something to eat though.'' he said as laugh softly.

I look at Calcifer, he's still the most charming here in the castle. I also I look at Markl, he's just there, eating his food.

''Markl?'' I called out.

He look at me with a answer of  ''Hmm?'' it was cute tho.

''I think you want to ask something?'' I asked with a soft smile on my face.

He look shy at first but when he finished eating his food he asked me ''Do you know Master Howl and Calcifer?''

I chuckled. Howl took Markl's plate and place it on the sink ''Yes, I do know them. After all, I've been here before you.'' I answered looking at where Howl was.

He look at me back and smiled, I turn away with a hint of red hue on my face. Which Markl took notice.

''Were you and Master Howl lovers from before?'' Markl asked didn't even minding my flushed face.

''We we're always lovers, Markl. But I did something that lead us to fall apart.'' I said as I start to explain everything.

Markl on the other hand listen carefully and that's what I like from him. He listens and keep those information for himself. This is my first time meeting Markl but I like him already. Like when I first met Howl.

''To be honest, it wasn't your fault anyways Y/n. You just want to know the truth, right?'' Markl said.

I nod as a tear escape my eyes. I don't know how did he understand about it, but I'm thankful he did understand. 

After a while, Markl told Howl that he will be off to bed and sleep for he was tired all day. Howl allow Markl to go. I listen to his footsteps as he ascend up stairs and the door closing afterwards. A small smile appear on my lips, as I think about Howl taking care of a child so just to keep him company after I left.

Soon I felt someone grab me by the waist and pulled me closer to his chest "How long has it been, Sweetheart?" Howl asked as he gave me a kiss on the crook of my neck. It's so long since I have the butterfly feeling inside my stomach. I never thought I'll ever found him again.

"But I need you to wake up for now, Baby." Howl said out of no where which cause me to look at him. What is he talking about? Is he drunk or something. . . It can't be, can it?

"What are you talking about, Howl?" I asked to be sure. 

He chuckled. That was all he did I don't know why. "You need to, not today Sweerheart. I know you miss me, but I'm not real for now. Your mind is still working if im not wrong, you slept and at the same time your brain is still conscious for what you are thinking. So please, Sweetheart wake up."

I jolt hearing someone on the other side of the door "Room Service!" the lady maid knocked calling on the other side of the room.

"Not today, thank you!" I answered back as I release the breath I have been holding for a while. Was it true? Was that really Howl's or was it my mind? I don't know what was that but it felt true, but here's another thing. . . I can't remember anything that had happen in the dream. I can't remember which shop was that, which building or whatever was on the dream. Worse, I can't remember that child, who was he again? I can't imagine his face anymore.

Looks like, I have to start from scratch again. How long am I going to do this? I hate it already! I wish I haven't done that! Where am I going now? Oh goodness, help me please. Someone?