The vacation didn't feel even all that bad as much as I had expected but I did miss kinn a lot...
Throughout the holidays, Porchay's homeworks, his guitar practice, movies, series etc had kept me busy enough and I too loved spending time with my precious little brother.

Soon the date of reopening got closer and with each passing day, my anticipation was growing more and more making me desparate to see him.

A day before the reopening, we got our schedules and along with section and timings and I could only hope to somehow bump into kinn in school since there were a number of sections for each stream in our school and I didn't even know which one he belonged to.

Should I ask someone?
I thought but abandoned that thought after a while since I didn't want to answer any questions or give any reason as to why was I looking for him to anyone.

The first few days after the vacation passed in a haze, my mind was preoccupied with him for me to do anything correctly.

" It's been four days since the school has opened, yet I haven't even caught a single glance of him. " I said to myself while playing with my lunch completely disinterested in eating.

Seeing me so lost in thoughts, Tem decided to finally ask the question he had been holding back for the last four days making me realise that no matter what I had to pull myself together.

" Oii you've been looking lost ever since the school reopened. Is something wrong? " Tem asked in a worried voice.

" Ah it looked like that to you as well right? I thought I was the one overthinking. " Jom said joining him.

" Eh? Do I really look like that? " I said cupping my face and they both agreed.

" No everything's fine. I just wanted a few more days off. " I sighed and lied to them to somehow get out of the situation and they both visibly relaxed upon hearing that before starting their rant about how much homework the teachers had started giving us suddenly and how burdening it was. But I was too concerned about my own matter to listen to any of their complaints.

" Gahhhh!!! I can't go on living like this when I don't even know if he remembers me anymore!!! I need to divert my attention away from him!! " I internally screamed while keeping in mind to not let my emotions be visible on my face.

" What am I? A teen boy in love?! I don't even love him!! " I screeched while thinking to myself but had to rethink my sentence immediately.

" Umm...I mean I hope so I don't- " I sighed and slumped on the table immediately making Jom and Tem worried again.

" Eh?! What happened so suddenly?! Don't tell me? Do you have indigestion?! " Jom said.

" I am not sure how he arrived at that conclusion but if that's somehow magically true, then do you need this? " Tem said pushing a small bottle with a few pills in it towards me.

" Ahhh!? Are those drugs?!! Did you start taking them without even informing me?! " Jom said gasping dramatically and with an expression of feeling betrayed.

" What the hell do you mean by drugs?! What made you jump to that conclusion?! It's digene!! " Tem said with his eyes widened after getting caught off-guard.

" And why should I inform you even if I am planning on taking drugs? What are you? my wife?! " Tem said and even though he didn't look like someone who would be too dramatic there were often instances like these when his energy matched Jom's perfectly.

" Well I can be if you want~ " Jom said while tucking his hair behind his ear as if he was shy.

Tem stared at him in disbelief for a second and opened his mouth to say something but closed it instantly feeling flustered by the statement.
Jom laughed seeing him all flushed face since he had said that intentionally to tease Tem.

Jom loved flirting playfully with Tem since Tem had always been a shy kid. Though, Jom's flirting abilities only were restricted till Tem and sometimes me who were his best friends. Since it was his way of joking, he didn't like flirting with anyone else unless he was serious about them knowing the risks associated with casual flirting.

Their banters had always entertained me ever since we were kids but lately even those seemed to have no effect on me.

" Damn you kinn! " I cursed him under my breath feeling frustrated with myself.

The lunch break finally came to end after a few more minutes and we headed back to the class and maybe god did sense the distress in me since I finally succeeded in getting some information about kinn.

The teacher came into the class holding a bunch of stuff and right as she reached near the door, she somehow lost balance and it looked like the things were about to topple over, so I stepped in and offered a helping hand.

" You are such a good boy Porsche! " She said smiling at me and even though I didn't want to I had to smile back at her.

" Porsche I've got another task for you, can you please give this book to kinn? I burrowed it from him before the vacations but forgot to return it. He's in section X. " She said handing me the book and my ears immediately perked up at his mention.

And as much as I hated going to that section, I still was interested in seeing kinn.

The reason I hate section X so much you ask?

Well because the kids in that section were just a bunch of asses...well most were. Section X was famous in our school for being the section of uninterested in studies yet coming from a 'my daddy's richer than yours' background students.

More than studying they were interested in competing with each other about whose parents owned a higher status, and I had recently come to know that kinn was the ace of the class and everyone usually left him and friend - his name was Tay? I believe? alone since nobody was anyway wealthier than those two.

We were made to receive mathematics class with them since most of the students from theirs and our class were enrolled in physical education fearing math and thankfully the students attending class with me did not have that big of an attitude problem, ofcourse they probably looked down on everyone else but kept quiet about it, keeping those thoughts to themselves instead of expressing them openly, though sometimes their facial expressions did succeed in conveying their true feelings.
Being immersed in my thoughts, I didn't realise how fast I had reached the class but then again it was there just a floor above mine so it shouldn't have take much time anyway.
I knocked on the door and the teacher allowed me to come in.

" Sir I'm looking for Kinn Teerpanyakul. Is he here? " I asked looking around the class.

" Do you have some work with him? " The teacher enquired politely. He was one of the few teachers who were pretty soft spoken due to which he was also the favourite teacher of many students.

" Yok mam has sent me to return this book to him. " I said pointing towards the book.

( Writer's thought : yup I know 'yok mam' somehow sounds a little off? But I couldn't find the Thai word for teacher so had to write this instead
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" He's not here " A student said.

" Why don't you hand it over to Tay? " Another one suggested.

" Tay is absent thick-head! " The previous student said rolling her eyes.

" I think kinn has left the school! " One shouted from the crowd making everyone look at him as if he was spouting nonsense.

" Why are you all looking at me like that? C'mon it makes sense! He hasn't shown up even once ever since like the school's reopening! " He said again trying to defend himself.

" Silence everyone! " The teacher said silencing everyone immediately with just a single glare.

Even though he was a soft-spoken teacher, he could transition to a strict one whenever required. His ability of doing so with such speed had never failed to amaze me.

" Looks like he isn't here today. " He smiled at me and I excused myself to return back feeling insecure after hearing about his possible withdrawal from school.

" His withdrawal has nothing much to do with me but still why do I feel so sad? Everything feels so confusing!!! " I pulled my hair internally while screeching internally as well feeling fed up with the situation.