Misha's POV:

What am I going to do next? He said we will find a solution, what solution was he talking about, divorce?

The thought of getting divorce itself made me shiver. I don't want divorce, I love Varun, I love me so much that it hurts now. Can there be any other solution? I don't think so. I was not able to think anything else, my mind was occupied by what Varun said earlier, I tried a lot to control myself however I was not able too, I was going on crying.

I don't know what I did to deserve a life like this. I love Varun and I don't wish to leave him but if it is for his happiness, I guess I will do that as well.

after two days,

It was 10 in the morning, time for Varun to leave for his office. This past two days, I haven't spoke anything with him, I don't even go to his room to take Isha in short I have been staying away from him. Today's case was the same, I was waiting for him to go out so that I can go and do all the household chores. I need sometime to think about everything.

Earlier it was Varun who used to avoid me and now it's me who does that. I'm too broke to go in front of him knowing that he won't be able to love me ever. I agree I told him about the friendship thing and he offered the same but now I don't think I just want his friendship. I need him, his love, his care, everything about him and if I can't get that, I don't wish for anything else.

"Bhabhi, Varun is asking about you, What should I tell?" Janvi asked as she came inside my room.

"Tell him I'm sick."

no, what if he comes here? I will get caught for lying.

"Wait, tell him I'm busy with some work."

"He said he wants to talk." She said further. what does he wants to talk now? Is there something left to talk? Omg, does he wants to talk about divorce? No god please no.

"Bhabhi what happened? Why are you so scared and why these tears?" Janvi asked as she came and sat next to me wiping the tears away. Only the thought of divorce makes me so vulnerable, what will happen when Varun will tell it for real?

"Nothing." I replied and told her to go and say him that I'm busy. She looked sad for what I told her to do but as always went out without saying much.

I wiped my tears and tried to calm myself. what am I going to do now? I was standing near the window when I heard a knock on my door. Varun? But it's been so long that Janvi came to my room, Varun must have went to his office now. I slowly went and opened the door, only too see Varun standing in front of me. The moment our eyes met, I had tears in my eyes again. It hurts to know that the person you love, won't be able to love you ever.

"What's wrong Misha, why are you behaving so strange?" He asked.

"Strange? Of course not. I was very busy with some office work." I lied without looking into his eyes because I was trying to control my tears. It's difficult not to cry while talking to him.

"Don't lie, It's been two days you haven't spoke a word to me. What did I do?" He asked.

"No Varun, why would I lie? I was really very busy with work." I lied again and I guess that made him angry because the next thing he did was holding my wrist and making me look at him in one swift option.

"Look at me and then say the same thing." He demanded and once our eyes met again, I was not able to control my tears anymore.

"It hurts Varun, It hurts a lot to remember whatever you said that day."

"All this time I was living in hope that at least one day you will accept me as your wife, at least I will get a little, very little amount of love from you but after what you said, I have lost all the hopes, it hurts now, it hurts so much." I said and broke down into more tears.

"I'm sorry Misha, I'm extremely sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, I was just being honest. Please control yourself." He said and he loosened the grip on my wrist and shifted his hand on my shoulder.

"The solution you were talking about, what is it? Were you talking about Divorce? Please don't do that. I love you Varun, I love you so much. I don't want to stay away from you, please don't divorce me." I begged. I didn't know what I was doing, all I knew was that I can't stay away from him.

"Misha please stop crying, I, I haven't thought about any solution yet, Please calm down." he said and wiped my tears with his own hands, he even made me sit and gave me water to drink.

"Are you ok now?" He asked as he sat on his knees in front of me on the floor. I nodded.

"I'm sorry." I said after few seconds.

"I have an important meeting to attend, we will talk when I return, ok?" He asked as I nodded again without glancing at him.

"Bye, take care." he said and went out.

was I just begging to him? Begging for being loved? I don't know, I really don't want to loose him but if I don't let him go, it would mean that I was thinking just about myself. Moreover it's not his mistake, it was me, who loved him, he didn't and I can't force him to do the same to me, Love is never forced, it just happens, Varun never loved me and now I don't think he ever will.

what should I do now?

Varun's POV:

"Is everything ok? You were least interested in that meeting." Aarav asked as we came out of the conference room.

"Everything is ok." I replied and moved ahead but this guy is too stubborn, he won't leave a person until they share their problem with him.

"What's wrong Varun? You and I both know, you can't lie, so stop fooling and tell me what is it." he demanded.

"It's about Misha."

"What about her? Did you do something to her again?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.

"No man, I didn't." I replied and realized that maybe I didn't mean to hurt her but still it's because of me that she was crying today.

"Then what happened?"

"I told her that I still love Tanvi and won't be able to give her to place to anyone." I told him the truth and saw his face drop.

"That means you made it clear to her that you can't love her and she is just wasting her time for you, you made it clear that her life is spoiled now." He said in a very annoyed yet hurt expression.

"What I said was the truth Aarav, I don't wish to hurt her, she is an amazing person, I like her a lot but just as a good person. I don't want to give any false hopes to her."

"So what do you mean by that? What should she do now?" He asked.

"I don't know, I haven't thought about it. At least I don't want to promise her the happiness I can't give her."

"Isn't it clear Varun that if you can't love her, divorce is the only solution you have?" He asked making me numb. I didn't knew what to say further.

"Please don't hurt her man, she loves you so much, You are very lucky that you have a person who loves you unconditionally."

"So what do you want me to do Aarav? If not divorce, is there any other solution?"

"So you are planning about the divorce thing?" he asked.

"Of course I'm. I don't have any other solution, because I can't accept her as my wife, I don't have any right to waste her life. If we get divorce, at least she can be happy in her own life."

"You are her only happiness Varun. I don't want to talk about." He said and went to his cabin, whereas I went to mine.

I was sitting in cabin for past one hour without doing anything. Misha's crying face kept flashing before my eyes. I did lie to her about the divorce thing but how was I even going to tell her that divorce was exactly what I was thinking and that the only option we have? She must be having some dreams about her married life and future, if I can't give it all to her, why should I waste her life? She has to understand that I'm not her happiness, I can't give her the happiness she wants from me. I just want her to be good and happy in her life, without me!

I was so busy thinking about what to do next when I heard a knock on the door and then I saw Aarav enter.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have talked like that." he apologized as he came and stood in front of me.

"What should I do Aarav?" I asked as he was the only person at this moment who can guide me to the right path.

"I don't know. I completely understand your point and even agree with what you said but I also feel bad for Misha, the love she has for you is just unexplainable. The divorce thing will hurt her so much."

"I know. She begged me today saying that she don't want divorce." I replied and saw his face drop again.

"You told her about the divorce?" he asked.

"No, I said I didn't thought about any solution but I guess she figured that it's the only option we have."

"I really don't know what to say next, I can force you to love her because love is not something we can force and on the other hand, I can't make Misha to forget you, I can't take away all the feelings she has for you." he said very sadly. The only hope I had faded now.

"I just want to make a small request, don't hurry, maybe we can find a better solution." He said making me nod. Here we both knew that there isn't going to be any other solution but still we were willing to fool ourselves.

After some time I made my way towards home, all the while I kept thinking for the another solution however nothing came up. As the distance to my home decreased, the fear of meeting Misha increased. I don't know why but I was scared to meet her. I did say that I will talk to her when I get home but now I don't have anything to talk about. I don't want her to get hurt, I don't want her to cry again. I guess I can only give her relief for sometime by saying that I still haven't thought about anything.

I went home and saw Janvi feeding Isha. I looked around the house to search for Misha however she was not there.

"Janvi, Where's Misha?"

"She went to her parents home and is going to stay there today." Janvi replied.

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