i'm still so nervous.. but happy at the same time. we sat at our chair and wait for the announcer. awards are given to all the artist that they mentioned. finally, it's our category.. it's not a big category.. cause we are still rookie, but this year rookies are amazing. there's many of us. so it's a pretty hard fight.

This year, winner of "Rookie of the year" is...
the mc stopped and let us wait a bit. all of the fans in the building is screaming their bias group name. i heard our fans screams "Star Groups". finally, the mc opens her mouth.. and...
"STAR GROUPS, CONGRATULATIONS!"
wait,,, WHAT??????

are you serius??? all 6 of us are standing with our suprised face. we really didn't think we would win. of course we had faith.. but.. it's still amazing. we come up to the stage and receive our trophy along with a flower bouquet. our leader started giving speech and thanks to all the people that supported us. 2 of our members are crying. i was too surprised to cry.. my brain works so slow.. i was still proceeding the fact that we won.

i heard a lot of people cheering for us, and of course, there is some who didn't like the results. some of the fans have sad face cause their bias didn't won. but i don't care about that. i'm busy being too happy and respectful too all the people cheered for us.

i look at BTS, they are smilling and clapped for us. oh gosh, they're the best senior. i felt like they give me power too keep going. especially that man.. jeon jungkook. he noticed me looking at him and he looked back. our eyes met and we stare at eachother for a hot second. finally, we both smiles and nod. i force my head to looked away and smiles to our fans. after we gave enough thanks, we come down and got back to our seats.

the day is over, it's exhausting but fun. after taking a nice shower, i got to my room and lie on my bed. opening my phone, i look to my inbox and found a new message.
"Congrats on today, you'r performance is really cool."
huh?? how did he know? did he saw me on tv? i wonder...