Lucy POV

As tears starts streaming down my face. I realized I never had a chance with him in the first place! Why? Here are the reasons why:

1. He just met me a day ago! I mean who will fall in love with a person you just met? ME! Thats who. I never taught I would be so stupid to do that! Plus he met Lisanna~nee a few months after my 'death'. Wich leads to YEARS of knowing her.

2. He doesn't know me. I mean I could be a killer for all he knows! How would he fall in love with a girl he doesn't even know?!?! It makes me so frusterated at myself how oblivious I am! As I think that a lone tear slips down my right eye.

3. He likes her either way. How do you think I know that? Because they used to play father and mother with Happy as their son! You don't just do that to anybody you see! As more tears starts to fall down landing on the ground.

4. I can't love him even if I wanted to. Why? Because I will NEVER betray my sister like that! Its obvious she likes him. She did say she has a crush on somebody...

5. He hates me. Now this reason isn't really 100% sure if it's true but here goes nothing... I kicked his butt when we battled. Now what does that has to do with anything? If somebody beat my butt infront of everybody and embarassed me I would hate that person or atleast dislike that person!

6. I'm ugly. I mean LOOK at me! I'm too skinny, I'm too small (even if I am taller than Levy) and this list can go on forever and to be honest I don't really wanna cry more than I already am.

7. I'm a crybaby. Now he doesn't know this atleast not yet. But when he finds out he won't want someone so weak like me emotion wise.

8. I'm broke. Sure I don't think he knows this but he's going to find out eventually! I can barely afford my apartment. I FREAKING wear the same shirt everyday! Well sometimes atleast.

9. He will never notice me. Like he knows I exist and all but if I haven't done my awesome entrance he would have never noticed I existed.

10. I have no friends. Why on earth would he even be interested in a loner like me? Sure I haven't being enough time in the guild to make friends but still! I'm still a loner and always will be.

I start repeating  this over and over again until I tripped and everything went black.